fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

i wish i was kinder to my 13 year old self

I think we are always going to wish we were kinder, I’m not kind to myself and I think I’m going to regret it but still it feels so unnatural to do

the sun is ashy today & i got my heart broken yesterday, but i'll live. i'll live for love. for the smell of my grandmother's cooking. for my cousin trying to reach the faucet. for my brother and his coquette hand fan. for my great-grandmother's clapping hands. for songs that remind me of dirty kitchens. for poems that remind me of dorm rooms. hopelessness is loud at heart, but at least i loved. at least i lived. at least i am human, still, on a dying planet.

you are only every age once, cherish all of them

my friends took pictures of me at my birthday dinner. i didn’t know until they sent them to me when i got home and, as i sat on the edge of my bed, looking at me smiling and talking under the soft, yellow light, i realized i’m not that hard to love after all

I'm lovesick for a future within reach, and it's beautiful.

yeah i dont know who i am! isnt finding out the best part???? im lucky!!! im lucky i get to do it!!!!!!

I know you’re worried. I understand things may have happened in the past. I’m here to reassure you that despite all of that, I believe that you will deal with it differently, if not better. You are not a fixed entity, you are a human who is constantly developing. You have grown since. Trust yourself again: you deserve peace.

Your suffering does not have to be beautiful. It does not have to culminate in an eloquent writing piece or a tragically gorgeous painting. It does not have to “make you stronger” or “be part of a greater plan leading to something better.” It does not have to be romanticized or presentable. Yes, you are artistic. Yes, you are beautiful. Yes, you are strong. But before any of those things, you are a feeling human in a world where nothing is certain. Allow yourself to be so.