A Time Cabsule

The best approach is to keep the bad feelings in the back seat, and the good one's in the passenger to navigate you. Some feelings need to be bonked on their head, tied up and gagged and kept in the trunk. They should not have a vote in where you're headed.

My Higher Self

One might sugar coat it, rather twist and say "oh i was passionate, I was exciting and free spirited." I know what I was, I was a young woman, I was a raging fire, unruly and destructive, beautiful from afar, but you wouldn't want it near you or it will eat everything you've ever worked for

Now, I'm a river, older and wiser, cool and soothing, free spirited, for real this time, i sway my own way, sometimes calm, and others tidal, i could sink you, I could drag you into a rock, or instead take you somewhere worth your while.

On Weaknesses

Something about me is when I expect a peer to not accept something i would, be it a work peer, a partner, a same age person, or a woman like myself, i think "why am I accepting this? I'm not less than anyone". I have that conversation in my head before hand and automatically reject that thing that I feel like less than if I accept it, this way I come up on top of the whole situation, even if this thing is convenient for me. This is one of my many flaws.

To accept something because it's convenient even when it's socially frowned upon or rejected, is not something to be ashamed of, conforming to heard mentality is.

Another thing is that i don't know how to live with my guilt, i don't know how to make the right choice and deal with it's consequences, I don't even know how to let things be when i know someone is not happy with a situation where i have the upper hand, thats why i choose to be that someone that is hurting. I can't live with my guilt so I'd rather live with my misery instead, and that's my biggest weakness.

I don't know what happened,

now I'm just hopless.

I intend to throw the whole old book out and become a newself, Not just turn on a new chapter, and that starts with a new mindset & self-concept.

Self remake is the name of the game, I intend do the unusual thing, and do the things that I'm most uncomfortable with.