Incontinent Guy (18+ Only)

Well more than four years have passed since I decided I would put myself back in diapers 24/7.

I mistakenly thought that just by wearing and using diapers would eventually render me diaper dependent. I tried following the famous 12 month diaper training program for quite some time, though with some adjustments which fitted into my life, some of which included being well hydrated and peeing more often.

Though things didn’t progress as I expected and wanted, partly due to increased travel frequency caused by me working in a type of job, where business travels werento be expected. This meant I had to back slightly away from total committment. However I remained padded and managed to pack enough diapers etc. For these travels, so that the 24/7 diaper wearing continued. Yes, during this period i learned valuable things.

I was approached last year in regard to an exiting job oppertunity by a headhunting firm, to be honest, I wasn’t exactly looking for a new job, but I accepted and before long I found myself in a brand new environment, despite that I remained in diapers, it’s just normal for me putting on a clean diaper in the morning, and it also meant I didn’t had to stress about toilet breaks and such. However naturally my focus was on performing in my new role and job, this meant that once again I didn’t pay enough attention to my bladder detraining. Partly due to an immense stress level because of the expectations I was met with in my new job and role I now had. Still to this day, There are days where I just hate my job, quickly turning 180 degrees to absolutely loving it. Funny feeling I must say.

Well, this is now in the past I have settled in, in my job, and I have decided that now is the time to go all in on becoming truly diaper dependent aka. Incontinent and eventually also becoming a bedwetter. Bedwetting is for me, the ultimate proof to me, that I must forever be confined in diapers, though in a good way, to me it’s the holy grail.

So, what will I change and how do I plan on carrying it out this time?

Well first of all, I need to have the right mindset, I need to set goals along the way, refraining from only focusing on the ultimate endgoal, and instead set short term goals.

In regard to my mindset and getting it right, I cannot describe the excitement I’m feeling, with my decision to start all over, and working more actively on my dream.

So my first short term goal will be:

1. Continue staying well hydrated, with the aim of.

2. Identify all triggers that have a positive effect on my bladder, so my bladder will be trained to release with the aid of such triggers.

2.1. Incorporate these triggers, and make them an ingrained part of my day.

3. Frequent wetting, to begin with, focus on peeing once every hour, later when I have gotten into this habit, increasing frequency so it will be once every half-hour. Once this objective has been achieved and secured so it happens without much conscious interaction from my side, im ready to the next short term objective.

3.1. Make sure I’m relaxed at all times. Signal of success, I recon will be dribling continuously or at least very frequent between wettings.

4. Ignore my bladders signal while still maintaining the high frequency and expected by then decreased output.

5. Keep focusing on making my new learned habits, a subconscious action.

In the beginning it was purely the comfort of being able to wear a diaper together with the feeling and such. However I quickly sensed I wanted more than just having a diaper strapped on. I wanted to become dependent and not having a choice but to wear and use my diaper. Basically become unpotty trained and having to rely on my diaper. Just like an incontinent person. So I began searching the web and found a few sites with people sharing the same ideas and objectives.

I also found a guide on how to become diaper dependent in 12 months by committing 100% to be diapered at all time. I was intrigued by it, and started adapting some points from it. Though I have to say that after 4 years of being in diapers 24/7 I have not come close to losing any bladder control nor true bedwetting. I use my diaper when a need to pee comes, no matter the circumstances, if I wake up during the night feeling the need to pee, I wet my night diaper without hesitation, though sometimes it does take some effort to get the flow started and drift back to sleep again.

I must say that after so many years being diapered around the clock, it has become second nature each morning to prepare and put on my daytime diaper and throw mu nighttime clothdiapers in my diaper pail.

Despite I have worn somenpretty thick diapers both at work in public in general, no one have ever commented, on the bulge in my pants. I have experienced the most terrifying leaks in public and work, yet that hasn’t changed my mind at all. I need to be diapered. I feel confident in myself, and my objective is now to become truly diaper dependent aka. medically incontinent and to achieve genuine bedwetting, with no hope of ever re-gaining control of my bladder, it is so ingrained in me this need of being padded all the time.

My wife understands and accepts me in diapers so things are covered here, although she doesn’t want to participate any further than that, which for me is fine. As long as she accepts me for who I am.

I have downloaded the guide years ago, in order to become truly diaper dependent, again. After 4 years of being in diapers 24/7, sleeping in cloth diapers and plastic pants at night, and being in disposable diapers through out the day. My status is:

Urges are coming out of the blue, sometimes strong urges which I cannot suppress, and I end up going in my diaper, other times I realize I’m wetting my diaper without having had the feeling of needing to go, my bladder just empty itself. Other times I have to “tell my brain” it’s ok to go.

Bedwetting which for me is the holy grail, unfortunately still very inconsistent, it’s rare I’m waking up by my bladder during night.

Mornings, within 10-20 sek. I get incredible strong urges and I wet my diaper before getting up. This usually happens when I have not been waken up during the night to pee, however during the morning routine I wet myself several times before heading to the shower and getting ready for the day.

Frequency, I’m wetting more than 8-10 times a day, sometimes more, sometimes less.

Output Volume is ranging from very small to what I consider my new normal maiximum volume, which is max 2-250 ml. Yes I have tried peeing in a 16oz. bottle just to estimate my bladder capacity.

Dribble, I tend to dribble far more now than what I used to, and sometimes in small spurts also.

Disposable diapers I’m using a wide variety of different diapers depending on my expectations for the day, and for how long I expect to be in the same diaper. Mondays, I tend to wet more on mondays  than the rest of the week (weekends excluded), and hence Mondays I tend to wear more absorbent diapers (Premium diapers). rest of the days, I use more discreete diapers, but always with a booster in my diaper.

Number of diapers during the day I generally only use one diaper through a normal workday (Again with a booster) and change when I come home, sometimes if I’m in the lazy mood, I change into my nighttime diaper (cloth) as soon as I get home, though I add more layers to it. There are days though if I miscalculated my day, or my need, that I’ll either have to go home a bit earlier, or find a way to change discreetly.

I can’t be the only one… Can I?

How to Put on a Diaper

I have made this post due to not only receiving an anon question a bit back asking if I knew of a good tutorial for putting a diaper on, but also because I see a huge demand in all the new people in the age play community that do not know how or need practice and tips for putting on a diaper snug and comfortable. Each picture is numbered in the order things should be done. These pictures were taken when I was changing my little one. Keep in mind this is how I put a diaper on my little one, and some others technique might vary some what. Even though this is of me putting it on my little one, the same general steps apply when putting a diaper on yourself.

1.) Unfold the diaper and pull up the little elastic band, known as the leak guards that run along the inside of the diaper. Pull it up along the entire edge of the padding, so it is standing up as shown in the picture. Keep in mind some cheaper brands might not have leak guards.

2.) When pulling the diaper up between the legs make sure the top front of the diaper (waistband) lines up with the top back (waistband) of the diaper. Actually having the front waistband about an inch lower than the back typically works best as shown in picture.

3.) This picture jumps past one little step of holding the front in place with one hand while tucking the front side around the hip some before taping it (that can be seen in picture 4 for the other side). After doing that continue to hold the front in place with one hand so it stays snug between the legs until taping the top tape of one side. It does not matter which side first but I recommend the top tape first.

4.) As mentioned in the last step this is a picture of tucking one side of the front of the diaper around the hip. This prevents it from being scrunched on the side of your hip making it uncomfortable.

5.) This is just simply a picture of putting the tape of the other side in place after tucking the front side around the hip. Notice in this picture still holding the front of the diaper in place until the tape is on so it does not come loose and stays snug between the legs.

6.) Putting the bottom tape of one side on, which can be tricky with some diapers. Make sure to get it high enough or when you walk or bend over the bottom tape might poke you uncomfortably in the leg. Make sure there is plenty plastic of the diaper between then bottom tape and the legging of the diaper that wraps around the front of the leg. Repeat with the bottom tape on the other side.

7.) Pull the plastic legging of the diaper out some to make sure its not scrunched up inside. Some diapers have less plastic around the legs than these. These were Bambino Biancos and have more than most diapers, but all diapers will have plastic wrapped around the legs.

8.) Tuck in the part of the plastic legging that connects with the padding into the diaper some. This makes a good seal around the legs and will prevent leaks from fast wettings that flood the diaper and take a few seconds to absorb it all.

9.) Simply pull the top waist band of the front up to make sure the diaper is on straight and snug between the legs.

10.) For some people, they prefer to have the diaper with a low riding waist because it is more comfortable than having a diaper half way up your tummy. Plus I personally think it looks cuter with a low cut waist diaper. So fold the front waist of the diaper neatly inside the diaper. On the back fold the back waist band down on the outside of the diaper.