The King of New York

I’m back from Budapest, or should I say Budapesh.  It was wicked cool seeing Black Widow there, even if I have one major upset over what they did with a character. All I can say is Yelena Belova is my spirt animal. She definitely outshined in that movie. You’re such a poser.

Our boys are six today, I was met with knees to the chest and screams of excitement. The seventeen year old has been asking for me to take her out in the car and teach her. I’m a little hesitant but considering it… any tips?

A shortish break before we go into filming Mando S3. I want to runaway to Italy again. We’ll see how good I am at convincing the husband.

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Moriah has been saying ‘wicked’ all week, now I know who to blame.

As you have seen our unfollows have been posted. The admins have not disclosed the reasons why we have been removed and I think you all have the reason to know why.

The admins of What If have not treated myself or B as individuals during all of this and have claimed we have both committed the same problems at the same time. When we have asked for the reasons we have been removed, the admins came up with harassing players IC and OOC. God Modding (taking control of characters not our own) and stealing plots. When we asked for examples of where we have done this (again, we not individuals) we were denied even when I provided the admins a way to show us this evidence without doxing respected parties.

These are the messages between myself and the admin team. I think it fair for you all to see how the admins handle problems and conversations with players about problems.

Cutting to the chase here, I have known for a while now that the admin team have had a problem both with myself and B. There was even a leaked message a while ago where Sunny was actively warning players not to plot with B.

We’ve been forced out of this group and despite how much work we’ve put into our characters and taking on difficult plot lines that were there before our arrival, the admins have decided they don’t want us in the group anymore.

The conversations are unaltered and genuine, I have not tried to hide either side of the conversation and I stand by what I said in these messages. As a former admin and a problem solver OOC, I have tried to address the accusations put to us only to be met with brick walls and a lack of evidence against these claims. It’s clear to me, the admin team are putting OOC before IC and I think it’s a shame we’ve had to lose 2 years work within a group because of this.

We came on and did our replies. I have never harassed anyone OOC, I have never stolen a plot nor have I ever taken control of anyone character or had knowledge Jesse would not have. These claims are loose reasons behind an admin team that throw logic and reason out of the window due to their lack of security around their own ability to handle problems.

If you had any of these problems with me, please message me. I’m not a monster, I’m not going to attack you. I would have happily addressed any problems and tried to work out a solution as an adult because at the end of the day, I’m 25. I don’t have the time for the petty OOC drama anymore. I just wanted to do some replies and have fun.

Judge for yourself but the reason I am showing these messages is because I think it fair for you all to see how poorly the admins handled this and other events. I will be showing more examples of the admins poor behaviour throughout our time at What If from the most recent to when the pandemic started and I was attacked for suggesting the removal of it from What If.

TL;DR: Forced out of a RP group by the admins due to admins own insecurities.

Jesse the family man.  Its a side of you I love seeing.  And It’ll do Willow good to be in a manic house hold.  Lets her see what life should really be like. 

PML Oh yeh the therapist comes three times a week and I have a meeting with my actual psychiatrist every two weeks.   I’m doing VR Therapy at the moment ,  I tried it before but couldn’t handle it so had to stop but I’m determined to not give in this time.  if nothing else for willow and Chelsea.    I think I pissed of the therapist  in a session a few days after ,  the conversation went like this  

Therapist  “ Artie now tell me how did the open door make you feel " 

My reply ” how the fuck did you think it made me feel, I ended up doing this to my face" 

therapist “ Artie that’s not the attitude to take " 

me ” oh sorry , it made me feel very happy warm and fuzzy"

Pretty sure that’s not the response they wanted.  I wasn’t in the best of moods as it was and wanted to cancel but I can’t be bothered  with this waste of time shit today isn’t an adequate excuse for cancelling apparently . 

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And a side I’m not entirely sure how I got to. I’m fully in it, somehow. Willow is more than welcome any time. I’m sure spaghetti is not the best choice for several kids under the age of six but I’ll play the wild card.

PM: 

It seems only fair that most of it is your say given that by that point you’re the one who’s been so focused on it for so long. Although I somehow get the feeling that’s not always the way so if you have to bring someone in, lets just hope they’re easy to work with at least.

Your secret’s safe with me.

I’ll make sure to hand them back over to you just in time for dealing with a sugar crash.

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My only hesitance is the essay situation. When you’ve written an essay and read it so many times over, you don’t notice how re-wording a sentence could sound better or a word choice could be better. Getting a fresh pair of eyes on it will bring me out of that boxed mentality that comes with working on a project.

I knew I could trust you.

I, for one am glad to be in the Hamptons for a little bit and on the beach. The weather is gorgeous like everyone here, the food is amazing and all I need now is a snow-cone and one of my favorite books to read while I soak up the sun. Before I go any further, I should probably introduce myself. My name is Kiara and apart of the Rose clan. Now, what is everyone else up to on this fine Sunday evening?

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I was about ten feet from you restraining a five year old on a sugar rush, armed with a water-pistol that was two-times the size of him. I put myself in the line of fire to save the rest of the guests. I’ll accept my medal of bravery later on.

First full day in NYC and I have been in and out of more stores in this city today than I ever have in all my years of living and working in it… But honestly, it was worth the look on Ridley’s face every time they double checked that it was okay if they bought something. Don’t think they’re used to the fact I have more money than either of us will ever know what to do with. 

We spent infinitely longer in the Disney Store than expected and I’m definitely investing in annual passes to the parks for their birthday, because never in the time they’ve been with me have I seen them so excited over something and I can’t wait to see their reaction to the parks. I also have a feeling I’m going to suddenly become far more educated on Disney movies than I ever maybe wanted to be. Though, I’m hoping that will wait until after we get back to LA.

Well, with the waffling out of the way, we’ll be in the city through the end of the month so if anyone wants to meet up and do stuff, let me know. 

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I always find it’s the teenager who has the hardest time accepting that it’s okay for them to do something. We’re in a similar circumstance, however, I still throw out a “no” or “put it back” on the regular. The boys appreciate that more.

That rule doesn’t apply to the Disney store. I’m as guilty for getting side-tracked in there. I would highly recommend the annual passes. I bought them with the intention of going for a treat, but with a husband who has the mind and impulse control of a twelve year old, the weekend-ly visits had to come to an abrupt stop.

Please let us know when you’re planning on going. We’d love to join you sometime and I’m sure R would enjoy company with someone more her age. 

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Tell him Coop will be home soon. I cancelled my meeting, my agent is going to murder me but they’ll understand. I’ve already sent my apologies. Ramona is a feisty one, I’m proud of her even if you disagree about fighting back. I’ll swing by and pick Buzzy up while I go get Dash. I think we need some roof-top down, screaming at the top of our lungs time. You just keep the teenager at bay.

I spoke with Diane this morning, she said she left you a voicemail. We have another court date next week for the boys TPR hearing. Ramona’s papers got cleared too, so we’re further along with her process. 

Have you spoken to him about it at all? I want him to go back to the camp tomorrow. I’ll talk to him but he needs to know that sometimes we need to run away but we also need to face things that scare us. I’ll take him in tomorrow and I’ll hang around a little if he wants me to. 

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As long as it’s G rated. I know your playlists, Anderson. 

That’s some much needed good news. If we can get the boys cleared too then we can figure out a date to ask them the question. If they say yes, we can move on with the adoption process. If they say no then we can continue as we are but at least they have the security of knowing they won’t be moving anytime soon. I’ll have a think about how to ask them. 

I have and he got upset over it. It’s the typical of kids not understanding the power of words but he’d pretty shaken up. It’s as expected, comments about where his real mom is and that nobody loves him and that’s why they left him. We had a big cuddle and sloppy kisses from Moriah. Ramona isn’t the only one wanting to go out and murder a six year old, even if it means risking my reputation. I’m hesitant. Are you sure that’s the best idea, Coop? You’re you. You’re not just a normal Dad turning up, I don’t want it to make it worse. He’s already asked if we’re his pretend parents. I know you, you’re my overly-passionate bumbling idiot but we need to think this one through.

Thought I’d managed to not get sunburnt this weekend… and then I got home and Ienzo immediately managed to find the one spot on my body where I was, in fact, sunburnt and take up residency there. Like, sir, you are not supposed to be there, please move. 

But then, is it really a trip to the Hamptons if I don’t come back with a weird tan line?

Hope everyone else had a good Fourth of July weekend, and to anyone who had to witness me bludgeoning the bag of ice… I’m only slightly sorry.

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I for one was rather impressed with how you beat that ice senseless. You went up in the cool books for R too, which I’d take as a personal win. 

Don’t tempt me with sending St. Anderson 2 over as soon as Ienzo takes over the forefront of his mind. How about I just send him over and we leave him there so I can have some peace and quiet and he can occupy the cats. Everyone’s a winner here, sounds perfect, I’ll send him with pjs and a toothbrush.

Thanks Jesse.  I’m okay-ish,  It was my fault for not checking if Mom’s bbq guests had gone before leaving my room and heading to the kitchen  .  Rolled in the room and was met by a fully open back door ,  It didn’t end well as you can see.  Guess I’m still not up to leaving the house if just an open door has that effect on me.   Just do your best to convince Chels that i’m okay , She’s got  enough to worry about with Willow and rehearsals     

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I’ve offered to take Willow every so often, so you guys can Facetime each other. As long as Willow doesn’t mind a very loud house, we have a very full family right now. It doesn’t take much to ask Cooper to take the boys out or R. 

PM:

I take it you’re going to therapy? Maybe it would be worth bringing it up with your therapist. I know with Cooper they offered CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) and EDMR (Eye movement desensitisation and reprocessing).

He still gets the odd nightmare each month but it’s better than the full blown panic attacks in daylight whenever something triggered him. He went through a course of it last year after an episode near the anniversary date. He knows more about the experience than me but I dealt with all the appointments and organising so it was less stress for him. It might be something to consider? I know they have their downfalls like helping with the anxiety but not the depression but he has regular therapy sessions that keep that in check. I know when he’s having “a day” too so, I make sure to check-in with him. 

It’s just a suggestion... and it beats a broken nose.

So… It’s out. Black Widow is out! I am still shaking from last night’s premiere in LA. I swear, I’ve never been so nervous in all my life when it comes to my career. It felt different. A good different, a weird rush up and down my veins. I want to thank my amazing wife for all the support, she is the best. My friends too, of course. My mom for being the best at supporting me too. Now, with the LA premiere done, we will be going to NY, and I bet I will feel just the exact same rush, again. Between interviews, photoshoots, promo videos, I will be having a few next busy days. And for that reason, I will be taking a break from social media. Just for a few days. I need to focus on that and recharge. I also have some new scripts to read, some new proposals on top of the table that I will need to discuss with my team, and of course, my wife, also have some new ideas I will be working on. Some even overseas. I also want to spend some days just enjoying my wife. She deserves all and more that I can give to her, and I want to also take a break for that reason too. She deserves it. My anxiety has been over the top with all this, and yes, I may love to walk around like a crazy bee, at the speed of the light but, sometimes, I also need to recharge so I can come back with full force. Once again, I want to thank everyone for the support, I hope you all enjoy Black Widow, and remember, this was made with love and such a great team. I could not feel prouder. For now, Quinn Fabray will take a few days to breathe. I hope you guys really have fun, ok? I hope you guys enjoy Black Widow. I will be back soon, I promise. Keep me updated on everything you guys do! I will want to know everything you guys are up to, once I am back. Also, if you do watch the movie, let me know what you thought about it. I can’t wait to read your reviews/opinions.

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The teenager liked the sister during our home viewing, I can see why. She’s going to see it in the cinema with Cooper this week now that he’s back. I can’t say it left any imprint on me but it’s not my world, it’s his. The boys liked David Harbour’s character. There were many breathless chuckles because of him. I don’t think Moriah understood what was going on, she followed the boy’s lead more, however, that’s her usual reaction whenever Cooper has a Marvel movie on with her around. She’s more interested in reading the room.

Congratulations to the Black Widow team.

Anybody else ever get the really annoying itch for a new tattoo but have no idea what you want or where to get it? Or to start a new hobby but not know which one to pick? Like, I’ve been thinking about skateboarding and maybe getting the start of my Artemis tattoo, but I’m not sure, y’know? Then I’ve also been watching way too many free running videos and a lot of obstacle course races. Like, I could do that stuff. Not without some training, but I could put in the work. I already work out a lot and I’m still really flexible and good at lifting my own body weight, it can’t be that hard.

Famous last words, I know, but I have been really bored lately and it’s getting a little too hot to work in my garage on my woodworking but I could probably build something that Alex and I could both get use out of, which could be a fun thing to do together.

With that said, anybody have hobby suggestions that are more indoor related? I feel like I don’t have enough of those.

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Jigsaws and sewing. It’s worked wonders for my boys and even my toddler can get involved in the jigsaws. They’re also considerably obsessed with painting finger nails and gardening. My personal favourite is imagination and a box, we have a rocket-ship in the kitchen that’s stolen all of my spoons.

…Alright, it’s July 5th and we all know what that means; The start of Halloween season! That’s right, season. And this year is going to be huge. Next to my annual Haunted House there’ll be a Hay Maze. Halloween season checklist so far; Costumes ✔, upgraded haunted house to haunted farm plans  ✔ Map for hay maze; working on it.  If anyone wants to help out with decorating the farm end September let me know and I’ll put you on the list. And of course as always anybody is welcome to get their scare on when it’s Halloween. 

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Oh boy, let me get through summer break first. As a parent of four I’ve decided I am only viewing the year in stages of school and not a week more. 

My parents used to do all that jazz for Halloween on my grandparent’s farm. We’ll be going over there for a week in October with the whole Mystery Inc gang. If you don’t mind two five year olds potentially running havoc, you can sign them up to help with the hay maze, they have a love for green fingers. The teenager may be less than inclined with the idea but I’ll ask anyway. 

I saw it was your foster child’s birthday the other week, belated wishes to her. We have soon-to-be six year olds on the 17th, so I’m sure they’ll get along. 

Pride was wonderful and such a good way to de-stress oneself by celebrating love, self-acceptance, achievements, legal rights and the alphabet mafia with your loved ones. Being the new police lieutenant is hard, however being one at a new city has been challenging. I never back out from a challenge though so it’s been interesting.

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It was wonderful to see you there, even if most of my time was spent managing a toddler, two five year olds, a 31 year old and a teenager. 

Are you enjoying your new position, even if it is more challenging? I often tell my children that we shouldn’t sit in our “comfy space” (they’re five) and when something is tough, it’s just a new puzzle for us to overcome. 

DJ is very impressed that you’re “like Sherriff Woody”, I think he and my husband are on the same level of admiration. I’m happy it’s going well for you. We’ll have to have you, Iris and Gabe over for dinner again soon.

Hi Artie, I hope you’re doing okay. Let me know if you need anything.

I’ve got a doctorate in veterinary science so i think i just about managed to keep up. How do you find that? Working with your partner? I think i might’ve murdered my ex if we’d ever tried that. 

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Surprisingly easy. We have worked together for years, it’s where we met, being on the job. We know when we need to go into work mode. He has as big of a passion for the arts as I do and a stubbornness that things need to be perfect. We speak the same language when creating and we know how to argue a disagreement. It’s just about having a balance and respect for each other.

That’s why he’s not an ex and he’s my husband.  The clue is in the word, something wasn’t right if they are ‘ex’. 

How has the veterinary world been treating you?