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so much conditioning. gooning at night leaves my brain so squishy. dripping. needing. need to ice myself and put in chastity to be able to stop gooning and sleep.

i need to listen to hypno and programming while i’m sleep. whatever i’m told to listen to. looped to program my squishy gooned brain. 

edging in the morning before i can have any other relief. sometimes i wake up in the night and just try to edge through my cage.

need to be locked. if not locked, the need to condition and edge is overpowering.

constant need to just kneel and edge and drip and beg and drool.

slightest arousal and i need to edge. on edge, and immediately triggered to subspace. just needing to edge. needing to feel empty. programmed. used. obedient. pleasure.

hardest thing is to ever stop edging, but i’m programmed to lock in chastity and sleep. when sleeping, i need to listen to hypno, programming, conditioning.

following conditioning regime for several days. last two days very intensely.

feeling so desperate. needy. submissive. obedient.

it isn’t really edging at this point. brain is just triggered straight to the edge and then it’s just... dripping. ooozing. thinking is so hard. so submissive. so obedient. desperate obedience. dripping.

so I did.

one edge and it is hard to think. then a lot more edging just kinda happens, and i listened more than i really needed to.

it just feels so nice to be obedient.

then the hardest part: stopping edging long enough to go to sleep with the happy sounds playing on loop... but when i wake up, it’s so frustrating. just NEED. need. need. just a quick edge. reinforce the slavery.

catching up on time away from tumblr, and got asked how long since I’d edged. i needed to edge. right then. so I did. and then i needed to edge again. then it was all hard to think.

conditioning regime is as follows:

Edge every day at least twice. Preferably when first awake, and at night. When possible, edge to goon state, and try to stay there at least 30 minutes. Preferably more.

While gooning or edging, watch, listen or read programming. Typically something like gooninators. Repetitive, simple. Binaurals, hypnosis are all good.

Never cum except when ordered, and then ONLY when cumming is used to associate a trigger deeply.

edged and gooned all night watching programming. got to that state where suggestion is so easy. was given a file to listen to on loop while sleeping. was told to set an alarm to be sure and wake and edge every three hours. felt fuzzy all day today, but more submissive than ever. such a weak slave. i need to keep edging, and i need to be programmed.

when i got dressed today, i couldn’t bring myself to wear underwear. went about my day, and whenever i remembered i wasn’t wearing underwear, I just thought “I obey!”

it feels really good. i know i’ll be listening to more fun audios while edging.