just a blog

I’ve been trying to figure out how to word this post but when have I ever really planned things out here? I just blab and blab and hope it makes sense to you guys so I’ll do that now! 

As you all know, I’ve been dealing with a lot of health issues. I’ve been dealing with them since September of 2021 (the physical ones, not the mental health ones) and it has been a ride. Appointments, adjustments to my every day life, and plenty of time to think, and I think I’ve finally figured out what to do with this blog. I’m not gonna delete, and I’m not leaving this blog but it will be different. I’ll explain! 

In having time to think and time to put things into perspective, I’ve realized that there are some things that don’t deserve my energy and time. In the past few months I’ve realized that I just don’t care about the Pads, I don’t care about Jared’s rabid fanbase, I don’t care about Misha and his nonsense, I just don’t care. That sounds really harsh but it’s true - I can’t bring myself to even snark on anything because I just don’t care enough. Maybe they’ll change, maybe they won’t, but it’s not affecting me personally.  I’m not going to apologize for anything I’ve posted here because they were my feelings at the time and some still are, but I do feel bad for spending all that time on things that weren’t worth my time.  I want to put my time into focusing on the people and things that make me smile and bring me joy. It’s exhausting to focus and put energy on people who I don’t even like or care about. I don’t wish ill on them (never have) but I don’t want to support them you know? Like they can do them but over there, yeah?

So where does that leave this blog? I’ll still be here but I’m going to me turning this into a collective rant site. So do you guys have something or someone fandom related that you need to vent about? My inbox is open! I won’t be making original snark posts (unless something huge happens I suppose) but I’ll accept submissions and asks like before so you guys have a place to rant. Everything will of course still be anonymous if you’d like to be anonymous, but that’s up to you!  I’ll also still be here to answer questions or chat about things because I love you grumps! I also have a personal blog on here too that if any of you would like to follow, you can message me and I’ll happily send you the link! 

I know I’ve been saying this for weeks but I will be going through my inbox to get things cleared out so don’t mind the spam. Thank you guys for being so patient and so sweet this whole time and I hope you don’t mind the change of pace here. 

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about this blog and I think I’ve finally got a plan in mind! I’m still sifting through my inbox and trying to answer the questions that weren’t “time sensitive” but I’m not making promises since it’s that weird between-holidays week. 

I’ve missed you all and hope your holidays are amazing. 

I’m sorry for my absence here but I still love you guys and miss you! I’m just trying to figure out how to proceed with this blog. Any ideas are welcome! Even if this is just a “shoot the shit” blog where we sometimes complain. 

Let me clarify then! I should have said,

Jared "A Likely Underpaid Service Worker Was A Meanie To Me So I Took Their Picture and Plastered It On My Twitter to All of My Followers Along With Their Name and Tagged Their Employer, Opening Them Up to Harassment and Attacks From My Fans and When I Was Called Out, I Hid Behind Mental Health and Still Left The Tweets Up Anyway" Padalecki.

I think O is finally at the age where she refuses to be mom’s prop! Gen hasn’t posted an ad with the kids or a picture of the kids (minus a quick one that actually looked like a regular candid) in a while! Wonder how much she’ll push for another accessory baby. Maybe that’s what the romantic couple’s trip was for? (Side note, they do seem to take a lot of lovers trips without the kids. But since Jared abhors being around them it’s really no surprise.)

I think she genuinely things that people are jealous of her and that she's making everyone seethe by being with Jared. Either that or she's really trying hard to "stick it to the haters" and show how in love they are.

Hi lovely! I'm going to use your ask to give an update instead of making a whole separate post!

I got a diagnosis at the end of July of necrotizing myositis. I've got an appointment in October (the soonest I could get in unless someone cancels) with a neuromuscular specialist to see what the next steps are. I was also given an order for a wheelchair which I've been trying to get figured out. Basically it has been a bit of a roller coaster of emotions and trying to adjust to things and not go crazy while waiting for the next appointment. I know I've spoken about my anxiety and depression before and all of this is definitely not helping either! So I've just been kinda taking it day by day.

The time away from this blog has really made me realize how little I care about the Padaleckis. I know that sounds super harsh but I just don't have the energy to deal with them and their same recycled BS. I'll still answer questions and make posts and stuff but keeping up with their antics is just so....exhausting? They'll never change and it's very obvious.

So that's where I've been at with everything. I'm going to try and get through some messages again. Sorry for the delays and the hiatus. It's just been a rough year and the past couple of months have been extra.

Hi sweet anon! I'm hanging in there. I've been meaning to make an update but it's been kind of a rocky couple of weeks. I'm hoping to get some messages answered soon though!

Sorry for the spam, I’m very bored and didn’t have a great day so I’m salty.

Does he know that Google is a thing? Is he expecting some sort of special in with the police because he knows the Js? 

Go to google, type in the local police department and their phone number, call them, and get answers for your vague issue. 

Gen: “I’m not celebrating independence day because I, a charitable and woke woman, want to jump on the bandwagon because I’m so woke. WoMeN aRe NoT fReE.” 

Also Gen: Goes to some event all glammed out with her wallet husband to celebrate the holiday. 

Is it because that podcast about SPN just dropped with Jensen and JDM as guests and everyone was gushing about it? 

Is it because of all the positive glowing press that Jensen has been getting while Jared seethes in his overpriced gas chamber? 

So, as part of his treatment with Doctor Amen, Jared has bought a hyperbaric chamber for oxygen treatments at home (gotta get that 60% and not dead oxygen levels up) .

this was said in the same interview.

He described it as being big enough for the kids to do homework in.

Those things are upwards of half a million to a million. !!!That's an impulse buy. I suspect it's deductible for him but that is still a hunk of change.

also, there is a lot online on these treatments being risky for children. Not high risk but they have no known benefit and the children haven't been diagnosed with anything so why take any risk ) I don't think Jared is an uncaring or reckless parent, but he does seem to get sucked into alternate treatments and big claims without considering the risks (mantra can't be sold in the uk or Europe because some of its ingredients are banned).

I’d hope that Jared wouldn’t be careless enough to let the kids try out this treatment but who knows? He was dumb enough to buy some huge useless machine and buy into some sham doctor’s preaching though so I don’t have high hopes. 

I wanted to check in though and answer a few messages and try to chisel through the ol’ inbox. You guys are always on my mind and I really do appreciate the support and patience! I know I’ve got a lot to catch up on so don’t mind the really late responses and reactions! 

Also I have new questions for you..

1. Least favorite superhero?

2. Super power you'd hate to have?

3. What word do you constantly struggle to spell no matter how many times you've spelled it before?

4. Do you know the muffin man?

5. Do you know the secret formula?

6. Will you be watching the boys?

7. Song you loved that slowly you began to hate?

9. Did you see what I did there?

10. Have you drank water today?

Hope these make you smile or chuckle. Now I leave you with a joke...

Why were the nurses at the blood bank mad at dracula?

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He kept making withdrawals...

Never said it was a good joke I'd leave you with.

Hello dear! I'm so glad you're back and I've been so excited to answer this ask! Thank you for the well wishes too! <3

I feel like I'm a bit biased because I haven't seen all superhero movies or anything but if I had to pick I'd probably pick Hawkeye. He just....he's just kinda there you know?

When I was younger I thought mind reading would be kinda cool but now that I'm older and have seen Bruce Almighty I feel like that would be the worst lol. Unless you could like turn it off or be selective I guess? Flight would be kinda terrible too because I hate heights.

There are a few that just will not stick in my brain or that I always second guess. Necessary is one. Not really a spelling thing but I sometimes mix up affect and effect. Definitely used to be one but not anymore. I used to spell it like "defiantly" because my cousin did and I figured she was smart lol.

Yes I know the muffin man, who lives on Drury Lane?

I wish I did! Real talk here, I've wanted to know the secret formula since I started watching Spongebob as a kid. (If you're not talking about Spongebob though, this is a little awkward!)

The Boys is on my list of shows to watch! I think I'll wait until the end of S3 and then just binge it all.

I gotta think about this one! 'Ho Hey' by The Lumineers used to be one of my favorites but I think I played it too much and it got old. That's the only one I can think of off the top of my head!

Wait is 8 missing because 7 8 9?!

I think I did!

I have! In fact I'm going to drink more!