I miss daydreaming about how we'd embrace these guys (to whatever extent we could), what we'd say to them, how we'd introduce ourselves. Sticking flowers in their hair, flexing my funny animal noises through Mike, glitching upside-down on purpose, tucking someone in. Casual stuff. I know I can still do that, but it's like your favorite drink has been laced with powdered glass. It's not the same anymore. I hope I'm freed to do so once again, that our relationship heals. It used to be so easy back when we thought we were the problem, that all we had to do was present ourselves kindly and that'd solve everything in the game like it did in Undertale. Back when keeping a positive, friendly vibe could save the day. But the ball isn't in our park, now. It's in theirs. And that's not as easy for people to cope with.
If Undertale is the Be Kind game, and Deltarune is the Be Yourself game, then self-acceptance--including acceptance of the parts of yourself that have been hurt and (heavens forbid!) Feel Negative Emotions--is the way forward.
