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Woww I haven’t been on here in a while. Ty for the question!

Hello! er, again LMAO. I don't know which one u r (sorryyyy, can't tellllllllll obvvvv)

But regardless, thank you for that, it's a very nice form of encouragement.

One of my coworkers actually said this to me today, I think it was said by Mother Theresa- about how....

"I do not love everyone. I can not love everyone. I can only love the person beside me."

Also. I have my own priorities and goals in life and things that I do as a person. I live my life accordingly to the way I choose but you are free to choose your own standards and way of living.

AND OMG NO I AM NOT RICH. Is it bc u read my journal? ERRRRRRRRRRRHURRRR. no. i'm not. i just splurge once in a while on things I want. But who doesn't do that in some form. I'll consider myself rich monetarily if I have 9834092384 cars and a mansion with 3984509384 rooms and lots of other things rofl. I'll consider myself rich if i ever develop the mentality of being ok with wiping my ass with a wad of 100 dollar bills.

And if I own a toilet made out of gold and the handle is diamond encrusted. ROFL. XOXOX

Hmm....let's see how I can place what I am thinking....

The reason I make art is not because I want to be an artist.

I make art because there are many things that I love and I want to show my love for those things and people through colors and pictures. I want to remember how those things made me feel and I translate my feelings into colors.

The reason I write is not because I want to be a writer.

I write because there are many things that I want to say, there are stories that i want to tell, there are situations that I wish to explore with words. I want to know the extent and depth of a universe made within one sentence. I want to remember the sounds of someone's voice with a metaphor.

Hard evidence of the outcome in how I process my environment, experiences, and interactions.

Those were some of my thoughts if you are referring to my response to that other anon down there.

hmm...other thoughts...-

Am i an artist bc i make art? does making art make me an artist?

Basic definition then other meanings in a culture as in "yes they draw but they only make X thing, how can you call them an artist", or "a TRUE artist is someone who does X or X number of things."

But, why do i make art, write, sing, do whatever it is that i do?

bc there are many things that I love and stand in wonder of and these are my attempts to translate my thoughts, myself- essentially,-..

to communicate how they have made me feel.

the propagation of these behaviors are for those reasons and then those reasons serve as a foundation for more realizations and beliefs.

..mmm..immortalizations of the soul.

not because I want to live forever..

Oh boy oh boy, all these lovely asks. Thank you anons, whoever you ppl are XOXOX--

Integrity and honesty. I wanna ask what it is you see me doing that leads you to this conclusion out of curiosity. I just am who I am. I learn and grow...my experiences carry me "forward". I let them. I make them.  Also, yeah I keep getting that often- the "you laugh alot and act carefree but omg u also have a deep srs side too". Different ppl have different qualities about them.

Hmmm...i also think..that the qualities people truly admire are things they'll also take on bc they see it as important.  Whatever qualities are important to you are most likely qualities you will uphold over other traits.

(like if loyalty, love, respect, and trust are more important than....well...status? being in control of everything in one's environment? )

can I even compare things like that though bc status has its own importance and so does control but I suppose the heart of something is revealed in how people use those different things.

It's important to look out for one's self too however...maybe an extreme side to that is fucking everyone else over in the process to get whatever u want. So many sides and situations. Maybe someone who only honestly wants the physical intimacy of sex wont be compatible with someone who sees physical intimacy as something worthy of gaining one's trust and isn't so open to giving and receiving as another.

Maybe someone who sees it as ok to make mistakes and forgive themselves so easily and therefore others is not compatible with someone who.....has higher standards (and needs those higher standards because they understand the weight of mistakes and maybe so should others).

Or maybe it's not always about compatibility- someone who more consistently looks out for themselves is not going to look out for someone else or even jeopardize themselves occassionally for another person. To do something but believe something different? Why would you do that. but oh,,,there's lots of "reasons"..