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Forward Reaction

chapters: ch. 1 | ch. 2 (new!) words: 7,500/? rated: M relationships: toby ziegler & david ziegler, toby & josh lyman, toby & cj cregg & sam seaborn additional tags: POV first person, canon compliant, changing tenses, extended metaphors, Rosslyn, blood and injury, hospitals, angst, themes of guilt and PTSD and of course, brothers.

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I knew exactly what was happening. A blessing and a curse. Why then did I find myself preoccupied, watching out the window as the sky turned dark indigo and the sun was long past set, believing I’d find the faint light of David’s shuttle crossing the horizon in between clusters of stars, when yesterday I looked up at the same sky and saw nothing of significance there?  I forgot my brother was up there, and I felt incapable of helping, and I thought my watching the skies would do some good, even a little.

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prefacing this by saying I am not a professional and I haven’t looked too deeply into the aspects of blood play. but I love this idea, and Molly and Andy are great candidates!

I think for Andy/Ellie it’s about bleeding of their own accord. And Ellie/Molly is about how far they can push their boundaries, the risk of it.

I went a little detailed so putting this under the cut —

ask game: would this character have that kink?

overstimulation -

My guess is yeah, this would work. I picture this as kind of a general sensory overload thing, not necessarily just sexual overload. CJ is uncomfortable with loud noises (the fire alarm in Leadership Breakfast, but also in s3 at the shooting range when Simon fires the gun and it's too loud). CJ gets overstimulated when she has the rare slip-up in the press room or it's just too damn stressful, and everything gets too loud and it can cause a meltdown. ("the president's relieved to be focusing on something that matters" to "just...just don't say anything for a..."). She knows to ask for time alone, for some quiet for once, but she doesn't know why she hates feeling overwhelmed.

I think in that situation with kink, it's different in a controlled environment. She's safe, she can face whatever experience she's being put through - she can take the overstimulation. Put a blindfold on her, leave her in a quiet room for a second, and then get to work making her feel good until she's had enough, then she's a little uncomfortable, and that's quite enough, and she's on the verge of tears, shaking, wants it to stop -- but it feels really great, really overpowering, at the same time.

omo (omorashi) -

I feel like this is wildly underrated! I see less of it these days compared to five or ten years ago, which makes me really bummed! and I understand why people shy away from it.

CJ gets so busy with work she forgets to eat, she forgets to go to the bathroom. And then she's actually on her way to the bathroom when she gets dragged into another meeting and an emergency briefing that goes over with questions and now there's no time at all to go! so she holds it until she can finally, finally go to the bathroom to pee. it feels good to let it out! she has a strong bladder unlike her brothers

maybe Andy (?) notices CJ's been holding it a while. Like Andy's used to it with Toby, leaving him in his office at 2 in the afternoon and she comes back at 9:30 and he's still sitting there. Same thing with CJ. "You haven't left your desk at all?" "Nope, got work to do."

oh no worries! the more thoughts, the merrier!

toby & andy & the schoolgirl uniform:

toby having gone to public school never had uniforms but growing up, he saw the rich kids wearing nice, expensive, matching dress shirts and skirts on the street and on the train. he thinks the girls are cute, the guys look good. he feels like it's a little weird, a little too homogenous. where's the individuality? he couldn't afford those, anyway, not the school and the clothes. but he went to Hebrew school on sundays with his siblings (which i don't believe has uniforms but you do need to dress appropriately).

and hold on to this thought -> there was a 1964 US appeals court case in brooklyn where a federal judge actually ruled for allotting time for voluntary prayer in public school. so exactly around when toby sits out the prayer in grade school and gets beat up for it, there's this legal case that says he's in the wrong. he is standing firm in his beliefs, he is withdrawing himself from something that is not his, and he gets beat up for it.

say andy went to a religious all-girls high school, and toby saw her school photos when he visited her parents' house. he thinks she looked cute at sixteen, braces, the little jacket and tartan bowtie.

now the actual uniform and trying to emulate it... after a phase of pretty vanilla sex (nothing wrong with that, but there's something missing), toby makes a proposal to shake up their sex life with a bit of roleplay. because it's a cliche that eveeerryyyyyy guy has a fantasy of being with a pretty young thing in her school uniform. he doesn't say it like That, but close enough. he thinks it would be sexy to see andy wearing a plaid skirt and knee socks and Mary Janes.

andy thinks toby's idea is ridiculous. she hated that uniform! it was itchy and hot and she wanted to wear her favorite blouse. not the button up. but she's like "what the hell", just this once. she digs around in her closet for something similar enough. when the mood is right, they go through the scene. she straightens her hair and wears a headband for maximum effect, and she still feels ridiculous, playing up the flirting and teasing and it's funny seeing him flustered because of her! lots of bad puns ("we must have chemistry together", "i've been bad," etc.). then toby says something, and andy remembers having a crush on her teacher when she was seventeen. he was a very cute teacher. married, too.

the skirt's nice, the sex was a little more energetic this time, it did something for him but not much for her.