βOh, Iβm fine. I have a great past, so Iβm totally fine.β
By popular demand, the sequel/prequel (time travel is funny like that) of i see grey hair, and children that look like you
Tags: Time Travel, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, Meet-Cute, Canon Divergence, Slice of Life, Flirting, Flustered Bucky Barnes, Culture Shock, Happy Ending, Gratuitous Use of Ellipses, Thunderbolts!Bucky
It all happens so fast. Resigning from Congress. Moving back to New York. Taking up the name of the Avengers, albeit dubiously. A new team, new uniform, new weight to bear.
But Bucky keeps his head on swivel for a whole other reason these days. Her presence clings to him long after she is gone. He doesnβt know what to do with himself, but for once he knows why. It throws him entirely off balance.
Could she have been at that press briefing, face buried in a notebook and he hadnβt noticed? Or sitting at the coffee shop he likes on 37th obscured behind a billow of steam? His mind runs with every permutation, every calculation. Had she been in the city when the Void took over? Was she safe? Maybe that had been the key to how he crossed over into a future that had angelic vignettes around the edges.
Some days, he thinks he sees her, somewhere passing in the crowd then disappearing like a puff of smoke. He becomes a tourist in his own city. He wanders the Met, and pays no attention to the painted faces. He pops into the shops at Chelsea Market and doesnβt even register what they sell. Sometimes he takes the subway between boroughs just to people-watch. To her credit, this was the kick he needed to stop isolating himself. Bucky is constantly surrounding himself with people, in hopes that just one might be right.
His patterns shift. His training changes. When he tugs his running shoes on in the common room, he gets stares.
βWhere are you going?β Ava questioned.
βFor a jog.β
βWe have a treadmill, you know,β Walker points out matter-of-factly, earning a scowl.
βJustβ¦prefer the fresh air.β
βThis New York! There is no fresh air!β Yelena calls after him.
He runs anyway, up to Central Park and along the Reservoir, legs pumping and clearing his head enough to dissect every detail of their encounter like it will help him predict when sheβll materialize. The bedroom was wallpapered, he thinks, the barest hint of botanical pattern that bled warmth into the careful design. She must like flowers, with all the plants inside and out. There was a bouquet on the kitchen counter. Hollyhocks? No, gladiolus. He hopes that thereβs always a fresh bouquet in that vase, and that sheβs always delighted by what he brings home. And his daughter. Oh, his precious little girl. Heβll be sure to spoil her rotten, too. He thinks to call her Winnie, after his mother, give her the life that she tried to provide and wanted for him. But really, he would just be happy to have her.
When darkness blankets the city and his nightmares grip him like a vice, he presses his hand to his cheek and imagines that it were hers. On nights he canβt sleep at all, instead of staring at his ceiling Bucky goes up to the helipad and stares up at the sky, comforted by the fact that somewhere, she was under it too. His thoughts drift to picturing what his life will be like. In those few moments alone, he felt younger. Grounded. More at peace. Back to the cool concrete, he imagines how many stars he would see in their cottage outside the city. What was he going to say to her, anyway? βHey, I saw the future this one time and you were my wife in itβ?
Ew. Gross.
Heβll workshop it.
Seasons pass, fall, and spring, and fall again. To his horror, the more time that goes by her image starts to slip away, the slope of her nose and curl of her lashes fading, her silhouette falling through his fingers like sand. Bucky kicks himself for not asking more questions, for more to hold onto. Where did she grow up? Is she a morning person? What does she do for work? At least then, he would have some sort of direction to track her by. He almost asks Bob if he could try to send him back, but figures that would just be cruel for the both of them. He wouldnβt dare tell a soul, anyway.
So he stops looking.
Bucky has never been a patient man, but he waits. He lives day-by-day, comes to terms with the fact that some things cannot be forced. Instead, it leaves room for doubt to come creeping in. The dark parts of his brain starts to convince him it was a hoax. It was too good to be true. He should have known. Shouldnβt have thought anything otherwise or assumed he was worthy of anything more.
Like all good things, that is exactly when it happens.
The sun beams down on Manhattan, not that anyone can tell from the scaffolding and skyscrapers of Midtown shading the streets. Bucky looks like he hasnβt slept in days, because he hasnβt, too busy drowning in mission reports and beating himself up for being naive enough to want. To top off his joyous start to the morning, somebody has emptied the carafe without starting another and finished off the milk in the kitchen without any consideration for the consequences of caffeine deprivation.
So, after cursing under his breath, Bucky throws on the baggiest hoodie in his closet, rips the grocery list off of the fridge and grumbles all the way down to street-level.
The bell above the corner store door chimes as he pushes through and slips a basket over his elbow, relieved when the usually-chatty cashier ignores him for another patron. The dairy case is overwhelming as always. There used to just be milk, why did society have to go and make it complicated? He sighs and grabs the whole milk anyway. Bucky makes his way through his list. Bob and Yelena used up the last of the mac-and-cheese. Ava and Walker had fought over the last protein shake, so it was best if he picked some of those up, too. If they had the Wheaties back in stock, Alexei wanted another box.
Bucky is reaching for the package plastered with their faces when he hears it, from the next aisle.
βYes, Mum, Iβm settling in just fineβ¦Yes, I know New York makes you nervousβ¦β
His hand hovers in mid-air.
βNo, I havenβt met any strange men! Youβre being dramatic!β
His body moves on autopilot, basket abandoned on the linoleum in favour of fixing his hair in the reflection of a fridge door.
βThe apartment is fine. Iβm just not used to all the noise. Iβll learn to sleep through it eventually, I guessβ¦β
He rounds the endcap and his breath sucks out of his lungs like an airlock.
Because sheβs real.
Standing in front of the candy display wearing kitten heels and the smile etched into his very being. Every detail comes flooding back into vivid clarity. Bucky would recognize her anywhere. Sheβs younger, sure, dressed differently with her hair shorter and styled, but in many ways, in all the ways that matter, she is much the same.
Her ear presses her phone to her shoulder as she juggles her conversation and scans the label on the back of a bag of chocolates. βOkay. I love you too, mum! Send my love to everyone! Mwah!β
Her manicured nail taps the screen of her smartphone and drops it into her purse before sensing the presence lurking at the end of the aisle.
βOh, sorry! Am I in your way?β
Tongue-tied.
βN-no! No, youβre good. Sβfine.β
He waited nearly two years to see that smile again. It was worth every second.
βThatβs a relief. I came in trying to find this one kind of chocolate bar, or at least something similar because I was feeling homesick thinking it would make me feel better, and I just seem to keep getting in everyoneβs way.β
Bucky must make some kind of face, because she shrinks.
βSorry, Iβll stop rambling. I know New Yorkers arenβt ones for small-talk. Iβve got to get used to that too.β
βDonβt,β he blurts. βI mean, you donβt have to. Itβsβ¦nice. Change of pace.β
βYou donβt have to lie. Iβm catching dirty looks in the elevator at my place all the time.β
βMβnot, I promise. This city will suck your soul out if you let it. Your first lesson in being a New Yorker, donβt care about what anyone else thinks of you. Still workinβ on that one, and I was born here.β He hopes the smile he offers puts her at ease.
βWell, thank you. Itβs been quite the adjustment. Iβm not really blunt like everyone else is here. Just keep doing my best trying not to take up too much space.β
βWe do mean well.β
βDo you?β
ββ¦Most of the time.β
βSayβ¦didnβt I see your face on a cereal box back there?β
βI will neither confirm nor deny.β
Her laugh is sunshine and summer incarnate. βAnd what was your name, strange man from the cereal aisle?β
ββ¦James. Yours?β
And he finally hears it. He repeats it, forming the syllables carefully in his mouth. It tastes sweet. It suits her.
βWell, James, since youβre a local and Iβm new to the area,βshe begins, scrounging around in her purse for a scrap piece of paper and a pen, βIβd love it if you showed me around sometimeβ¦Or maybe just meeting up for coffee?β
His response tumbles out faster than he can quell it. βYes. Yeah, Iβd love that too. Thatβd be great. I know a good spot. All the good spots.β
She chuckles to herself and presses the torn-out sheet against the store shelf to scribble across it, then folds it crooked and holds it out in offer. βMy number. So we can make a plan. My schedule is pretty open.β
He catches a waft of her perfume when she reaches out, and itβs like he steps back in time. Or forward, because itβs the exact same scent that ripples down his spine as all his muscles release tension. He doesnβt even look down to confirm what she handed him wasnβt just a used candy wrapper before responding.
βIβll call you later. Today. When I get home. Did yaβ¦find what you were looking for here?β
βSomething better, I think.β Her eyes never break from his, her thoughts suddenly hard to decipher from the rise in her cheekbones and mysterious glint in her eyes, but he thinks he sees the upward shift at the corner of her lips and decides it means well. βIt was really nice meeting you, James.β
She passes by him with a brush of shoulders, disappearing into the masses on Park Ave. A moment of panic washes over him in a chill once sheβs out of sight, but when he looks down, the paper is still resting crumpled in his palm.
Tangible. Solid. Real.
Electricity thrums in his veins. Bucky all but floats back to the Tower, forgoing the elevator entirely to bound up 90 flights of stairs before he even realizes what heβs done. Chest heaving, he strides into the penthouse like heβs 22 again and just come back from a date at Coney Island with a grin he is unable to wipe.
Yelena comes to investigate the sound of the usually-unused stairwell door opening, brow quirked and chipped coffee mug in hand.
βDid you get the milk?β
β¦Crap.
A/N: I never expected this story to blow up like it did or that people would want a sequel! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for 100 followers! And my greatest thanks to @heldbybarnes for the shoutout that got me to this milestone. Iβve been a longtime reader of yours so it is a huge honour that you enjoyed my work! I fangirled so hard when I saw you in my notifs π
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i see grey hair, and children that look like you | bucky barnes x reader
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Bucky is at a desperate crossroads. The life he is leading is unsustainable and any sense of purpose or direction still eludes him. When he enters The Void, he is resigned to his fate. But what if, instead of just seeing his nightmaresβ¦he also catches a glimpse of his future?
Tags: Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Domestic Fluff, Married Couple, Slice of Life, Married Life, The Void Shame Rooms, Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug, Thunderbolts!Bucky
Memories plague his senses one after the other.
Of torture. Of demons. Of iron on his tongue and fury crowding his lungs. Bucky charges through them all like a bull.
But he lands in a room he doesnβt recall. His former self is nowhere to be found.
A bedroom. The bed is made, more pillows than blankets. Piled on top of the blues and seafoam greens of the comforter, the fabric lays wrinkled like it knows it will just be mussed again in a handful of hours. Matching bedside tables flank the headboard, littered with personal effects and a novel each, one in near perfect condition, the other weathered and worn with its cover detaching at the spine.
There are photographs. Some faces he knows, some he canβt identify. He finds himself in many. Candids he doesnβt remember being taken. Achievements he has yet to attain. In the centre of them all, wearing a tuxedo, holding a woman draped in white. Hair shorter, grayer, his beard more salt than pepper. His smile lines deeper.
The space is tidy, but lived in. A sock or two left on the rug from a missed toss to the hamper, the closet door left slightly ajar. The rocking chair in the corner with the handmade blanket draped over the back still smells of pine, a bassinet tucked close to the side of the bed. The top of a dresser pushed against the far wall has mostly been converted into a changing table, diapers and wipes stacked next to a jewelry box and some fragrances.
A perfume bottle sits next to his usual cologne.
Bucky tears open the drapes and recognizes nothing of what he sees. A backyard on a rolling hill that sweeps down to an inlet, water sparkling where it laps lazily against the rocky shore. Garden boxes overflowing with flowers, sweet potato vines spilling over the edges, their bright green heart-shaped foliage bringing the world outside further into technicolor. If he craned his neck, he could just see the arm of a porch swing, just hear the chains creaking in the gentle breeze and the wind-chimes hanging from the rafters.
Not a soul in sight. Just the silence of open land and old bones.
Until he hears a voice.
A soft humming coming from somewhere else in the house.
The words are muffled, the accent one he canβt quite place. Itβs a voice he swears heβs never heard before, but it settles into his bones like it belongs there, his pounding heart rate slowing to near-resting.
The sound draws closer with the groan of the floorboards until it is right on the other side of the door and he freezes, head snapping to watch as the brass knob turns and the woman from the photographs materializes in front of him.
Buckyβs heart hasnβt skipped a beat like that since 1942.
She wears faded blue jeans and a ratty old t-shirt with a baby nestled into her hip, barefaced and hair messy. There are bags under her eyes, but she smiles brightly.
She is the most beautiful woman he has ever seen.
βOh, honey! You startled me! You must have snuck past, I didnβt even hear you come in!β She slips past him into the bedroom, and as she does, places a kiss on his stunned shoulder. βI had no idea you had a half-day today. I would have booked us a sitterβ¦β She was talking more to herself than to him as she dug through one of the drawers of the dresser, paying no mind to the gaping hole in the drywall where he had crashed through, pulling out another old shirt that looked suspiciously like one in his wardrobe at home.
Her bare feet planted, Bucky follows with his eyes as she looks him over from head to toe and back again, then sets the baby in the cradle and rounds the bed to the ensuite bathroom. βKeep an eye on her for a minute, please? Just going to change, that girlβs spit-up is no joke.β
And she vanishes again behind the rumble of a barn door, like all of the skeletons he kept locked away so tightly hadnβt just been ripped from the closet moments before.
She reemerges in seconds, hair loose andβ¦yup, that is definitely his shirt. βWell, this is a treat. You look weary, love. Itβs good youβre taking a break. I just put a fresh pot of coffee on, so you have perfect timing. Isnβt that right, little one?β she coos, tracing her pointer finger down the bridge of the babyβs nose before scooping her up again and resting her against her clavicle.
Against his better judgement, Bucky follows her like a rip current down the picture-lined hall, through a door that leads, not into another nightmare, but further into the house.
βI hope Bob didnβt give you too much trouble trying to get here,β she rambles, rounding the kitchen island and pouring a cup of coffee onehanded. βHeβs a really sweet boy. Still got some things to work through, I think, but he has a good heart. They all do.β
Bucky blanches. ββ¦How do you know about that?βHis fingernails bite into his palm, shoulders creeping up toward his ears.
Her mouth curls into a lowercase βoβ in a flash of panic. βItβs alright, James. Youβre safe here. This isnβt one of your bad memories.β
βNo, thisβ¦This isnβt my memory at all, itβsβ¦βhe breathes. βIβm not supposed to be here. Iβm sorry, but I donβt know you.β
She just smiles expectantly. βYou will someday. Not long now.β She presses the mug into his palms, prying open his clenched fingers and wrapping them one after the other over the porcelain. Buckyβs brow tightens. It was made just like he always drank it: a heap of sugar and just a dribble of cream.
Bucky looks down at his trembling hands for the first time since he got here. Really looks. The skin around his fingernails isnβt inflamed and peeling where he usually picks at them from the compounding stress. His knuckles arenβt bruised or cracking. Etched right into the vibranium is a wide gold band thatβs new, tucked up against the joint of his fourth finger.
βThoseβ¦The picturesβ¦This canβt...β
A gust of wind in his general direction could have bowled him over as the pieces come together. Bucky braces himself on the closest chair back. His head swims, heartbeat in his ears and thoughts dying on his tongue. He shakes his head, drilling his eyes shut to make sense of what he is seeing, whether it would all disappear when he opens them.
It doesnβt.
A hand finds hold of his wrist. Featherlight. Steadying. He can feel her pulse hammering through her fingertips.
βBreathe, James,β she appeases. βCome sit down, alright? Iβll explain. Answer as many questions as you have.β
She manages to coax him into the open living room and places the infant into a baby swing, colourful rings and things dangling from the top bar. The little girl snuggles into the cushion beneath her without a fuss and shakes her soft toy contentedly, cooing to herself as it rattles in her miniature fist. The woman then settles at the far end of the couch with her legs tucked beneath her, inviting but granting him distance.
Bucky still hesitates.
The sofa looks like it will swallow him whole, the cushions plush and deep. Another blanket is bundled in a heap on the armrest (there were blankets everywhere in this house it seemed). He reaches out to run the fringed edge between his fingers.
βThis is all very strange, I know,β she breaks the silence. βWeβre not sure how this happened, just that it did. It took you a long time to believe even that much. I wish I had a more satisfying answer for you. Bob is still getting a handle on his powers, but even now he has no idea.β
Finally. The first thing sheβs said thatβs made any sense. Bucky tries to rationalize it, but heβs grasping at straws. Time travel is not a new concept to him. He knows the consequences, that the past can change the future. Knowing too much alters the course of history or leaves it shattered in its wake. One small deviation and the world shifts on its axis. His head spins instead.
βThereβs probably nothing I can say that will prove it to you, but you are supposed to be here, James. I was starting to wonder when youβd come around, but timeβs been a little relative to me these days. Jamie asked me not to spook you when you arrived, though I think I kind of failed at that. It took me a second to realize that you werenβtβ¦you.β
Jamie. Heβs hung up on that. Nobody has called him that name in decades, and he canβt help but like the way it sounds when she says it.
βYou knew I was coming?β
βEventually. You and I talked about it not long after we met; what you saw, what it changed for you. Could never pin down what the date was so it was always going to be a waiting game, but Iβm glad youβre here now. You look like you could use something peaceful.β
He continues to tread carefully. βWhere is this?β
βOur house. Upstate New York. We bought this old fixer-upper on the bay and did all the fixing ourselves. Well, mainly you. I picked paint colours, watched you tear down walls and told you when you screwed cabinet doors on upside-down.β
The room they occupy has a wide bay window that spans almost from floor to ceiling, flooding the space with light. Houseplants thrive in every corner, nook and cranny. A cat tree is set up overlooking the front yard, a fluffy white tail swishing over the edge of the highest perch, unfazed by whoever this strange visitor is in the felineβs house. Bookcases are built into one wall, filled with sci-fi and fantasy and romance novels. More photos are displayed in small frames dotted across the shelving, between alphabetized authors and mementos. His turntable, the only real luxury he owns in his bare-bones DC apartment, sits proud on its shelf, worn by years of use but otherwise exactly the same. A collection of vinyls he could only dream of occupies its own shelf below.
βYou built those bookshelves from scratch. I always tell people that we were sold on the house when we saw that wall because it was the perfect place for them, where we could start our library. Felt like we looked at dozens of houses but this place just felt right. Perfectly imperfect.β
βIβm reading again?β
βWhen you have the time. Right over there,β she points with her sightline to an armchair with a floor lamp curving over it, βwith a cup of tea and your little old man reading glasses.β
Bucky huffs out a laugh through the fog.
Oh, her smile. βItβs a good life. Quiet. Your favourite thing to do is take a nap on the couch in the sun with the baby scrunched up on your chest. I want to say that we sleep through the night, but thatβs kind of changed as of late. We smile. Laugh a lot.β The list keeps growing. Going to farmers markets on the weekends. Board game nights. Beach days in the summertime. βWe try a new recipe every week for dinner and dance in the kitchen. I still step on your toes sometimes. Weβre working on finishing the nursery for when this big girl grows out of her bassinet.β
βWhatβs her name?β he nearly pleads, voice so soft.
βThat would ruin the surprise, Bucky!β
βHow old is she, then?β
The woman absolutely illuminates with pride. βAlmost 3 months now. Runs this whole house. You cried when you held her for the first time. Sheβs had you wrapped around her finger from the day she was born.β
ββ¦Wasnβt sure ifβ¦they did something to me. Never knew if Iβd even be able to have kids.β
βNeither did I. Sheβs our little miracle.β
His daughterβs bright blue, undeniably-Barnes eyes peer up at him without an ounce of fear for the man crusted in dirt and dust. Bucky doesnβt need to know her name to know that heβll adore her, canβt take his eyes off of her. Something so small, so fragile, yet trusts him completely. To his daughter, he isnβt a soldier or a vigilante. Heβll just be Dad, when the only thing heβll have to fight is the monster under the bed.
Bucky swears he sees her smile at him, and his ribs cave in.
βShe just started doing that last week. All gums, smiling up atcha like youβre her whole world. I hope she never grows out of that.β
Neither does he.
Bucky marvels in it, this place, this safe haven that he had supposedly helped build, helped make warm and comforting and whole. Someone wanted him. For all the hurdles he crossed, all the evils he fought, someone saw this shell of a man and chose him. Built a life with him. Had a child with him.
But the more he looks around, he sombers. Shrinks.
βHey, I know that look. What is it, James?β
ββ¦I feel like I donβt deserve this.β
βHey, none of that. Youβre wrong. You have earned this and so, so much more, but for now this is what makes you happy. Iβll remind you as many times as you need me to.β
Tears begins to leech into his five-oβclock shadow as his shoulders begin to quiver.
This woman, this incredible woman, had been trying to keep her distance not to spook him. He saw how her fingers twitched, how she wanted to reach out and stopped herself. This time she couldnβt. The couch cushion to his side sinks as she gathers him in her arms.
And he lets her.
Bucky lets out a whimper like a wounded animal into her neck, his hands finding solace loosely on her hips. βI want to stay,β he whispers, any louder and his voice would begin to crackle. βI want to hit fast-forward. Itβs selfish, I know, but Iβve spent so many nights wishinβ for a life like this.β
Her hold tightens around him. βAnd I would let you stay here forever if I could. Youβll have the rest of your life to enjoy this, but I canβt keep you right now. Your ragtag team of hellions still needs you. Yelena would never forgive me.β
He turns away from her, cheek pressed into her shoulder so she canβt see the contorted expression he makes to prevent a sob from leeching out, nose scrunched and teeth gritted, his hair falling into his face.
βYou have more memories to go through to get to the others. Be brave, just a little longer.β
Bucky wants to get on his knees, to beg, plead and pray to any god he could conjure that this would in fact be real someday, that his life would turn out just like this. That all the pain, suffering, blood and sweat wouldnβt have been for naught. βWhat do I have to do to see you again? To make it real?β he croaks.
βLook at me, James.β She is so tender as she guides him to meet her gaze, pressing her forehead to his. βItβs already real. Itβs already set in motion, just be patient. Keep doing what you feel is right. Until then, youβll dream. Of what you want to call her, what sheβll call you one day. Of what you want to plant in the spring and what new project youβll tinker with. Of me,β she titters, βif you want. Whatever it takes. And when itβs time, weβll find each other. Donβt forget about us, okay? About this.β
He takes deep cycled breaths, in through his nose, out through his mouth to the rhythm of her hand skating between his shoulders. ββ¦They really need me?β he murmurs.
βThey do.β
Bucky flicks away the lingering tears with his thumb, pulling back enough to justβ¦look at her. Memorize the curve of her lips and cheeks, the colour of her eyes, the texture of her hair. Taking the moment to lock it away where no one could ever take it from him. His wife.
ββ¦Okay.β
βYou will be,β she assures him.
It takes every ounce of strength he has left to pry himself from her steadiness, but the floor feels solid beneath his boots.
The front door remains the only obstacle.
She hugs her torso and trails a few steps behind as he stalks up to it, whatever horror that waits on the other side suddenly not as daunting. The oak is solid, but the doorknob threatens to crumble under the vibranium. Bucky turns back for one last glimpse and inhales with a shudder.
βThank you.β
With glassy eyes, she blows him a kiss.
He rolls his shoulder. Readjusts his grip. Turns his wrist a beat after the exhaleβ¦and puts one foot in front of the other.
Find part 2 here!
A/N: Had to release this before Doomsday ruins meβ¦Started writing this before the new trailers, but in light of the parallels, why not include a Chris Evans-inspired title anyway?
Guillermo Del Toro's Frankenstein is about forgiving the person who brought you into this world without your permission when you do not want to be alive, and about forgiving yourself for being alive and accepting your life free of guilt and that is genuinely the most beautiful, validating thing I have ever seen in a film.
From what I read is that Guillermo Del Toro had a difficult relationship with his father, just like the "Monster" of Frankenstein and Victor Frankenstein had. I took also from this movie to forgive to let go of your pain, just like you said forgive the person who cause you harm and let your spirit free, by allowing yourself to live freely from the chains of anger, resentment and hurt.
As a person that has this difficulty carrying this weight of anger and hurt, having a similar relationship with my father. It means everything to me this beautiful story.
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A Seat at the Table Part 2 | Bucky Barnes x Reader
Summary: Journalism was supposed to be about the truth. Politics was supposed to be about power. Somehow, youβve ended up as Bucky Barnesβs unofficial campaign speechwriterβarguably against your better judgmentβand Valentina has you exactly where she wants you.
Parts: Part 1
MCU Timeline Placement: Mid Captain America: Brave New World
Master List: Find my other stuff here!
Warnings: Brief injuries, almost getting run over by a car, talk of traumatic events (rats, small spaces, lack of food/water, some more stuff but not super specific), adult language
Word Count: 10.8k (oops)
Authorβs Note: the very much requested part 2 is finally here and if thereβs one thing i know how to do, itβs a slowburn, baby. so YES, thereβs going to be a part 3 because apparently i have no self-control and this got so much bigger than i planned. hopefully this all eventually leads into thunderbolts but honestly?? who knows. weβre just along for the ride at this point.
The office was quiet, save for the hum of the overhead fluorescents and the distant sound of a siren wailing somewhere beyond the city skyline. A half-dead ficus stood in the corner, wilting under the weight of too many late nights and too few people bothering to water it. The long conference table was scattered with notes, empty coffee cups, and a stack of draft speeches that had been edited into oblivion, whole paragraphs slashed through with thick, impatient strokes of red ink.
You sat at the far end of the table, boot propped against the chair beside you, fingers idly tapping a pen against your legal pad. The scrawl of your own handwriting stared back at youβhalf a speech, unfinished, an argument waiting to be shaped into something sharper, something that might actually land.
Across from you, Bucky Barnes leaned against the desk, arms crossed, head tilted slightly as he read over the latest draft youβd handed him. His suit jacket was draped over the back of his chair, tie loosened, sleeves of his button-down shoved up to his elbows, one cuff folding slightly over the black plates of his arm. His hairβlonger than it had been a few months agoβwas pushed back in a way that looked more like an afterthought than effort, just neat enough to keep it out of his face, just messy enough to betray the habit of running his fingers through it.
The TV in the corner was on mute, flickering images of a campaign event from earlier in the week looping on the screen. A still of Sam Wilson shaking hands with some senator filled the lower half, the shield strapped to his back catching the glow of the camera flashes.
The chyron at the bottom of the screen read: βCAPTAIN AMERICA SPEAKS AT FUNDRAISER FOR BARNESβS FINAL CAMPAIGN PUSHβ
Buckyβs eyes flicked up, catching the screen before he exhaled slowly, shaking his head.
βYou think he actually likes doing this political shit?β he muttered.
You smirked, flipping your pen between your fingers. βWho? Sam?β
Bucky nodded, the ghost of something like amusement tugging at his mouth. βMan can talk circles around anyone in that room, and he makes it look easy.β He glanced down at the draft again, turning the page over between his fingers before adding, βMeanwhile, I canβt get through three sentences without wanting to set something on fire.β
You snorted. βYeah, well. Captain America had to learn how to play the game eventually. You, on the other hand? You still act like every speech is a hostage negotiation.β
Bucky huffed, tossing the pages onto the desk. βStill that bad?β
βNot bad,β you said, stretching your legs out under the table. βJustβyou knowβgritted teeth and thinly veiled contempt. Plays well with the disillusioned voters, though.β
He smirked, shaking his head. βThen maybe I should start charging you for this. I do enough of your job as it is.β
Your brows lifted. βMy job?β
βYou think I donβt see you stealing half my speech notes for your op-eds?β He cocked a brow, arms still folded across his chest. βIf I didnβt know better, Iβd say you were softening on me.β
βOh, donβt get ahead of yourself, Barnes,β you said, picking up your pen again. βYou still make my life a nightmare.β
βMutual, then.β
Silence stretched between you. You both knew what this was, what it wasnβt. You werenβt officially his speechwriter. You werenβt officially part of his team. You werenβt even supposed to be in this office. But somehow, over the past few months, you kept ending up hereβhanding him drafts, scraping the bullshit out of his speeches, making sure the words on the page actually sounded like him instead of whatever polished nonsense his campaign manager kept feeding him.
And yet, despite all of itβdespite the way Valentinaβs presence loomed over this campaign like a specter, despite the way you both knew she was pulling levers behind closed doorsβBucky kept showing up. Kept asking you to strip the excess from his speeches, to make them sharper, truer, less of what they wanted and more of what he could actually stand behind. There was manipulation at play, undeniable, but that didnβt mean he wasnβt choosing this, too. That was the thing about people like Valentinaβshe didnβt waste time bending men who werenβt already leaning in the direction she wanted them to fall.
Bucky rolled his shoulders, the tension in his frame barely shifting. His eyes flicked to the legal pad in front of you, the unfinished speech staring back at both of you like a dare.
Finally, he sighed. βAlright.β He nudged his chin toward the page. βLetβs try this again.β
You smirked, flipping to a fresh sheet.
βYeah,β you muttered, clicking your pen. βLetβs.β
The pen hovered over the blank page, waiting. Bucky sighed, rubbing a hand over his jaw before shifting in his chair, sliding lower like the weight of this whole damn thing was finally catching up to him.
You leaned back slightly, waiting.
He didnβt start talking right away. That was just how this wentβhim stewing over it, running things over in his head before saying them out loud, like he needed to make sure the words werenβt weapons before he handed them to you.
Youβd gotten used to it.
Bucky exhaled slowly, tapping his fingers once against the edge of the table. "They want me to focus on national security. They want that to be the last one before the vote. The final pitch."
You hummed, flipping through one of the drafted speeches, skimming over the kind of pre-packaged language his campaign manager loved to shove down his throat. The phrases practically glowed in sanitized, consultant-approved jargon: "Restoring trust through strength." "A new era of security for a changing world." "Protecting America from unseen threatsβat home and abroad."Β
All meaningless. All safe. The kind of words designed to lull people into nodding along without actually saying a damn thing.
You snorted, shaking your head. βSecurity. Right. Because nothing screams βelectableβ like the ex-assassin telling people he knows whatβs best for their safety.β
Bucky gave you a look, deadpan. βYouβre really bad at pep talks, you know that?β
You smirked. βNot what you keep me around for.β
He shook his head, rubbing at the tension in his temple. βThey want me to talk about the country needing to βprotect itself from future threats.ββ His mouth twisted slightly, like he was already disgusted with the words before they even left his lips. βWhich is a great way of saying βwe should keep putting more weapons into the hands of people who already have too many.ββ
βAnd let me guess,β you muttered, scanning the pages again, βmeanwhile Kendrickβs out there talking about βrestoring law and orderβ like a bad cop drama?β
Bucky let out a sharp breath, somewhere between a scoff and a laugh. βYeah. Except instead of a cop, heβs a guy whoβs been selling his soul to defense contractors for decades.β
You set your pen down, watching the way his jaw tensed as he said it.
You knew the type. The ones who could sit in a press conference and talk about security while their hands were buried deep in the pockets of weapons manufacturers and intelligence firms. Kendrick wasnβt just Buckyβs competitionβhe was the last name on the ballot standing between him and a seat in Congress. A seasoned politician, old-school and untouchable, the kind of man who knew how to smile for the cameras while cutting deals in rooms the public never got to see. The kind with just enough charisma to make people believe in him, just enough insulation to make sure no scandal ever stuck for long.
Buckyβs fingers drummed against the table, restless. βHe gets to stand up there and talk about making people feel safe, while Iβm supposed to convince them they actually areβlike the truth isnβt just gonna piss them off.β
You tapped your pen against the pad, considering. βSo, what do you want to say?β
Bucky sighed, dragging his thumb along the edge of the table, pensive. βI donβt want to keep talking about what this country should be afraid of. I want to talk about what weβre supposed to be fighting for,β he muttered. βToo bad it doesnβt mean anything if people donβt believe it.β
You glanced up, watching the way his shoulders carried the weight of every speech, every question, every headline dissecting his place in this campaign. The exhaustion was thereβbone-deep and settlingβbut there was something else, too. Something sharper.Β
You arched a brow, flipping the page. βSure it does. Means they want you to stand up there and tell people that the worldβs on fire, and youβre the only one with a bucket.β
His mouth twitched slightly, but his eyes remained sharp. βAnd what do you want me to say?β
You tapped the pen against the paper. βDoesnβt matter what I want, Barnes. Youβre the candidate.β
He exhaled through his nose, rubbing a hand over his jaw. βItβs not just about policy,β he muttered. βNot really. People donβt trust the government. Hell, they barely trust each other. And now theyβre supposed to trust me?β
βTheyβre supposed to trust what you stand for,β you corrected. βNot just you.β
He tilted his head, considering. βAnd what exactly do I stand for?β
βYou tell me.β
Bucky huffed, shaking his head. But he didnβt deflect. He didnβt roll his eyes or change the subject. He sat with the question, turning it over in his head before finally answering.
βI stand for the people who donβt get a seat at the table.β His voice was steady, low, but unwavering. βI stand for the people who donβt get a say in the choices that rip their lives apart. Who wake up every day wondering which law or policy or backroom deal is going to make it harder for them to get by.β
You jotted down a few notes, nodding. βGood. Keep going.β
He exhaled through his nose, running a hand along his jaw. βI want to talk about representation. Not just the kind that looks good on a ballot, but the kind that actually changes the way this country is run.β He met your gaze, something sharp in his expression. βPeople are tired of leaders who only serve themselves. Of government treating them like problems to manage instead of people to protect.β
Your grip on the pen tightened, writing faster.
Bucky shook his head slightly, shifting in his chair. βThe only way this speech works is if people believe that Iβm not just another body filling a seat.β He gestured vaguely at the notes between you. βI donβt want to stand up there and spit out some well-rehearsed, consultant-approved line about how I βbelieve in the American people.β I want them to believe in themselves again.β
You studied him carefully. βThatβs a fine idea, Barnes, but youβre still gonna need more than ideas.β
Bucky exhaled sharply. βRight. Policy. Thatβs what youβre about to tell me.β
You smirked. βGlad youβre catching on.β
He leaned forward, elbows braced against the table. βThen letβs make it simple. We talk about accountability. About making sure this country doesnβt just fix things when the damage is already done, but actually prevents them from happening in the first place.β
You nodded slowly. βSo, proactive governance, not reactive.β
βExactly,β Bucky muttered. βEvery crisis weβve had in the last decade, the government acts like it came out of nowhere. But it didnβt. The signs were there. The warnings were there. And instead of fixing the cracks, they wait for everything to collapse and then try to clean it up.β He scoffed, shaking his head. βAnd then theyβre surprised when people stop trusting them.β
You scribbled a few more notes, your thoughts moving almost as fast as his words. βSo, your message is simpleβpreventing disaster is just as important as responding to it. And the government has a responsibility to act before itβs too late.β
Bucky nodded. βWe make it about priorities. What matters more? Corporate interests or actual lives? Short-term gains or long-term solutions?β His fingers tapped against the table. βAnd we make it clear that if people want to see real change, they have to fight for it, too. I can get in the room, but they have to keep the pressure on.β
Your lips twitched. βNot exactly a hopeful closing statement, Barnes.β
He shrugged. βNot trying to sell them a fairytale.β
You let out a slow breath, tapping your pen against the pad before setting it down. βYou know,β you mused, stretching your arms above your head, βthe one thing you've had over every other person in this race is that you donβt lie to people.β
Bucky huffed a quiet laugh. βThat supposed to be a compliment?β
βItβs a fact,β you said, cocking your head at him. βThe others promise the world, tell people what they want to hear. You tell them what they need to hear.β You leaned forward, voice dropping slightly. βThatβs why they believe you, Barnes. Because you donβt pretend. You donβt polish it up or try to make it pretty. You tell them the truth, even when itβs ugly. Especially when itβs ugly.β
Bucky exhaled through his nose, studying you for a moment before looking back at the half-finished notes sprawled between you.
βThat why you keep coming back?β he asked, voice low. βYou believe me?β
You held his gaze, unwavering. βYeah,β you said finally. βI do.β
Silence stretched. His jaw twitched slightly, like he was chewing over something. You could feel the shift between you, the air pulling taut, something neither of you had put a name to yet.
βSo, whatβs the last line?β Bucky muttered, glancing toward the legal pad. βThe one that wraps it up. The thing thatβll stick.β
You smirked, picking up your pen. βSimple,β you said, scrawling the words across the page, each stroke deliberate, final. You turned the pad toward him, watching as his eyes flicked over the line, his mouth pressing into a thin line.
"A government that only acts when the damage is already done is a government that has already failed its people."
He didnβt speak right away.
Then, finallyβ
βThatβll work,β he murmured.
You smirked. βDamn right, it will.β
Bucky hesitated. You could see itβthe way his fingers twitched slightly against the table, the subtle shift in his posture, like he was trying to decide if this was a mistake before he even made it.
βDinner,β he said.
You blinked. βWhat?β
He nodded toward the notepad, voice still even, casual. βWe can finish it over dinner.β
The words were simple. They shouldnβt have made your chest feel tight. Shouldnβt have made the room feel smaller, the air thinner. Shouldnβt have sent something sharp down your spine.Β
Your breath hitched, mouth opened, but before you could respond, your phone buzzed.
The sharp vibration against the table shattered the moment before it could settle, before you could even decide what you would have done with it.
You swallowed, glancing at the screen. A message from your editor. A name. A location. Another story. Another deadline.
You exhaled, dragging a hand through your hair before shaking your head. βSorry. I canβt.β
Bucky hadnβt moved, but the shift was already there. That fragile, invisible thing between youβthe thing that was there one second and gone the next, like the second you looked away, it had slipped through your fingers.
βRight,β he muttered. A slow nod. βOf course.ββ
The words were even, measured, but you could hear it. That subtle undercurrent of something being pulled away too fast to be caught.
You hesitated.
Then you pushed back your chair, grabbed your bag, and walked out before you could make a mistake.
The fluorescent lights of the office flickered, buzzing against the quiet thrum of the city beyond the glass doors. Your steps echoed down the hall, each one more determined than the last, phone still clutched in your palm.
It wasnβt until you reached the lobby that you saw her.
Valentina Allegra de Fontaine was perched on the edge of a bench near the elevators, ankles crossed, gloved hands resting neatly on her lap. She always had the uncanny ability to appear exactly when she wanted to. No sooner. No later. Like a predator stepping out of the brush the second its prey let its guard down.
Right when you stepped past her, she rose effortlessly, falling into step beside you.
"Well," she mused, voice like silk wrapped around something sharp. "I was wondering why his speeches were suddenly resonating."
Your fingers curled around your bag strap.
"Excuse me?" you muttered, keeping your pace steady.
Valentina didnβt look at you. Just smiled, like a cat toying with a mouse.
"James has never been much for words," she continued smoothly. "Always more of an action man. But lately?" She hummed. "Lately, heβs been convincing." Her head tilted slightly, dark eyes flicking to you. βAnd then I realized why.β
You didnβt react. Didnβt give her the satisfaction.
You reached the elevator, pressing the call button with a little more force than necessary. The light flickered, too slow, and you could already feel her presence settling beside you, unhurried, unrushed. Like she had all the time in the world to pick at the edges of whatever fraying patience you had left.
βI did my homework,β Valentina murmured. βYouβre quite the investigative journalist, arenβt you? The Postβs golden child. Always digging. Always poking holes in carefully constructed narratives.β She clicked her tongue. βYou broke that pharmaceutical corruption case three years ago. The one that tanked a senatorβs career.β
The elevator doors slid open. You stepped inside, shifting toward the far wall, but Valentina followed without hesitation, moving with that same effortless grace, like she belonged in every room she entered.
"But here you are," she mused. "Writing speeches for a congressional candidate instead of taking him apart in a front-page investigation." She shook her head, mock-disappointed. "I have to wonderβwhat changed?"
You exhaled sharply, jabbing the button for the ground floor. "I donβt have time for this."
Valentina laughed. Light. Amused.
"Oh," she purred, stepping just a little closer. "Iβm not here to waste your time."
The elevator hummed as it descended, the numbers ticking down too slowly.
βLet me guess,β you said, voice steady. βThis is the part where you tell me to back off. That I should stay in my lane. Maybe you throw in a vague threat, something just subtle enough that I canβt do anything about.β
Valentina hummed, the sound low, indulgent, like she was savoring the taste of your words. βOh, please. You wound me.β Her gloved fingers smoothed over the lapel of her coat. βI donβt waste threats on people who already know how the game is played.β
Your grip on your bag strap tightened. βThat supposed to be a compliment?β
She sighed, tilting her head as though disappointed. βItβs supposed to be a recognition of talent. I do so appreciate talent.β A glance, a quick flick of her dark eyes over you, dissecting, appraising. βAnd you, darling, have always known where to put your knives.β
The elevator dinged as it reached the ground floor.
You stepped out without hesitation, but Valentina followed, matching your pace effortlessly.
βWhat do you want?β you asked.
Valentina exhaled, all mock patience. βFor once? Nothing. At least, nothing you havenβt already given me.β
You frowned, but she pressed on before you could respond.
βJames needs to win,β she said smoothly, as if the words werenβt weighted, as if they didnβt carry implications that twisted sharp in your ribs. βAnd lucky for me, youβve been doing a rather admirable job of ensuring he does.β
Your stomach turned.
βHis numbers have been rising, you know,β she continued. βPolling higher than expected. Voter sentiment shifting. Itβs quite the thing to watch.β She flashed a smile. βOf course, Kendrickβs still ahead. But not by much. You have quite the talent. Turning a man of war into a man of the people.β
Your lips pressed into a thin line.
She leaned in just slightly. βBut the thing about words? They have a nasty habit of controlling the people who wield them. And youββ She let her gaze flick up and down, slow, precise. βYou have a tendency to use them like weapons.β
Your heart thumped, but your face remained unreadable.
βYou should be thanking me,β she went on, tilting her head. βI could have had you pulled from the inside a long time ago. Could have cut you off before you ever set foot in that office. But I didnβt. Because unlike you, I know how to recognize usefulness when I see it.β
The words slid under your ribs, sharp, quick. Your hands curled into fists at your sides, nails pressing crescents into your palms. βYou donβt trust me.β
Her amusement deepened. βOf course not, dear. Youβre a journalist.β
Your breath came slow, controlled. βThen why are you talking to me?β
Valentinaβs eyes glinted, something calculated sparking there. βBecause trust is irrelevant when interests align. James is going to win. That much, Iβm sure of. What I donβt knowβwhat I canβt quite decide yetβis whether or not you are going to be a problem.β
Your spine stiffened.
βAnd donβt mistake me, darling,β she said, voice lowering just slightly. βI am very good at dealing with problems.β
Your pulse ticked at your throat.
A long silence stretched between you.
Finallyβshe stepped back, adjusting her gloves, sighing as though the whole conversation had been a mild inconvenience rather than a scalpel dragged between the ribs.
βI do hope you make the right choice,β she murmured. βIt would be such a shame to see talent like yours wasted.β
She turned, but just before she stepped away, she pausedβjust for a fraction of a second, just long enough to let the silence stretch. Then, with a ghost of a smirk, she added, βAnd do be careful. Wouldnβt want to leave your editor hanging on that tip.β
Your blood ran cold.
Then, just like that, she turned.
She walked away, each step measured, unhurried, as if she had never questioned whether she owned the outcome of this exchange.
You stood there for a second too long, fingers curled tight around the strap of your bag. The office lobby around you hummed with its usual late-night rhythmβsecurity guards chatting near the front desk, the distant ding of an elevator, the soft rustle of a janitor wheeling a cart down the hall.
Normal. Mundane.
Except none of it felt that way.
She wasnβt supposed to know about the tip. The one your editor had just texted you about mere minutes ago.
The information had come through the paper, through channels Valentina shouldnβt have access to. Unlessβ
You exhaled slowly, shaking the thought loose before it could root too deep.
Coincidence. Maybe sheβd been tipped off, just like you had. Maybe she was keeping tabs in ways you hadnβt considered. Maybe this was just another power move, another way to remind you that she saw every step you took, even before you made it.
But maybe it wasnβt.
Maybe sheβd been the one pulling the thread before you ever reached for it.
You swallowed, ignoring the tight coil of unease in your chest as you pushed through the glass doors.
The night air was crisp, biting against your skin, but it didnβt ground you the way you needed it to. A cab rolled past. A man leaned against a lamppost, cigarette ember flaring, his gaze flicking up briefly before losing interest.Β
Your phone buzzed again.
You swallowed.
Valentina was right about one thing. What you and Bucky were doing wasnβt just another story.
It hadnβt been for a while.
You had ink-stained fingers and a number in your pocket that didnβt belong to a source, but to a man who was never supposed to mean anything. A man whose name had been a headline long before it had been something you said out loud.
You needed to go. You needed to get in a cab, chase the lead, do your job.
The job. The thing that had pulled you away from the campaign office, from Buckyβs unfinished speech, from the lingering hesitation in his voice when he asked you to stay.
You inhaled once, slow and steady, before stepping off the curb, into the street, back toward the job that was supposed to be your real life.
The city at night had its own kind of rhythmβone that thrived in alleyway murmurs and the slick shine of wet pavement, in the glow of neon signs flickering against empty storefronts and the low hum of a world still moving even as most of its people slept. It was a rhythm you knew well. Had lived in. Had worked in. Had followed through a hundred different stories, chasing down leads that unraveled into something bigger, something uglier, something that always made you wonder if you had enough ink in your pen to write it all down.
But tonight felt different.
Maybe it was the weight of Valentinaβs words, coiling tight in your ribs like a warning you hadnβt quite figured out how to heed. Maybe it was the way Bucky had looked at you before you walked awayβthe flicker of something that made your stomach twist in ways you werenβt prepared to examine.
Or maybe it was the phone call with your editor an hour ago, still echoing in your head.
"Tip came in earlier today," heβd said. "Anonymous. Said itβs big. Said itβs about Kendrick. It came through the encrypted line. No trace back. Just a message: Where the city keeps its pockets full and counts what it cannot afford to lose. Level three, space forty-two. Midnight."
That had settled deep in your chest, sharp and cold.
This wasnβt just a leadβit was a thread someone wanted pulled.
And you had a damn good idea who that someone was.
Valentinaβs voice from earlier slipped back in, curling around your thoughts like smoke. Sheβd known. Sheβd known before youβd even gotten the call.
Of course she had.
Other journalists at The Post had been circling Kendrick for months, along with every other journalist in the city, but nothing ever stuck. Whispers of backdoor deals, of promises made in quiet rooms to the kind of people who made careers disappear when it suited them. But no one had ever gone on record. No one had ever had the proof.
Until now.
The contact had been cryptic, but the meeting spot wasnβt. It hadnβt taken you long to put it together that the puzzle was referencing a parking garage. And where the city keeps its pockets full meant the Financial District. There were plenty, but only one sat beneath the old Federal Reserve annexβthe place where government assets, seized funds, and high-stakes financial transactions passed through before they became numbers on a ledger. A building where money never really stopped moving, even when the offices shut down for the night.
Now, you were here, perched in the shadows of a half-constructed scaffolding rig along the garage, crouched low between stacks of materials covered in dust. The exposed steel framework rattled slightly under the weight of the wind, a loose tarp fluttering against the railings, but it was the best vantage point you were going to get.
Below you, Kendrick stood under the pale fluorescence of a flickering overhead light, his figure a rigid silhouette against the damp concrete. His back was to you, but you could see the tension in his posture, the way his shoulders stayed squared like he was bracing for something. The man standing with him was taller, broader, dressed in the kind of expensive, understated suit that blended into every high-powered political circleβexcept this one wasnβt just any donor, any strategist. This man carried himself with the kind of deliberate stillness that didnβt just suggest power but commanded it.
And Kendrick, a man who never played the underdog, looked like he was trying very hard not to fidget.
You shifted carefully, adjusting your camera, fingers steady against the cool weight of the lens.
The only reason you werenβt snapping photos yet was because of what Valentina had said earlier that night.
"You have quite the talent. Turning a man of war into a man of the people.β
Your fingers flexed against your camera. Focus. You needed to focus.
Your pulse kicked up as you adjusted your position, careful to keep to the shadows, lens focused, framing the shot.
Click.
The garage was mostly empty this late at night. A handful of cars scattered along the rows, a few dark corners untouched by the buzzing fluorescent glow. The air smelled like damp pavement and oil, and every small soundβfootsteps, voices, the occasional rev of an engine from the street belowβechoed off the walls.
Kendrick spoke, his voice low, clipped. You couldnβt make out all of it, but the frustration was clear in the sharp movements of his hands, the way his jaw tensed as the other man stood there, unfazed. Then, without ceremony, the man reached into his coat and handed Kendrick a folder.
Slim. Black.
The kind of thing that usually came with non-disclosure agreements and a paper trail so thin it could vanish overnight.
Kendrick hesitated before taking it, looking around like he could feel eyes on him.
He was right to.
Click.
From here, it was impossible to see what was inside, but that didnβt matter. What mattered was that it was happening. A transaction. An exchange that wasnβt meant to be documented.
And you were documenting it.
Youβd spent years chasing men like Kendrickβmen who spoke about "accountability" while stuffing their pockets under the table. Men who pretended to serve, but only when it served them. You knew this playbook. Knew the patterns. Knew when someone was about to make a deal they didnβt want written down.
And yet, your mind wasnβt entirely here.
It was back in that office. In that moment just before your phone had buzzed.
"Dinner," Bucky had said.
Like it was simple. Like it was nothing.
Like you didnβt already know that it wasnβt.
You leaned forward, straining to get the shot. Another click.
Your foot slipped.
The scaffolding beneath you shuddered as your boot knocked against a loose piece of rebar, sending it clattering down the steel framework. The noise was sharp, unnatural in the stillness of the garage, and before you could reactβ
The manβs head snapped up.
Your stomach plummeted.
For half a second, you stayed frozen, gripping the edge of the scaffolding, willing yourself into the dark, into stillness, into anything that wasnβt seen.
But thenβyour weight shifted, your knee pressing against a stack of unbalanced plywood. It wobbled, tilting.
You tried to steady it.
That made it worse.
The entire pile tipped, crashing down in a split-second avalanche of wood and rusted metal.
A second of stillness.
Thenβmovement.
Kendrick pivoted, already turning toward the car.
The other man didnβt wait. A quick, sharp gestureβan order you couldnβt hear, but you didnβt need to. The reaction was instant. Kendrick yanked open the door and all but threw himself inside.
The car roared to life.
Shit.
You moved, grabbing for the scaffolding ladder, swinging yourself over the edge, boots finding purchase on cold steel. You climbed down fast, breath quick and sharp, hands barely registering the bite of metal against your skin.
By the time you hit the pavement, the black sedan was already peeling toward the ramp.
For one sickening second, as the black sedan lurched forward, you couldnβt tell if it was peeling away in retreatβor coming for you.
You slipped into the shadows of a bus stop, the camera tucked against your chest just as the sedan braked hard, tires grinding against concrete, a single, deliberate motion that sent a ripple of dread clawing up your spine. Not a panicked escape. Not a rushed departure.
A pause. A breath.
Fuck.
Through the windshield, through the tinted glass, you could feel them scanningβheads tilting, figures shifting just slightly as they peered out into the dim sprawl of the city. The garage cast long, distorted reflections against the carβs sleek surface, stretching under the amber glow of the streetlights. But you knew better. Knew they werenβt looking at the lights.
You pressed yourself against the cold steel of the bus stop frame, breath locked tight behind your ribs, camera clutched against your chest. A moment stretched, thick and suffocating, before the back door of the sedan cracked open just enough to catch.
A figure leaned forward.
A glimpse of Kendrickβs silhouette in the dark interior. The shadow of a profile, sharp and watchful. And then, just behind him, a sliver of the other manβa turn of his head, a flicker of movement as his gaze swept the street, methodical. Calculated.
You werenβt sure which was worse: Kendrick, visibly rattled, or the man beside him, so eerily composed.
Your heartbeat thudded, a slow, dull drum against your ribs. You were trapped. One wrong move. One shift in the wrong pocket of light, andβ
The engine revved.
You bolted.
Your bag slammed against your hip as you cut left, weaving through late-night foot traffic, past a group of office workers nursing coffee outside a 24-hour bodega. You didnβt look back. Didnβt need to. You heard the tires peel
You took a sharp left down an alley, breath measured, footfalls light. Youβd done this before. You knew the exits. The escape routes. The places to disappear.
You barely had time to react before headlights cut through the alley, flooding the narrow corridor with a blinding glare.
Shit.
The driver gunned it.
You sprinted toward the opening at the other end of the alley, your breath sharp, legs burning. The car was gaining. Too fast. No time to think, no time to plan.
The bumper clipped you.
Pain exploded across your side as you hit the pavement, rolling with the momentum, barely keeping yourself from slamming straight into the brick wall beside you. The impact stole the breath from your lungs, sent fire screaming through your ribs. Gravel scraped against your skin.
For a split second, the world blurred.
The car didnβt stop.
Didnβt slow.
Just kept going, disappearing into the street beyond like it had never been there at all.
You gasped, forcing yourself up, ignoring the sharp sting where your cheek had scraped against the ground. Blood. Not much, but enough to sting. Your camera lay a few feet away, battered but intact. Your hands shook as you reached for it, breath still coming too fast, too sharp.
Footsteps.
You tensed.
A figure stepped forward, just enough for the light to catch the sharp cut of her cheekbones, the cool amusement settled into the corners of her mouth. Her coat was buttoned to the throat, gloves still pristine, like she hadnβt just stepped onto a street where someone tried to run you down. Like this was just another night.
Valentina.
Of course.
βWell,β she mused, voice lilting over the cool night air. βThat looked unpleasant.β
You wiped the blood from your cheek, forcing yourself to right yourself. βGonna tell me this was a coincidence?β your voice came sharp, even through the ache in your ribs.
Valentina sighed, tilting her head, faux-thoughtful. βYou always assume the worst in people.β
You huffed a bitter laugh. βYou make it easy.β
Your pulse pounded at your throat, but you held her gaze, refusing to give her the satisfaction of seeing you rattled. Because that was the game, wasnβt it? Control the board. Control the narrative. Decide who knew what and when.
She glanced at your camera and smirked.
βWell,β she mused, her tone all idle curiosity, βI do hope you got the shot.β
βDidnβt know I was supposed to be getting one for you.β
She exhaled, feigning patience. βLetβs not pretend. You wouldnβt be here if you werenβt already halfway to the truth.β
You steadied your breath, still aching from the hit. βAnd you just happened to be here, whatβchecking in? Making sure I did my job for you?β
She laughed, quiet, indulgent. βI had faith in your instincts.β A pause, calculated. βThough, I will say, I didnβt expect Kendrickβs people to be soβ¦ theatrical.β Her eyes flickered over the street, like she was barely interested in the mess left behind.
Your jaw clenched. βWhat exactly am I supposed to find here, Valentina?β
She tilted her head slightly, watching you like a cat with a wounded mouse. βSomething useful. Something that ensures our mutual friendβs opponent has a very sudden scheduling conflict on election day.β
Your stomach turned. βSo, this wasnβt just a lucky break.β
She smiled, slow and sharp. βYou think this job runs on luck?β Her gaze dropped to the scrape on your cheek, then back to your eyes, something amused glinting there. βYouβre walking away from this in one piece. Iβd call that luck.β
She tilted her head slightly, studying you with that same unsettling amusement, as if she was enjoying a private joke. βYou always manage to land on your feet. Well, most of the time.β A pause, just long enough for her meaning to sink in. βThough I have to wonderβ¦ was it the fall that hurt more, or the fact that no one came looking?β
Your stomach turned to stone.
You kept your face neutral, but she caught the flicker in your eyes anyway.
She smiled, slow and knowing. βFunny thing about being the fearless truth-seeker, isnβt it? Sometimes, people get so used to you being in the thick of it, they stop wondering if youβll make it out.β Her head tilted slightly. βAnd when you donβt?β She clicked her tongue. βWell, whatβs one more missing journalist in the grand scheme of things?β
The words pressed against your ribs, sharp and deliberate. You knew exactly what she was referring to. The months spent buried in a warzone where the wrong people had noticed you asking the wrong questions. The long stretch of time where your byline had disappeared because youβd been too busy clawing your way back to solid ground.
βYou think I scare that easy?β
βOh, darling,β she sighed, stepping closer just enough to lower her voice. βI donβt need you scared. I need you focused.β
Your pulse ticked, but you held your ground.
She nodded toward the camera. βYou have what you need. Now use it.β A pause. βIt would be such a waste if Kendrickβsβ¦ misstep went unnoticed.β
The meaning was clear.
The dirt was real. The scandal was real. And she wanted you to be the one to put the final nail in Kendrickβs campaign.
She adjusted her gloves, casting one last glance at you before stepping back, as if the conversation was already over. βBut Iβd hurry, if I were you. Some stories have a way ofβ¦ rewriting themselves before they make it to print.β
You exhaled slowly, watching as she slipped away into the night, her heels clicking against the pavement.
The morning air was sharp, biting at the edges of your already worn-thin patience as you stepped into the campaign office, two coffees in hand and a headache hammering somewhere behind your temples. You werenβt sure how you were still uprightβadrenaline, maybe. Sheer force of will.Β
By the time the sun crawled over the city skyline, youβd spent the night piecing together whatever fragments you could findβphone records, flight manifests, old financial disclosures that hadnβt been scrutinized nearly enough. The man with Kendrick wasnβt a staffer, wasnβt a donor, wasnβt someone meant to be seen. A former defense contractor, now conveniently off the radar, his name buried under shell corporations and private security firms with too many government contracts to count. The kind of man who made problems disappear before they reached headlines.
You didnβt know what was in the folder. That was the problem. That was always the problem. You could guess, of courseβblackmail, classified intel, something damning enough to make a seasoned politician stop and think before tucking it under his arm like a live grenadeβbut guessing wasnβt proof.Β
Though, financial records were vague but tellingβa series of wire transfers linked to a consulting firm with no real employees, a few curious adjustments to Kendrickβs campaign filings that no one had bothered to question. It wasnβt enough. Not yet. But it was the beginning of a thread, and if there was one thing you knew how to do, it was pull until the whole damn thing unraveled.
Your head pounded. The coffee in your right hand was your lifeline, the only thing keeping you from dropping where you stood. The one in your left? For Bucky. Because if you were going to suffer through the morning, he was damn sure going to suffer with you.
The office was already awake. Phones ringing, staffers moving in and out, their voices bouncing off the walls in clipped, urgent tones. This was the final stretch. The last week before the vote. Everything was moving at double speed. You wove through the chaos, ignoring the stiffness in your ribs, ignoring the soreness that radiated from your hip down to your thigh, where the SUV had clipped you. A shower and a handful of painkillers had done little to shake the lingering ache. And the scrape along your cheekβwell. Thatβs what the sunglasses were for.
Buckyβs office door was closed. Not unusual. But as you approached, you caught voices. Low, tight. His campaign manager, probably. Whoever it was, they werenβt happy.
You hesitated for half a second, then knocked gently. The voices stopped. A moment later, the door cracked open and his campaign manager slipped out, still mid-sentence.
βIβm just saying, we need to get ahead ofββ They cut off when they saw you. A brief flicker of surprise crossed their face before they exhaled sharply. βBarnes, weβll finish this later.β
Bucky didnβt answer. Just stood in the doorway, watching as the campaign manager pushed past you, already muttering into their phone. The door swung open wider, and Buckyβs gaze flicked to you, then to the coffee in your hands, then back to your face.
His brow furrowed.
βNice sunglasses,β he said.
βHeadache,β you muttered, stepping inside and handing him one of the coffees.
Bucky took it, but didnβt move, didnβt stop watching you. His gaze lingered a beat too long, like he was cataloging something, and you resisted the urge to shift under it. Instead, you reached into your bag, pulled out the neatly printed speech youβd finalized at an ungodly hour that morning, and set it on his desk.
βFinal draft,β you said. βShouldnβt need any more edits.β
His eyes didnβt leave you. βYou planning on sticking around, or was this just a delivery?β
You exhaled, fingers tightening around the cup in your hands. βIβve got work to do.β
βSit down.β
It wasnβt a request.
Your jaw twitched, but you sighed, sinking into one of the more comfortable chairs across from his desk. The leather was soft, familiar, and you hated the way it felt like relief. You were exhausted, more than you wanted to admit. The adrenaline from last night had long since burned off, leaving only the bone-deep weariness of too many hours spent chasing shadows.
Bucky leaned back against the desk, arms crossed over his chest, coffee held loosely in one hand. His eyes were still fixed on you, unreadable.
βYou look like hell,β he said.
βYeah, well. I didnβt get much beauty sleep.β You took a slow sip of coffee, letting the heat burn down your throat. βNot all of us can wake up looking like we belong in a propaganda poster.β
His mouth twitched slightly, but he didnβt bite. Just studied you for another moment before finally speaking.
βSomething happen?β
You hesitated.
The smart move would be to brush him off. You didnβt owe him an explanation. You werenβt his staffer. You werenβt even supposed to be here. But something about the weight of his gaze made lying feel like a waste of energy.
βIβve got dirt on Kendrick,β you said. βCame in as a tip yesterday from my editor.β
Silence.
His fingers tapped once against the edge of the desk. βWhat kind of dirt?β
βThe kind that gets him booted off the ballot,β you said. βMaybe the kind that lands him in a courtroom.β
Bucky exhaled slowly, nodding once like heβd expected as much. Like he already knew the walls were closing in on Kendrick, that something had been brewing under the surface. His thumb skimmed over the side of his coffee cup, pensive. βAnd let me guessβValentinaβs got her fingerprints all over this.β
Your throat tightened. βIt was too convenient,β you admitted. βAnonymous tip, the timing, the way everything fell into place just when it needed to. It was a setup.β
Buckyβs jaw clenched. He didnβt say anything, but you could see the muscle twitch in his temple. He knew. Knew exactly what that meant. Knew exactly what kind of game Valentina was playing.
βAnd yet,β he murmured, voice low, steady, βyouβre still going to run with it.β
Your grip tightened around your coffee cup. βWouldnβt you?β
His eyes flicked to yours, sharp.
You didnβt look away.
You exhaled, fingers curling against the paper sleeve of your cup. βIsnβt this exactly what we talked about? Holding the government accountable before the damage is already done?β The words came low, even, but there was something simmering beneath them. βOr does that only apply when itβs convenient?β
Without warning, he movedβstepping forward, reaching out, and before you could stop him, his fingers slipped under the arm of your sunglasses and slid them off.
You stiffened.
His expression didnβt change, but you saw it. The flicker of something dark, something sharp when his gaze landed on the scrape along your cheek. The bruising that had already begun to bloom around the scrape.
His fingers twitched against the sunglasses in his grip.
βHeadache, huh?β His voice was quiet. Dangerous.
You swallowed, forcing your shoulders back. βDidnβt think youβd take it so literally.β
His gaze dragged over your face, taking in every detail, every mark, and something shifted in his stanceβjust slightly, but enough. His grip tightened around the sunglasses. You had the distinct feeling that if they werenβt made of plastic, they wouldβve shattered in his hand.
βWhat happened?β he asked, voice low.
You shook your head. βNot important.β
He took a slow breath through his nose. βTry again.β
You hesitated. But then, finallyβ
βThey tried to run me down.β
Bucky stilled.
βKendrickβs people?β His voice was quiet. Too quiet.
βYeah,β you said, shrugging, even though the ache in your ribs protested the movement. βWeren't too happy with me taking pictures of whatever the hell exchange happened last night.β
His eyes burned into you, something unreadable coiled tight in his expression. His grip on the sunglasses didnβt loosen. If anything, it only tightened.
βYou should have called me.β
You let out a sharp breath, something between a laugh and a scoff. βRight. Because thatβs my first instinct when Iβm about to get hit by a carβcall Bucky Barnes.β
Buckyβs grip on the sunglasses was so tight you heard the plastic frame creak. His knuckles had gone white, his jaw locked, his entire frame wound tight as a wire, like one wrong move would snap it.
βThat supposed to be funny?β
You exhaled, shaking your head. βNo,β you muttered, dragging a hand down your face. βItβs supposed to be reality.β
Bucky set the sunglasses down with slow, deliberate movements, like he had to force himself not to crush them in his grip. His fingers pressed into the desk for a long beat before he finally straightened, taking a step closer. Not crowding you. Not yet. But there was something different about the way he movedβsomething heavier, something simmering just beneath the surface.
"You nearly got killed," he said, each word deliberate, measured, like he was trying to keep them from turning into something sharper.
βYeah,β you said, because what else was there? βComes with the job.β
His gaze flicked down to your hands, the way your fingers curled against your thighs, knuckles pressing white. His expression shifted, and you hated that he was seeing thisβseeing you. For all the conversations youβd had, all the times youβd debated and picked apart each otherβs reasoning like a game of chess, heβd never looked at you like this. Never like you were something fragile. Never like you could break.
But now?
Now, you werenβt so sure.
"Youβre not a soldier," Bucky said, voice low, controlled. "You're not an agent, not some fed trained for this shit. You're a journalist. Youβre justβ"
His jaw flexed. Just a civilian. He didnβt say it. But you heard it anyway.
That was what got him, wasnβt it? That was what burrowed under his skin and dug in deep. You werenβt supposed to be in this. You werenβt built for this world.
You huffed out a sharp breath. βYouβd be surprised what Iβm built for.β
He gave you a look, unimpressed. βYeah? Enlighten me.β
Your fingers tightened. βYou want to talk about reality, Barnes? Fine.β
His jaw ticked, waiting, watching, but you could already see itβthe way heβd made up his mind about this, about you, about what he thought you were capable of. Like you didnβt know exactly what kind of world youβd been navigating long before his name ever landed on your desk.
You huffed a quiet, humorless laugh, shaking your head. βYou think this is the first time someoneβs tried to put me in the ground?"
Buckyβs expression barely flickered, but you saw itβthe shift in his stance, the weight pressing heavier into his shoulders. You exhaled sharply, dragging a hand over your face. βThis line of work doesnβt come with a safety net. I've been shot at twice, had my apartment ransacked more times than I can count, had a tracker put in my car without me noticing. I've had men follow me home, ones that made me memorize every exit in a building before I step inside. I've been locked in a goddamn shipping container for thirty-two hours, wondering if the next time someone opened that door, itβd be to drag me out or bury me at sea because some asshole didnβt like the questions I was asking.β
Your voice stayed even, detached, like you were reciting facts instead of recalling things that had nearly killed you. βYou ever try to figure out the best way to conserve body heat in a metal box? βCause I have. You ever hear rats scratching in the walls and wonder if youβre dying slow enough that theyβll have time to start eating you before someone finds the body?β You huffed a sharp breath. βThe jobβs not safe. It never was. But I'm still here.β
His expression didnβt changeβnot really. But something flickered, something dark, something cold. It was the kind of stillness that didnβt belong to Bucky Barnes, congressional candidate, but to the ghost of a man who had spent decades in the shadows, hands soaked in blood. The kind of stillness that said if youβd been anywhere near him when any of that happened, someone would have died for it.
Bucky exhaled sharply, dragging a hand over his face before leveling you with a look that could have cut stone. βJesus Christ, you make my past look stable.β
You smirked, though it lacked any real humor. βCareful. Almost sounds like you care.β
His eyes flashed. βYou think I donβt?β
You hesitated.
That was a mistake.
Bucky took another step closer, gaze never leaving yours. βYou think Iβm just standing here, pissed off because whatβbecause itβs inconvenient for my campaign?β His voice was rougher now, lower. βYou think I give a damn about optics when I just found out someone tried to run you off the road?β
Your throat tightened. βBuckyββ
βNo,β he cut in. βYou donβt get to brush this off like itβs nothing.β
Your pulse kicked against your ribs. βYou donβt get to decide how I handle my job.β
He huffed out a bitter breath, shaking his head. βYeah? Well, I donβt see you handling it.β He gestured vaguely at your face, at the bruising creeping along your jaw, at the scrape on your cheekbone. βI see you walking in here like nothing happened, hiding behind those cheap sunglasses, running yourself into the ground like this is just another day at the office.β
βIt is,β you said, voice steady.
He stared at you. A muscle twitched in his jaw. His eyes were burning, unreadable. βThatβs the problem.β
Your fingers curled tighter around the coffee cup, tension knotting at the base of your skull. You hadnβt walked in here for a lecture, for concern wrapped in sharp edges, for Bucky fucking Barnes looking at you like he could see every crack in your armor and wasnβt afraid to press on them.
You exhaled heavily, standing up from the leather chair. βThis isnβt what I came here for,β you muttered.
Buckyβs expression didnβt shift, but something in his posture hardened. βNo?β
βNo.β You exhaled sharply, leveling him with a look, trying to shake off the way his voice was still lingering in your bones. βI came here to give you the speech. The one youβre going to be reading in three days. The one Iβm not making any more edits on, or sitting through another round of your notes for, or sticking around to fix when you inevitably decide to ignore half of what we talked about.β
His gaze flicked to the desk, to the crisp stack of paper youβd dropped there minutes ago. Untouched. Unread.
He didnβt look at it.
He looked at you.
"Youβre just gonna walk out."
"Yeah," you said, voice clipped.
You turned, crossing the room in three steps, but before you could reach the door, his voice cut through the space between you, sharp and low.
βSo thatβs it?β
You stopped.
Your grip on the handle tightened, but you didnβt turn around.
Bucky exhaled through his nose, a sound more frustration than breath. "You almost got killed last night, and youβre justβwhat? Gonna pretend like none of this touches you?"
Your jaw clenched. "It's not pretending," you muttered. "Itβs surviving."
Silence stretched. Long. Heavy.
Then, softer, but not any less intenseβ"You donβt have to do that here."
Something lurched in your chest. Your throat went tight.
You pushed open the door, stepping through before the words could reach too deep, before you could let yourself believe there was anything to be found in them.
The Post newsroom was alive with its usual chaosβphones ringing, keyboards clacking, reporters talking over each other, the hum of a cityβs heartbeat compressed into four walls of bad coffee and worse lighting. Your desk was a disaster. Notes scattered, a half-eaten granola bar shoved under a pile of printouts, an empty coffee cup balanced precariously on top of your monitor. You hadnβt even noticed the time until the sunlight started slanting through the blinds at an angle that told you another day was slipping through your fingers.
The ache in your ribs was duller now, but not gone. The bruise along your cheekbone had deepened overnight, turning a shade that even your best concealer couldnβt quite fix.
Your fingers flew across your keyboard, pulling threads together, tracing financial records, cross-checking timestamps, trying to connect the dots before Kendrick or Valentina or whoever the hell else was involved in this mess got the chance to erase them. You were close. You could feel it. That same electric charge in the air you always got when a story was on the verge of breaking wide open.
A shadow passed over your desk.
You didnβt have to look up to know who it was. The air in the room had shifted. People didnβt stop and look when most people walked into a newsroom.
But they looked at congressional candidate James Buchanan Barnes.
You exhaled through your nose, fingers still moving over your keyboard. "Tell me youβre here because you finally decided to drop out of the race and leave me in peace."
Bucky huffed, amused. "Sorry to disappoint."
He leaned against the edge of your desk, expression unreadable, before setting something down.
You frowned, glancing at the small paper bag between you. It was folded neatly, like someone had taken actual care with it. You pulled it toward you, giving him a look before prying it open.
Inside, nestled in stamped, familiar wax paper, was a handful of dark chocolate sea salt caramels.
You blinked.
Then blinked again.
"Where the hell did you find these?" you asked, because these werenβt just the kind of thing you grabbed at a corner store. These were from a tiny shop in Brooklyn, one that had been around since before you were born, the one youβd bitched about last month when theyβd closed for renovations. The one youβd mentioned once. In passing.
Bucky shrugged like it was nothing, but there was something in his expressionβnot smug, exactly. But something quieter.
"You donβt eat enough," he said simply.
You scoffed, shaking your head. "I eat."
"Coffee isnβt food," he countered.
"Thanks for the wisdom, Mom," you muttered, but you still popped one of the caramels into your mouth, because who the hell were you to waste a peace offering? The salt hit first, then the caramel, then the dark chocolate, and goddamn it, it was good. Annoyingly good.
"Why are you actually here?" you asked, voice still a little clipped, because you werenβt just going to let him stroll in here and buy his way back into your good graces with gourmet candy.
Bucky exhaled sharply, thenβhe slid something else onto your desk. A manila folder.Β
You straightened slightly. Your fingers hesitated before reaching for it.
"What is this?"
Buckyβs gaze flicked to the folder, then back to you. "Something Kendrickβs people don't want you to find."
Your pulse kicked.
Your fingers tightened around the edge of the folder as you opened it.Β
The first page was a document, scanned and printed, the header stamped with the Department of Defense. Not something public. Not something easily accessed. The kind of paper trail that shouldnβt exist, because people like Kendrick donβt leave trails unless theyβre sloppy.
Your eyes scanned the document, fingers gripping the edges, skimming the classified lines buried in jargon and bureaucracy, but the meaning was clear.
A contract. A deal made seven months ago between a private defense firm and a federal oversight committee. The kind of firm that didnβt advertise their services, didnβt have a public website, didnβt get talked about in polite circles. The kind of firm that got hired to handle things off the books.
And Kendrick?
He signed off on it.
You flipped to the next pageβmore documents. Wire transfers. Discrepancies in Kendrickβs financial disclosures that never made it to the public record. Money funneled through intermediaries, overseas accounts, shell companies that all lead back to one photo of a man.
The man you saw him with in that parking garage.
Your throat tightened. "How did youβ"
"Youβre not the only one who knows how to ask the right questions," Bucky said, tone unreadable.
You swallowed, eyes flicking up to his. "And what exactly do you want in return?"
A muscle flickered in his jaw. "Nothing."
You exhaled slowly, the tension between you simmering, not boiling over, but not dissipating either. The previous morning still hung in the air. The way youβd left. The way heβd let you.Β
"You donβt owe me, Barnes," you said, voice quieter than you meant it to be.
His gaze didnβt waver. Didnβt flinch.
"Never said I did."
The silence between you stretched, the weight of it pressing against your ribs, settling in the spaces that had already been frayed raw from the last two days. Bucky didnβt move. Didnβt blink. Just stood there, watching you like he was waiting for something you werenβt ready to give.
Your fingers curled around the edge of the folder, knuckles tight. βI need to finish this,β you muttered, like that was enough to break whatever the hell this was.
Bucky didnβt budge. βYeah,β he said, voice even. βFigured.β
You exhaled, rubbing a hand over your temple. The caffeine had worn off hours ago, and the exhaustion was creeping in like a tide, slow but inescapable. βIt needs to be ready for publish tomorrow,β you continued, more to yourself than him.Β
Bucky nodded once, but his eyes stayed on you, sharp and assessing. βYou gonna sleep before then?β
You huffed a short, humorless laugh. βDonβt have time for that.β
βThat what you told yourself last night?β His voice was quieter now. Measured.
Your throat tightened. You didnβt answer.
Bucky shifted slightly, leaning against the desk, arms still crossed. βYou ever let yourself slow down?β His tone wasnβt judgmental. Justβ¦ curious. Like he was studying you. Picking apart the edges of something you didnβt even know youβd been wearing thin.
You scoffed, shaking your head. βYou ever stop pretending youβre not in over your head?β
Bucky smirked, just a flicker of something dry. βEvery damn day.β
You rolled your eyes. βYeah. Sure.β
He shrugged. βI mean it. I wake up and ask myself what the hell Iβm doing, and somehow, people still expect me to have all the answers.β
βMaybe itβs the arm,β you muttered.
Bucky blinked. βThe arm.β
You gestured vaguely toward it, not even looking up. βYeah. The bionic thing. Makes you look competent.β
Bucky let out a short laugh, shaking his head. βGreat. So, Iβm just a walking political gimmick.β
βDidnβt say that,β you said, flipping open the folder. βBut it does help distract people from the fact that you clearly hate half the events you have to be at.β
His smirk lingered, but something in his gaze sharpened. βYou think I hate them?β
You snorted. βBarnes, I watched you give a press conference last week like you were being held hostage.β
βThatβs not fair,β he countered, tilting his head slightly. βI was just being strongly encouraged.β
You shot him a flat look. βYou looked two seconds away from throwing a chair.β
Buckyβs smirk deepened, something almost amused glinting in his eyes. βOnly because I didnβt see a window big enough.β
A laugh nearly slipped out, but you bit it back, shaking your head. βJesus.β
Bucky just exhaled, shifting again like he was debating whether to say what he was about to say next. And thenβhe glanced at his watch.
You watched the motion, brow furrowing slightly. βDonβt you haveβ¦ congressman things to be doing?β
Bucky hummed like he was thinking about it. βWell,β he said, tapping his fingers once against the desk, βthe event I was supposed to be at is wrapping up in about an hour.β
You frowned. βSupposed to be?β
Bucky shrugged, like it was nothing. βIt was stuffy. I left early.β
You blinked at him. βBarnes.β
βWhat?β He met your stare, completely unaffected.
βYouββ You shook your head, pointing at him with a pen. βYou left early.β
βYep.β
βFrom a campaign event.β
βCorrect.β
You exhaled sharply, rubbing a hand over your face. βJesus Christ. What excuse did you give?β
βDidnβt.β Bucky smirked, watching your expression shift. βI just walked out.β
You stared at him, incredulous. βYouβre polling in the single digits with older voters. And you justβwhat? Left a room full of donors and press toββ You gestured between the two of you. βTo come here?β
Bucky shrugged, unbothered. βFigured youβd make better conversation.β
Your jaw locked, something twisting in your chest, something dangerously close to unspoken.
You swallowed hard, pushing past it. βYouβre gonna regret that when your campaign manager finds out.β
Bucky just huffed a quiet laugh. βWouldnβt be the first time.β
You inhaled, slow, steady, not letting whatever the hell this was settle too deep. Instead, you just shook your head, glancing back at your screen. βWell, youβre welcome to stay.β
Bucky checked his watch again, entirely too casual. βLike I said,β he muttered, glancing up, watching you in that way that felt too knowing, too deliberate. βIβm free in about an hour.β
You swallowed.
Before you could stop yourself, you reached for another caramel.
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