math erao

"Until Failure" began as a meditation on the line between heroism and villainy, but grew into the story of my mental health struggle. I began the song before the worst bout of depression and anxiety I've had yet. I still don't remember much of summer 2015, but I pushed myself to keep working, even though it's the last thing I wanted to do.

As the song took shape, I began coming out of my fog. The title, a play on a fitness term, became a mantra: to keep trying until I couldn't anymore, then take a break and start agin. While I sat on the track for years, thinking of it as a demo, I eventually realized that it captured a moment in my life, and that the voice singing on the song was the one that experienced all that pain.

In sharing this song, I hope that others will be able to face their own struggles and know that, if they just keep going, they can make it out the other side.

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