Today someone I see as a little sister was ill bc she got an infection and she didnāt want to tell me how, and I put two and two together, bc iām not blind and she later told me she cut herself to deep and had to stitch herself together and got an infection.
That shit cut so fucking deep bro. I canāt do THISSS
Like, sheās such a good person, and sheās been through so much. I can somewhat understand what sheās going through, as Iāve been in a similar mental state, and I think she picked up on that, bc she ended up opening up about what happened but GOD. She said she didnāt know if she was able to survive the year and it wonāt even REMOTELY be her first attempt.
Like, I donāt know what to do other than to check on her as often as possible, which is what I would have wanted others to do, and I think she may appreciate to. Mind you, I knew she was struggling, but today she told me everything. I was just observing before.
I got her to her cousin, whoās bringing her to the hospital or clinic, Iām not sure and Iāll message her tomorrow.
But god, now IāM feeling ill, and I feel so fucking selfish for that.
The one thing that Iām sure of is that thereās a big part of her that wants to live, bc why tell me all this, why insist on going to the hospital and calling someone she trusts for help.
From what I know her family life isnāt great tooā¦
I just had to tell someone, bc I donāt know who to talk about this that would understand.
Iāll probs delete it later so.