The one beyond saving..

I made this for my Friends Birthday. She’s a huge fan of dinghai fusheng records. Will she like it?! 🥹

Drawing my first and all time favorite anime hubby Kakashi. Man, I love him so much 🥹

Well, part 2 of drawing all Lads Boys. This time I drew our Starboy Xavier. I’m happy with him and I hope you guys like him as well ✨💫🌟

Today’s Sketch, I‘m trying to go for a semirealistic style but I’m still struggling a lot with everything lol 🙈

So guys let’s talk about legend of exorcism! I am currently reading vol. 4 and I had a very strong reaction on one of the characters. So if you haven’t read it this far please skip this.

I initially made this drawing cause I loved how safe Li Jinglong felt. The confession scene at the end of vol 3 somehow irked me and I couldn’t say why. Now after I started reading Vol 4 it hit me like a truck. Somehow Li Jinglong changed and I didn’t like the change at all! I was so disgusted by him. I mean wtf he literally says he likes the dumb ones and as long as they are dumb it doesn’t matter if they are not that pretty? Excuse me?! Also treating hongjun like a silly kid all the time and being so horny and pushy. And don’t get me started on hongjun! He suddenly keeps doubting himself and making himself small. Long story short: I thought about putting the novel down and never touch it again.

But then I kept thinking about it. I started thinking WHY does this affect me so much? As someone enjoying stories of all kind and also consuming quite toxic stuff (yes I’m looking at you meatbun) which is in fact way worse I think what hit me is that feeling of betrayal. I’ve not seen this coming. I thought Li Jinglong fooled me good but I realized it was the author who fooled me. Jinglong presented himself to hongjun and the reader as a kinda cold, self controlled and calm leader and protector. Even if it was early hinted on in the novel I couldn’t see how much he hold back. The feeling of self doubt and being not good enough. The moment he started to realize Hongjun reciprocated his feeling his mask came of. He lost self control. He truly loves hongjun but his love is messy and not healthy. He tries to protect and possess Hongjun. He belittles him to feel he’s needed. I’m by no means saying this is right but it adds a very interesting layer to his character. It gives the character a lot of room for development. I’m so excited to see if he’ll evolve from this. And then there’s Hongjun. People in toxic relationships mostly react in one of two ways. They either tell their partner to go f*** themselves or they seek fault in themselves. Hongjun does the latter. He suddenly starts questioning himself, is he smart enough? Pretty enough? Why does Jinglong even love him? Nobody told him what a healthy relationship is supposed to feel. He doesn’t know. He has no parents, his best friend is a carp Yao and his step dad is not one to show love in a proper fashion either.

I thought I was reading a fluffy romance story with an exciting plot. But their relationship is not healthy at all. Maybe that’s why I was so shocked. I expected different. I still find Jinglongs current behavior disgusting af. But I think the author did a great job showing us what happens if a characters facade falls. We don’t always like what’s underneath.

So this got kind of long but I really hope someone is willing to read it all and discuss this with me? How did you feel? What’s your take on this? Let me know ok? ❤️