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7.15.20 | 5’7” | 148lbs | 23.2bmi

lol. gonna use this wack tumblr filter because i can.

7.11.20

it’s been a few years since i created this blog called @becomingweightless and i’ve come a long way. i’ve decided to re-download this app and revive my profile... but first let me explain.

i used to believe to my core that the most beautiful version of myself was synonymous with the thinnest version of myself. i know now that is not true.

but oh how i understand.

i know what it means to want to have an ed. i know what it is to intentionally drive yourself deeper, knowing that it’s bad, but believing it’s the only way to get where you want to go.

i know this post likely won’t make it far because i’m not perpetuating that belief anymore.

i have spent over a year off tumblr (except for on some bad days) and there have been a lot of ups and downs. i associate this app and my blog with the mentally darker times in my life.

but i’ve since decided that it’s an opportunity.

i’m right here. i’m in the middle of a community full of people who are struggling in the exact same way i did, and i hope that in a small way, i can help.

recently i’ve been prioritizing my health a lot — which to me means mental health first, exercising, and eating clean (for the most part!)

this doesn’t mean restricting, this doesn’t mean sit-ups at 1am after a binge, this doesn’t mean limiting my quality of life. if i want to eat a brownie, i eat it. if i want to eat five, i check myself.

everything on this blog (prior to this, “dear ed tumblr”) was posted before june 2019- and i’m keeping it all up.

i’m keeping the name @becomingweightless, which now has new meaning to me. the real problem i had when i weighed 170lbs wasn’t the bmi, it was the mental burdens i carried.

my goal has changed, but the name stays.

i’m becoming weightless of the world’s unattainable standards, and i want to enable you to do the same. i dearly wish for you all to have the fullest lives possible.

i still care about how i look, it’s just gone way down on my list of priorities. i’ll still post things like body checks, just nothing i believe will cause anyone’s mental health to deteriorate further.

man it felt good.

2 weeks to feel it

4 weeks to see it

8 weeks to hear it

2 weeks to feel it

4 weeks to see it