Movie star from Mars

Paris said I can stay at her room for few nights. I didn't know what to do and where to go. Only thing I was sure about was that I'm not going back home.

Days went by. I was quite happy these days - going for long walks around town with Paris and meeting David at his house every day we both had time. I didn't need anything more to be happy. Mom wasn't very happy I have new friend but somehow I always persuated her to let me go visit him. Until one day when David came to pick me up. His red hair and the way he was talking made her think he's complete weirdo. After I came back home from a walk she told me I won't meet him again. Of course that was start of another big argument between me and mother. And this argument ended with her words: "Choose me or him!" After all bad things she told me lately, after all of my meetings she made me cancel, it wasn't a hard choice for me. I think she was almost sure I'll choose her, she wouldn't say it if she wasn't sure I'm gonna choose her. But she probably overlooked how sad I was when I was forced to stay home and I wasn't able to be with one of my (two real) friends. I left her speechless saying I choose David. Then I ran away and slammed the door. I didn't know what to do or where to go. I decided to visit Paris and tell her what happened.

After while of walking I realized we are near David's house. I didn't want to go there, I swear I wasn't even thinking where I'm going while me and Paris were talking. But apparently my unconscious led me there. I got so nervous but I didn't say anything. Paris had no idea David lives here. I had my white high heels on. Paris always told me I shouldn't wear such high heels cause once they'll be the death of me. She was right cause suddenly I almost fell and I felt spmething's happening with my ankle. It was so painful at the moment I had to scream.  But straight I shut my mouth up with my hand cause I didn't want David to hear something and go outside to look what's happening. Paris confusedly looked at me but didn't say anything. With her help I got to bench that was right in front of David's house. We sat there and looked what happened to my ankle. It looked okay and didn't hurt so much anymore so I said we can walk on but Paris thought I should wait some more time. I was always so "lucky" - like magnet for embarasing situations...cause suddenly I saw David going out of his house. As long as he noticed me he went to us and asked me what happened. "Shit, now Janet will think I did it all on purpose...", I thought myself. David took us both to his house and told me I can stay until I won't be sure I can walk again. I didn't plan to make him and Paris meet this way... Well, at least I didn't have to plan their meeting and be stressed about it... We spent few hours there and then we both walked back home. I guess Paris liked my new friend too. 

It was tiring to persuade mom to let me go out with Paris. After my big argument with her it wasn't that easy. But luckily I managed to win this "fight". We went for a long walk across our small town. We were just walking & talking, not thinking where are we going. I told Paris about everything what happened yesterday & even though I had really big argument with my mom in the morning I was just so happy. When we talked about David, Paris asked: "You're in love, aren't you?" I tried to persuade her, "no, I'm not in love, really", but more than her I was probably trying to persuade myself...

It was 9 AM. Rainbow lollipop was all I had for breakfast cause I remembered my mother is wainting me home. I totally forgot about time & she didn't know anything about me since I left to cinema yesterday. I hurried home. Of course mom was angry & started to shout at me as soon as I opened the front door. I tried to explain what happened, I told her I finally met someone who really understands me, likes me for who I am and even is little bit of stranger, just like me. But mom doesn't want to listen to me. She never really listens to me. She isn't satisfied until things are her way... I was so done with the way she's been treating me lately. So I phoned my best friend, Paris, to meet me as soon as possible.

He said: "As long as I have to, one day I’ll make you see"

The other day I woke up alone in living room, laying on the couch. I thought David is still sleeping in his room. But when I looked around me I found another rainbow lollipop on the table.

But you like it and think I’m cool

We came to his house. There was a hall with big dining table and some more free space. In this free space there was piano. He started to play and sing a song he made. I fell in love with that song and every time I ever hear it again I see bright blue sky - as beautiful as it was that day. I loved his voice. I needed to hear more and more of his songs. When suddenly rock n' roll song came on - song about misunderstood girl. I felt like this song must have been written from the bottom of my heart. This song made me want to dance, this song made me want to fall in love. And I did. That was beginning of big friendship, video films we made, free blue skies, music and happiness, but most of all endless love. Later when we both got tired he asked me if I want to watch television. Of course I wanted. I never watched one. My mother didn't have enough money to buy us our own tv. I don't even know what movie we were watching. Only thing I remember was rainbow lollipop David gave me. And after short while of watching some black & white movie I fell asleep.

In a while I heard someone calling: “wait, girl!” I tuned around. It was this annoying boy who was sitting next to me. In a darkened room of cinema I didn’t even realize his hair was red. Not ginger, but really red – just like fire. “I didn’t mean to make you angry or sad… and I suppose it was such bad & stupid movie,” he said & smiled at me. When he came closer & I looked into his eyes, there was something different, I’ve never seen eyes like this before. They were the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen, even though I was too confused to realize it at the moment (and it took me a lot more time to realize what I feel looking into those eyes, but about it maybe later… ). Of course I noticed his “weirdness” on first sight but I didn’t really think he’s different from other people. Probably it was because we both were a little bit strangers and maybe it was main reason why he noticed me. Somehow, naturally, we started to talk about things & walked, I didn’t even know where. His name was David.

I decided to go to cinema alone. But from the very beginning of the movie I saw it was a big mistake. This day was ruined and such boring movie could ruin it only more. All I could do was think about Richard, Jim and all other stupid boys I met in my life. I thought of everyone who ever hinted or told me I am too weird for this boring & ordinary world. I was so nervous I couldn’t focus on story of movie. I looked next to me, behind me. All people around started to tell me to focus on movie screen & not to move constantly. Especially that guy sitting next to me. He was probably most annoying of them all. Movie barely just begun but I had already enough. Depressed & broken-hearted from all thoughts that were running through my mind, almost crying, I ran away from the cinema. Why is it so hard to understand someone who just wanna be free & themselves? When I opened the door, I looked up to the sky. It was still same blue color but it didn’t seem so beautiful to me anymore.

I was waiting in front of the cinema gates. Time went by... 5 minutes left till movie starts. Richard still nowhere to be seen. Oh God, he really didn’t seem to be one of those guys I knew before - who tell you know much they like you & then they laugh behind your back… Well, I told myself: “he is just an ordinary guy, one in a million. There are better and more interesting boys.” I decided to go to cinema alone. “I won’t let him ruin such a beautiful day,” I thought to myself.

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