Earlier this week, I was beating myself up bc I rarely ever take risks... I mean, on what circumstances do risk takers really look at? Or do they just go in blindly without thinking? Also, are their promising reasons why people take risks for other people or? Idek what I'm saying rn... I'm just having a hard time deciding if I should take this risk. I don't even know what my gut feeling is bc my thoughts are always in the way. I don't even know for sure if ill gain something worth risking for. And I'm also questioning the sanity of this decision I may or may not take. Only because my over thinking has turned the smallest thing into a huge life changing event. When it really isn't... What do I actually want to get out of this? And if I don't get it, how disappointed am I going to feel? Those are the questions that keep me from doing certain things. I don't get how to take risks. If if ends up being a mistake, I'm gonna have to live with that personal embarrassment. This is so incredibly stupid that I'm even laughing at the fact that I wrote a tumblr post about this shit. I want someone to give me an answer on what to do bc I'm so freaken bad at making decisions for myself.
