Felt butterflies the ENTIREEEEE CALLLLLLLLLLL. Felt like I was seeing him again for the first time, never gets old.
Couldn't hold myself back because good fucking gravy, my heart just couldn't stop beating so fast. I wanted to do everything to him and for him.
I wanted to praise and degrade him, kiss him softly and spit on him, slowly hitting deep inside him while I lightly squeeze his throat, to gently caress his body and bruise it. I want to kiss everything better. I want to take care of him in every way possible. I want him to show me how to properly care for cuts and deep bruises so I know exactly what to do for him when we have a rough session. I want to reassure him that I love him and he means way more to me than anything sexual, that I just want to be with HIM. And him only. I want him to know that even though I say I have control, that I will only allow myself to have it if he WANTS me to have it. And I will stop immediately if he genuinely doesn't want anything. His feelings come first to me. I never want him to feel unsafe with me, to regret placing his trust in me. I don't want him to feel pressured or taken advantage of.
He drives me crazy in the best way possible, I would go through everything in my life again, just so I can spend even a moment longer with him. Literally everything is worth it when it comes to him.
He doesn't pressure me like past relationships had, he doesn't guilt me or twist words, he's honest and is never cruel. He's perfect in every way possible. He's kind, dorky, sweet, patient, talkative, brilliant, brave, strong, gentle, sensitive, sincere, passionate and literally so much more.
Maybe it's too early to say all of that, but it is genuinely how I feel. Every time I picture the future now, it's with him. He's mine and I'm his. I will never get tired of him, I know that for a fact because like I said, every time I see him it's like it's the first time all over again. I just get flustered and can't control what falls out of my mouth. Praise and shock mostly. Who could've guessed?
