INTERACTING WITH HIS TEAM FEELS like walking through a minefield ever since their haphazard reassembly. Peter cannot afford to pretend everything is fine & for it to bite them in the ass later : NOT ANYMORE. he knows that life is TOO SHORT ❮ he lost count of how many times he died, but what happened feels worse because it impacted everyone ❯. ❝ i was gonna say . . . ❞ the Star-Lord says starts with a quiet tone in contrast with the guardian before him. he does start to move towards the flight deck. perhaps if he stands around & stares at him, he will feel he was put on the spot. it’s not his intention. he just wants to help Rocket. they are best friends, right ? ❝ ARE YOU OKAY ? ‘cause if you ain’t, you can go as far as you want out there ’n’ whatever it is gonna come with ya. just sayin’. ❞
QUESTIONING THOUGHTS SING LOUDLY , , within his brain ( what ) was he okay ? ? ( no ) he wasn’t - he hasn't been okay , , he has AGED WITH THE PAIN , , fur turning greyer - bones more tired , , he wasn’t okay - ( but ) he couldn’t drag them down , , he had to be STRONG not only for all of the people on this very ship , , but for the galaxy and the worlds with in them , , ( he wasn't supposed to be a hero ) but every day that had passed where he was the last guardian standing proved him to be one , , so as his maw OPENS a small breath catches ❝ I’VE BEEN BETTER ... it can be hard to look at all of you , , and see how you haven’t changed - - ❞ he turns looking out as the ground below them eyes FLUTTERING SHUT as the wind passes , , he had lost friends on earth too - ones that he won't get back this time ❝ losing everyone , , and then losing the people i had to trust when you were gone - it is like whiplash and i just have to GET USED TO IT ❞ he exhales a shaking breath ❝ but im okay ... i just need to get back into EVERYTHING - - ❞
