(this is just for me, i do not encourage anything)
So I can fit into small spaces perfectly without squishing against the walls
So that girls at school will ask me what my secret is, only to have me reply with, “clean eating and exercise :)”
To be the approachable, graceful, dainty girl that everyone wants to be friends with. I want to be small and as kind as can be.
So that my mom will never be able to say “you’re too big to wear that kind of thing” again.
To have people whisper about how thin and gorgeous I am, instead of how ugly and annoying I am.
To look absolutely adorable in any clothing I wish. Even my old clothes that‘ll be 4 sizes too big will look cute and oversized on me.
To be able to cosplay any character without feeling too big to properly “be” them.
To be able to work out in public without feeling like, quite literally, the elephant in the room.
So that boys will actually want to be with me, and I’ll politely decline their offers, because I already have someone who has loved me at every stage of my journey.
So new people I meet will wonder if I’ve always looked like this, and if I was blessed with amazing genes.
So at concerts I will look like I don’t belong there, dressed in cute, innocent clothes, perched on a picnic blanket and jumping every time there is a noise louder than usual.
To have people worry about me when I lose more weight, instead of congratulate me.
To be picked up and carried around with ease because I’m essentially weightless.
So that when there is no more room in the car somebody says, “it’s okay, you can sit in my lap because you’re so light.”
To look adorable in my glasses, like a shy, introverted bookworm, instead of a pig with sight problems.
To walk effortlessly and gracefully down the school halls, but with petite, frail legs I’ll find it hard to keep up with my friends when they walk.
To look like a sleepy angel in any pajamas or anything of the like.
To have people be surprised when they see me eating, to hear them say, “wow, you really do eat sometimes!”
So that my grandma gets worried about me and tries to have me eat all sorts of foods and pastries, in which i will politely decline because “i’m already soooo full from the breakfast you made earlier.”
To be able to eat normally on occasion, to be able to go out with friends without staring at the online menu for hours beforehand.
To look dainty and cute in any swimsuit during the summer, instead of a beached whale.
To get into certain events for free because i’m small enough to be a child.
So that when they have to manage to squeeze another person onto a carnival ride, my seat is always the one they’ll pick, because there’ll be so much extra room.
To be able to look pretty and innocent in pastel lolita clothing, but also badass and gorgeous in gothic clothing.
To be so cold during the winter that my friends feel obligated to try and warm me up by hugging me or rubbing my hands.
To always be the “smol bean that needs to be protected” in a group.
To have people flinch and worry about me when my stomach rumbles and growls.
So that people I’m close to frequently asks me what I’ve eaten that day.
To come back to school after summer and have people say, “oh god, you lost even more weight??? You look so thin, I hope you’re not trying to lose more..”
So that my mom stops calling me an attention seeker and telling me that, “every teenage girl goes through this.”
So that people have to stop telling me, “starving yourself will only make you gain weight in the long run, you’re dooming yourself to a lifetime of being overweight.” Because it’s simply not true.
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