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“compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright.”

happy birthday, my love ♡

hello, hey? my letters are getting more and more awkward each year, hahah. sometimes i feel like i’ve said everything i wanted to say you already, but as i type more and more words onto this document, i’m probably going to prove myself wrong once again.

birthday letters are all about sappy words and nostalgic moments, aren’t they? i dunno why’s that so but maybe when those elements are present, it’s like feelings of the writer being poured all over it. anyway, i’ve been thinking much about what to say and thought about your past few birthdays that i always liked celebrating. this year would be the sixth time i’m wishing you a happy birthday! it never mattered to me that you will never read anything i’ve written to you, i just like penning down as much as just liking you is enough for me.

when i saw your smile for the first time, i liked you since then. and it never occurred to me that sometimes it’ll feel like i’ll like you forever. it’s stupid, it’s foolish, but oddly enough i have this belief that you were meant to be in my life. i don’t remember much of my life before you came in (okay to be fair, i was 12 when i first had my eyes on you) but i remember always being happy every time i see you, until now. i’m pretty much a very sad person (wow so personal but no one will actually read this so it’s ok) ever since long ago but somehow a part of me still pulls through each day and has the heart to be happy and smile all because of you. i find comfort and happiness of all sorts in you, i see the light you emit every time you smile and imagine flowers blooming almost instantly to the beat of your laughter.

often, i see you as a person full of unspoken words waiting to tell the world who you are. a little frustrating for both you and i, but it’s just your shy persona isn’t it? (cute.) even when you wanted to thank fans for always going to the broadcast venue to cheer for you, it was difficult for you to say it without stumbling on your words and twisting your tongue. you’re still as shy and still as endearing as ever, but i am still so infinitely proud of your growth. it’s hard, but you still always try your best to express what your thoughts and feelings and the message is always sent across well despite it sometimes being cringey or/ and embarrassing.

i like to believe that you were meant to be in my life because of the accompaniment that you are possibly the best thing to have had ever happened to me. you’re humble, kind, genuine with no doubt and the absolute cutest, squishiest, loveliest and an extremely handsome, good-looking and beautiful goofball. you bring sunshine and warmth wherever you go, you are some sort of magic that i’ll never understand and will continue to amaze me every single time because the amount of goodness in you is just unbelievable. you are so wonderfully made, has anyone told you that? your smile resembles a thousand moons and i wish you could see yourself through my own eyes and realise every single form of perfection in you. i find you cute even when you’re clumsy and sometimes doing… weird things. (why do you like asmr sooo much?)

everything that i’ve ever said to you and everything else that i’m going to say, has been ridiculous, will be more nonsensical to others’ ears, but know that every word is sincere. you’re silly, playful and i love those mischievous eyes of yours. when your eyes form crescents and you erupt into waves of laughter while still trying to shoot out remarks, i think you’re the cutest person ever. i may be agonizingly in love with you or the way you make me feel, but either way the rush of happiness that washes over me whenever i see you smile is something i had to learn to get used to with you around and, honestly? i’m still not quite there yet.

on this very day, i thank you for growing up so well. seeing you grow into the star you are today has been nothing but rewarding and inspiring. i thank you for taking care of yourself so well. it’s subtle, but you made it known that you ‘work hard and play harder’, and always let yourself take breaks when you need it. also you always eat whatever you want hehe keep it up! i’d also like to thank you for working hard, because without your passion to realise your dream i would not have been able to come to know you, the mighty lee jeno who has given me at least a million smiles to wear in this lifetime, the lee jeno who is smart, funny, an extremely talented dancer, and a total dork. ♡

happy birthday, lee jeno. i pray that you continue to be a person of good health, bliss and dreams. may you continue to grace this world with your kind and genuine actions and continue to touch the heart of others. may you also receive all the love and kindness you’ve been trying to give the world, because you deserve every single bit of them and even more. when the universe finally lets me cross paths with you, it’s going to be the best day of my life because i’ll finally see the boy i’ve adored since forever doing what he likes most. but until then, i’ll pray that as i look up to night sky tonight, you’re looking at it too.

stay gold, keep burning bright, and soar high!

生日快乐, 我最喜欢的你。 i loveee you