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I'm trying to move forward I'm not for everyone I'm ultimately not alone

"You make me feel all..." as he wiggled his shoulders and I fell a little closer towards him. I've been stuck at the door for about 45 minutes trying to say goodbye to this guy. He walks around like I do and I imagine if sped up it would look like we were dancing all night. I used to dream of such a likeliness of him when I was younger... blue eyes and dark hair. I keep thinking back to first meeting him. How strange it really was. Courting someone through the Internet. Now it's 6 a.m. on a Wednesday, I believe like 6 years later, and it's still hard to leave. I ached to relocate to his bed and sleep. His stare is fulfilling every time I feel it and pretend I don't. Kissing me bye... practically pulling myself from his magnetic body. Kiss me in front your dad, "make me" so I did. I then left. A long sigh as i was quickly walking to reach my car door handle. The mornings are cold this time of year. That morning was a beautiful backdrop for my drive home.

Thinking of a street light Thinking of many As we drive by and they trail into each other Talking of nothing and yet my company you have Anxious I am, too much This isn’t enough The night hours don’t last long I lay in bed after being dropped off My legs rub against my sheets And tingles come through my body Once again I’m left with the sweet sensation Of my magic hands in between my thighs Never have had a man touch me Like I can

I loved you, right as soon as you walked through the room Eyes light green as if helping a flower bloom My heart still feels faint Every single time I hear your name Seeing your face, I come completely unglued No one makes me feel like you do I can never try to love anyone else For I know deep inside that would be untrue I've tried and failed a few times and once lost even me too I'd wait my entire life for you I'd die alone without you I love you and the way you move Your voice, the most trembling smooth How you tower over me How you absolutely devour me How I wonder, what is this ache you do My chest is so heavy when you're away My dreams keep you close, that's where you stay You lay beside me, arms so tight around me Like when it's actually just us two And you can't help but be moved Into mush we melt into each other Taking small pieces with us as we go Forever we guide back to one another Until we finally just grow the seeds sown I love you, it never changes I'll love you until I can't breathe Loving you is and will be eternally easy for me

Here I am Up at 3 a.m. Brain a mess Tossing and turning In my blue night dress Pondering upon rest In my empty nest What's in store tomorrow? I wish to overcome my sorrow Hoping for a distraction But alas that takes effort and action