i don't have a dream

∗ o1﹕ sender  tucks  hair  out  of  receiver’s  face . ∗ o2﹕ sender  offers  receiver  a  bite  from  their  fork . ∗ o3﹕ sender  places  their  feet / legs  in  receiver's  lap . ∗ o4﹕ sender  offers  receiver  an  earbud  to  share  their  music . ∗ o5﹕ sender  comforts  receiver  in  the  aftermath  of  a  nightmare . ∗ o6﹕ sender  gives  receiver  company  in  the  hospital . ∗ o7﹕ sender  wraps  their  arms  around  a  hysterical  receiver  to  calm  them . ∗ o8﹕ sender  shows  up  at  receiver’s  home  late  at  night . ∗ o9﹕ sender  falls  asleep  leaning  against  receiver . ∗ 1o﹕ sender  wields  a  [ gun / knife ]  at  receiver . ∗ 11﹕ sender  runs  their  fingers  through  receiver’s  hair . ∗ 12﹕ sender  invites  receiver  to  dance . ∗ 13﹕ sender  takes  a  [ picture / video ]  of  receiver . ∗ 14﹕ sender  places  their  head  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 15﹕ sender  and  receiver  make  eye  contact  across  a  busy  room . ∗ 16﹕ sender  pushes  receiver  against  a  wall  to  kiss  them . ∗ 17﹕ sender  and  receiver  cook  together . ∗ 18﹕ sender  comes  to  receiver  after  being  injured . ∗ 19﹕ sender  sits  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 2o﹕ sender  lifts  receiver's  chin ,  invoking  eye  contact . ∗ 21﹕ sender  overtakes  receiver  in  combat . ∗ 22﹕ sender  finds  receiver  [ injured / bloodied ] . ∗ 23﹕ sender  straightens  an  article  of  receiver’s  clothes . ∗ 24﹕ sender  crawls  into  bed  with  receiver . ∗ 25﹕ sender  rolls  their  eyes  at  receiver . ∗ 26﹕ sender  lights  receiver’s  [ cigarette / joint ] . ∗ 27﹕ sender  is  caught  wearing  receiver's  clothes . ∗ 28﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  with  a  pillow . ∗ 29﹕ sender  writes  a  note  on  receiver’s  skin :  [ note ] . ∗ 3o﹕ sender  wraps  a  blanket  around  receiver’s  shoulders . ∗ 31﹕ sender  runs  and  jumps  into  receiver’s  arms . ∗ 32﹕ sender  shoves  receiver  out  of  anger . ∗ 33﹕ sender  hovers  over  receiver’s  shoulder  as  they  complete  a  task . ∗ 34﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  somewhere  they  shouldn’t  be . ∗ 35﹕ sender  curls  up  against  receiver  in  their  sleep . ∗ 36﹕ sender  is  found  drunk  by  receiver . ∗ 37﹕ sender  throws  an  item  of  sentiment  bitterly  at  receiver . ∗ 38﹕ sender  joins  receiver  in  the  shower . ∗ 39﹕ sender  is  caught  following  receiver . ∗ 4o﹕ sender  traces  one  of  receiver’s  [ scars / bruises ] . ∗ 41﹕ sender  twines  their  fingers  with  receiver’s . ∗ 42﹕ sender  barges  into  receiver’s  home  unannounced . ∗ 43﹕ sender  kicks  receiver’s  shin  beneath  a  table . ∗ 44﹕ sender  aggressively  shoves  past  receiver . ∗ 45﹕ sender  kisses  receiver’s  [ forehead / cheek ] . ∗ 46﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  out  of  harm’s  way . ∗ 47﹕ sender  is  found  sobbing  by  receiver . ∗ 48﹕ sender  locks  receiver  out  of  their  room . ∗ 49﹕ sender  brings  receiver  [ coffee / tea ]  in  the  morning . ∗ 5o﹕ sender  rests  their  forehead  against  receiver’s . ∗ 51﹕ sender  plays  a  song  for  receiver  that  reminds  them  of  them :  [ song ] . ∗ 52﹕ sender  takes  a  [ punch / stab / bullet ]  meant  for  receiver . ∗ 53﹕ sender  buys  receiver  a  drink  at  a  bar . ∗ 54﹕ sender  needs  receiver’s  help  getting  in  the  bath . ∗ 55﹕ sender  and  receiver  cross  paths  in  the  kitchen  late  at  night . ∗ 56﹕ sender  twists  receiver’s  arm  behind  their  back . ∗ 57﹕ sender  winks  at  receiver . ∗ 58﹕ sender  is  found  collapsed  by  receiver . ∗ 59﹕ sender  prevents  an  injured  receiver  from  getting  up . ∗ 6o﹕ sender  claps  a  hand  over  receiver’s  mouth  to  silence  them . ∗ 61﹕ sender  cages  receiver  against  a  [ wall / the floor ]  with  their  arms . ∗ 62﹕ sender  storms  away  from  receiver  during  an  argument . ∗ 63﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  sleeping  in  receiver’s  bed . ∗ 64﹕ sender  [ applies / touches up ]  receiver’s  makeup . ∗ 65﹕ sender  throws  receiver  into  a  wall  during  combat . ∗ 66﹕ sender  dances  sensually  with  receiver . ∗ 67﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  across  the  face . ∗ 68﹕ sender  places  their  hand  on  receiver’s  leg  while  driving . ∗ 69﹕ sender  pulls  a  chair  out  from  under  receiver . ∗ 7o﹕ sender  catches  receiver’s  wrist  when  they  turn  to  leave . ∗ 71﹕ sender  leaves  an  intimate  mark  on  receiver . ∗ 72﹕ sender  beats  receiver  in  a  video  game . ∗ 73﹕ sender  and  receiver  stand  in  stunned  silence  after  a  fight . ∗ 74﹕ sender  cares  for  receiver  while  they’re  sick . ∗ 75﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  on  a  hike . ∗ 76﹕ sender  is  caught  snooping  in  receiver’s  things . ∗ 77﹕ sender  and  receiver  cuddle  while  watching  television . ∗ 78﹕ sender  throws  something  aggressively  at  receiver . ∗ 79﹕ sender  creeps  up  behind  receiver  to  scare  them . ∗ 8o﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  shopping  together . ∗ 81﹕ sender  helps  receiver  [ dye / style ]  their  hair . ∗ 82﹕ sender  draws  receiver  into  a  kiss  by  the  back  of  their  neck . ∗ 83﹕ sender  is  discovered  having  a  panic  attack  by  receiver . ∗ 84﹕ sender  accidentally  injures  receiver  during  sparring . ∗ 85﹕ sender  grabs  receiver  roughly  by  the  hair . ∗ 86﹕ sender  brings  receiver  to  their  knees  during  combat . ∗ 87﹕ sender  shows  receiver  evidence  of  a  lie  they  told . ∗ 88﹕ sender  winks  [ seductively / mockingly ]  at  receiver . ∗ 89﹕ sender  yells  at  receiver  to  put  their  hands  in  the  air . ∗ 9o﹕ sender  helps  receiver  patch  up  a  wound . ∗ 91﹕ sender  holds  receiver  as  they  cry . ∗ 92﹕ sender  silently  and  angrily  points  receiver  towards  the  door . ∗ 93﹕ sender  gestures  for  receiver  to  sit  down . ∗ 94﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  into  their  lap . ∗ 95﹕ sender  cradles  receiver’s  face . ∗ 96﹕ sender  tackles  receiver  out  of  the  way  of  danger . ∗ 97﹕ sender  has  hidden  an  injury  from  receiver ,  and  receiver  finds  out . ∗ 98﹕ sender  confronts  receiver  about  their  unhealthy  behavior . ∗ 99﹕ sender  proposes  to  receiver . ∗ 1oo﹕ sender  has  just  died ,  receiver  finds  out .

୭       ･ﾟ       ◦       ❀      𓂅    guilt  ridden  heart  knocks  in  sync  with  bruised  fist  against  familiar  door  .  unfair  how  the  only  person  that  matters  is  forced  to  be  on  the  side  to  accommodate  superficial  friends  .  ironically  treating  those  who  matters  less  better  than  the  only  one  he  does  unjustly  .  hoping  to  makeup  for  yet  again  ditching  their  plans     ⸻  he  stands  humbly  by  the  door  .  a  bag  full  of  dear  friend’s  favorite  snacks  .  if  the  night  goes  well  , even  prepared  an  overnight  bag  that  clings  behind  shoulder  .  another  knock  while  weight  shifts  from  toe  to  heel  .  ❛  oh  shit  !!  should  have  i  called  first  ….  what  if  he’s  not  home  .  ❜  speaks  with  self  .  and  almost  on  cue  as  he  was  about  to  knock  ,  the  sound  of  the  door  unclicking  resonates  .  a  bright  smile  present  on  plump  brims,  ready  to  greet  BELOVED  FRIEND  .  ❛  my  friend,  mon  ami,  watashi  no tomodachi  !!  ❜  arms  open  wide  with  a  large  grin  on  face  .  ❛  i  have  come  to  atone  for  my  sin  .  sorry  for  cancelling  last  minute  .  but  you  know,  emergencies  .  can’t  be  helped  . ❜  only  it  wasn’t  .

ㅤㅤ" things come up sometimes. it's not like we were doing anything that couldn't wait. —i hope everything is okay though? it wasn't anything serious? "

after  a  long  pause  in  attempt  to  catch  her  breath  .  back  of  hand  wipes  tears  that  stains  her  cheeks  .  breathing  becomes  heavy  after  little  fit  that  was  thrown  . after  causing  havoc  in  the  peaceful  night    ⸻  the  silence  felt  defining  . so  certain  that  she  was  alone  that  when  another  voice  was  heard ,  it  made  her  jump .  ❛  god  ?  ❜  calls  out  as  first  instinct  before  looking  around  . the  sight  of  the  stranger  startled  her  .  quick  to  fix  self  and  act  as  if   she  did  not  just  screamed  her  lungs  out  .  ❛  oh  no ,  i’m  fine .  i’m  fine  . ❜  forces  a  smile  out  though  voice  stained  with  blue  .  ❛  just  fine  .  and  you,  are  you  fine  ??  ❜  awkwardly  asks  .  hated  nothing  more  but  appearing  weak  .  with  all  the  odds  against   her  and  family ,  showing  any  sign  of  vulnerability  will   certainly  not  lead  anywhere  good  . ❛  so  like  …  how  long  have  you  been  there  ??  ❜  

ㅤㅤ" i mean, unless... you'd like to vent to someone. ...maybe that's weird to say since we don't know each other, but. i don't know, sometimes it helps to just have someone listen. " or maybe he should just shut up. fighting off the urge to cringe at himself and the way he stumbles over what's meant to simply be a compassionate gesture, si-u shakes his head. hopefully he hasn't made this all even more awkward than it already is. " uhm. what i mean is... just say the word and i'll go. but... i don't mind staying either, if you'd like someone to hear you. "

"It helps that the ones I have are very used to people," he said. "That one's called Reeces and he likes having his head pet, if that helps any."

ㅤㅤ" reeces? " si-u repeated, just to confirm he'd heard correctly. taking the suggestion, he carefully lifted his finger once those tiny hands released it and ran it gently over the rat's head in an affectionate stroke. " you have a lot, right? —of rats, i mean? do they all have unique names? "