𝐊𝐎𝐙𝐌𝐈𝐂 𝐁𝐋𝐔𝐄𝐒

it was half past midnight when he had arrived, his footsteps careful and calculated as to not wake up either madelyn or rodney. he opened the door as quiet as he could, setting his bag down as his shoulders jerked upwards and his teeth clenched at the loud sound of rodney's bark. "shhhhh," he held his pointer finger up to his mouth as he started to walk towards the stairs that rodney was trotting down. although, his bark had ceased the second he had saw namjoon. "hi buddy!" he immediately kneeled down, taking the cavapoo into his arms as he was nearly knocked over by the large dog. he buried his face in his fur as he patted the dogs sides hugging him as he did so. namjoon heard steps, which he assumed were madelyn's, as his gaze met with the top of the staircase. "hi baby, sorry... i tried not to wake you up."

she heard him arrive. heard the car pulling up outside, the headlights sweeping through the curtains of their bedroom before disappearing again. at first, she simply rolled onto her side, turning away from the window and away from whatever future she'd imagined for the two of them. at this point, it all felt uncertain. it wasn't something they'd ever really talked about. not properly. she knew from interviews he'd done over the years that children weren't in the cards for him. at least not yet. and yet here they were. the moment the front door opened, rodney was on alert, jumping off the bed and rushing out of the room. it only took a few seconds before madelyn followed. reaching for the positive tests she'd left on the bedside table, she wrapped her fingers around them before pushing herself to her feet. she could hear him greeting rodney in a hushed voice as she stepped into the hallway and made her way to the staircase, her arms folded tightly across her chest as she looked down at him. she'd replayed this moment in her head over and over again, trying to figure out how she was supposed to tell him. every version had ended differently, but they all left her with the same feeling. fear. once their eyes met through the dim light, she started making her way downstairs, one step at a time. she didn't say anything. didn't answer his greeting. she simply kept walking until she reached the second to last step, leaving them almost eye to eye. leaning forward, she rested her forehead against his, her eyes falling shut as she gently placed the pregnancy tests into his hand. "..i'm so sorry." the words barely rose above a whisper against his lips. she couldn't bring herself to look at him. she wasn't sure she could handle whatever expression she'd find.