wannabe skinny legend

I want to try to recover I've already been in the process for a while now I need to get away from it online. So I'm not gonna delete this account but I am gonna log off of it and most likely not return until I've recovered amd am comfortable enough to come back and delete it. I hope all of you find the strength to love yourself and to rid yourself of this disorder. It brings nothing but pain, from someone who lost a bunch of weight then gained it back I don't want to continue this cycle, I can do this in a healthy way like I've done before but I can't do that until I learn to love myself and my body as it is. My heart goes out to everyone with an ed we need to stop ignoring the side effects of what we're doing to our bodies, for me seeing people in recovery in pain and crying about being tubed and force fed was the nail on the coffin. I can't let myself get that bad so I have to stop here I've already lost years to my ed I don't plan on losing anymore