Need minimum 12 hours a day of do my own thang time

I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

may god forgive my wretched sins (spent money)

something terrible and monstrous is inside me [being in my 20s]

its so crazay how being in a transitional period will have you obsessively reevaluating every decision in yr life to the point of actual insanity…hello

i honestly don’t know how this happened but somewhere between my childhood and formative years i forgot how to exist like a normal person and started to either overthink everything or make disastrous choices without any proper thinking at all. no middle ground whatsoever

dudes who are normal will be like im joker insane but women who have not felt real since they were seven will be like im average normal

i think about the same thing over and over again until it rots in the skull and its just dead there forever