Please forgive me for going on but. technically yesterday was my 21st birthday and I had a great day and appreciate all that I have been blessed with recently from my friends to my family and all. But although my mental health has been astronomically better in recent years I always feel this constant sad feeling in the back of my head. It's odd but honestly I don't feel bad about feeling this way deep inside. Because as I was celebrating another year of life. Because as I made it through another year many tragically have not. Through the suicides that occur, through all the shootings, through places like Iran and people being tortured and killed in our very country simply for wanting to live it seems and not being able too because our system and sadly some of my people in my country are doing horrendous unforgivable things. And I can't stop thinking about what can I do? In the back of my head it's a constant I should be fighting more I should be doing more. I should be helping more. And although I suck with social media I feel like I hope I can in some way help to fight for equality for justice for those who's families will never see their loved ones again. I needed to say something I feel and Will continue to because I can't stand what's happening. I'm tearing up just typing this is not right. How can I be able to love to breathe and spend time with my loved ones when God damnit some can never because of something my country is doing. It's probably too long and this post will probably just be ignored by many but if you see this please I beg of you. Know that I love you know that so many people would be affected if something happened to you and for all who have been affected of what this is happening know that I stand the hell against it and will fight and ask for forgiveness in any way I can think of even just being a wanna be art boy on the Internet just. This is wrong and i want you to know you are loved and never forget there is hope because there are thousands who are here to fight for the justice and equality all deserve no matter the physical appearance no matter the sexuality no matter what I love you we love you.
Forgive me and have a good night.
