Idk if it’s just me and I’m my head but I really just be feeling so unloved and depressed. So it’s my bday today and you know how one would usually get their phone blown up with a bunch of bday wishes as soon as 12 hits all your friends post videos/pics shouting you out for your bday well i was just triggered cause I woke up to 2 bday wishes. One from an ex boss of mine who really made me cringe the entire time I worked for his law firm. He was so bipolar and toxic as a boss jeez I’m cringing just thinking about it. The second was an old fling. I was way more into him than he was with me and the only reason he probably texted was to build up to asking me for money… ughhh anyways so yeah those were the only two bday msgs I got and I just realize that I spend most of the entire year flaking on people and not responding back to them because I’m too so called depressed to. As I’m ignoring people I’m taking away the opportunity for me to go out and make memories with these people then I think oh nobody fucking likes me cause I don’t ever get invited nowhere and nobody ever calls me but it’s probably because 99% of the time I’m making some phony lame ass excuse not to go do anything so of course people are gonna get tired of trying to invite me and include me in shit. So I end up just being alone and mad that I’m alone when I’m the reason I’m ALONE… I’m toxic as hell to myself…I’m really the problem…wow interesting. Anyways ima smoke a blunt regardless. If you’ve made it this far into my rant then thank you for being here lol Happy 27th birthday to me!!! 🤷🏽‍♀️