you were amazing

AFTG in modern time and its videos titled “Neil’s Josten being unhinged for 34 minutes straight” then there’s “Kevin Day being gay for Jeremy Knox for over 6 minutes” “Jean Moreau and Jeremy Knox being adorable for 27 minutes and 38 seconds.” Lots of “Andrew Minyard being iconic for 8 minutes not so straight”. how can I forget, “Jean Moreau forgetting English core” and finally “Neil Josten vs. Press duty (feat. Kevin day)”.

This is exactly why I wish they were real. Imagine the conspiracy theories. The video essays would eat.

we talk a lot about how much of a revelation andrew’s confession is for neil, and not enough about how revelatory neil’s reaction is for andrew. because like. imagine you like this boy. but he doesn’t swing. you know the answer would be “no,” so there’s no point in even asking. then he goes and gets himself needlessly tortured for you, and tells you there’s no amount of suffering he wouldn’t endure for you. not because he thinks you’re weak, but because he thinks you’re worth protecting. he says things that you would interpret as advances if it were literally anyone else. you remind yourself that he doesn’t swing. now you’re at eden’s and he’s asking about your feelings for him in 12 different ways. he really wants to know. so you tell him, in the most casual and crass way you can, thinking that’ll put an end to it. but unfathomably, it doesn’t. he asks you why you didn’t tell him. why would you have? it would have been a “no.” you say that, and instead of confirming it, he just echoes your words, clearly still reeling. you start to leave, and he tells you that he wants to keep playing your game. while the absence of a “no” is obviously not the same thing as a “yes,” you’ve been operating for months and months under the assumption that the answer would be unequivocal. so you keep waiting for that answer, but it never comes. for the first time since you met him, you wonder if maybe it’s not a “no” after all. if maybe you could have this. you can’t remember the last time you were able to have something you wanted. the world tilting on its axis, indeed.

most weapons forged against me will in fact prosper but please don’t do any of that and instead be nice to me

In exchange for reading aftg, Nora takes your soul for approximately 10 years that’s why it’s the only thing on your mind. That’s also why the digital copy is only a dollar. Hope it helps.

I know it’s been said but pipe dream is such a crazy thing to call someone Andrew really said you are an unobtainable fantasy that I foolishly desire and it went right over Neil’s head