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Why do you think her being trans wasn't confirmed until the finale? coincidentally why did so many prior TADC fans seemingly jump ship as soon as episode 9 came out? (they have the same answer!)

Jax's story is about a trans girl who hates herself and is suffering because of transphobia. Her struggles are deeply personal and brutally realistic to what it means to be trans, so of course she connected with millions of struggling trans people. But she could never have had this impact if people knew she was trans in episode one.

Jax became one of the most famous instances of trans representation because she benefited from people treating her as cis and giving her attention accordingly.

so of course they would be mad and hate the finale, it told them that the entirety of the show they had been watching a trans girl, promoting her message that trans people are struggling, and that we should be supported.

breakfast of transbians > nobodyratgirl

5/23/26

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Eating salted pickles in place of meals, two stereotypical trans girls.

Why are our stereotypes so embedded in being unhealthy and the ironic acknowledgment and pseudo-critique of that behavior?

this is just a quick silly comic based on a really excellent pun lav made, but I feel it warrants some disclaimer. Trans girls deserve to be healthy, ALSO the stereotypical "hearty american breakfast" was invented by Sigmund Freud's nephew to sell more bacon and eggs. So their inclusion as symbols in this comic is just to signify the idea of "breakfast" I wish i could distance myself from the initial intent.

Similarly, we should take trans women's struggles seriously. Our symbols and language for discussing issues in our community are just embedded in this attitude of "haha the trans woman and her salt cravings"

idk, maybe I am propagating this stereotype here, or at least demonstrating its relevance by actually eating just straight salt somedays. But if I am at the very least I want to draw attention to this:

please trans girl if you have to hear it from someone, you dont need to keep joking about how unhealthy you are please just go eat something good and take care of yourself. 💜

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+ [ eventually we will eat 3 meals a day ] +

but seriously, why does it feel like eating healthy is designed for the rich? the store we go to because it’s the only one in walking distance has no frozen chicken or fish, which is always the cheapest way to get access to meat protein imo.

and on the topic of class disparity, i really wish my gf got more recognition for these posts! i know she only started posting recently, but tumblr hardly pushes her stuff at all! each little one of her comics takes her so much effort, her coloring is some of the best i’ve ever seen honestly.

prom/dream > nobodyratgirl

5/22/26

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I never went to dances, being deadnamed in my dad's oversized button-ups while hugging the gym's walls awkwardly was reason enough not to consider it.

I ran away before prom, but were I there, if i allowed myself the escapism. If I gave myself the chance to dream, my trans sisters surely must be there alongside me.

it is a nice fantasy, but as all dreams must, we wake to the stale mundane world of hard truths. I never went to prom.

(my entry for trans prom 2026 hosted by @zaigg)

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+ [ Until we can take back ] +

+ [ The years they've stolen from us ] +

+ [ We'll always live like we're ] +

+ [ -Hopeless kids ] +

+ [ But when we're with all our friends, ] +

+ [ can we just pretend ] +

+ [ that no one can hurt us? ] +

Searching for a Home

5/16 - 5/20

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It's so hard to be mentally ill, trans, and homeless while not feeling hopeless. Rat girl's doing her best, looking for a place to stay the night, ever uncertain of how long it will last. Based on my current living situation.

Insurance > nobody rat girl

5/11/2026

"Desperate Rat" - 5/15/2026

It feels so impossible to grow from trauma. I feel so guilty, and im so desperate.

But im doing my best at least, ive made it through all my worst moments before. I think I might be okay in time.

Insurance > nobody rat girl

5/11/2026

Glass Beach > nobodyratgirl

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A week ago, my favorite band broke up. Glass Beach got me through so much in my life. I would blast bedroom community during church sermons in my beaten up hand-me-down 2008 wired earbuds. Play "Glass Beach" on repeat after drawn out arguments kept me up all night. bawl my eyes out to "orchids" in the allotted 1 minute moment of silence after the album ended. I went through a lot in the period of time Glass Beach was together, found out I was a trans woman, had my parents try and force me to be cis, which led me to some dark places, but eventually Glass Beach pulled me back out, Id find my girlfriend on the Glass Beach discord server and we would run away together. Its still hard sometimes, but me and her have been through worse. And we will make it out of this, someday we will be there, safe on the shore, the seaside of Malibu. Each page is inspired by a glass beach album (or adjacent) as well as a song.

Credits to the album designs by go to @daxeart As well as J, William White, Jonas Newhouse, and Layne Smith, the former members of Glass Beach.

voicemail > nobodyratgirl

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Its hard doing all these adult things i was never taught, just making things up pretending to have it together.

You aren't told how to be human, or how to engage with others. Im not sure anyone knows. But Im certain it'll be easier to pretend with practice.

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+ [ Its like im 13, pretending to be an adult ] +

+ [ then I did it for respect and power ] +

+ [ now Im 18, so Im in control now ] +

+ [ But it cost childhood ] +

Hyperreality > nobodyratgirl

4/28/26

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CW: Dissociation, Existential

Somedays it feels like i'm just playing a character in my head. It becomes hard to know who I am, and everything I do feels insincere.

A quote that helped me is "we are who we pretend to be" - Kurt Vonnegut, Mother Night.

Another is Descartes's rationalism. If you think you are fake, you are probably just authentically the person you think you are pretending to be.

Baudrillard writes about hyperreality, which is when a simulation becomes so realistic, it is real. Im simplifying, but its just more likely you are real, and if you aren't, well your ability to think proves that you are.

--- I think trans people are more susceptible to this kind of dissociative spiral. ---

We learned that we weren't our gender at birth, so what else is fake? I think we've sorta been questioning ourselves ever since. All the best movies on hyperreality are made by trans people, The Matrix, I Saw The TV Glow, probably more. Trans people, the world around you, and your identity, are all real. Remember not to overthink it!

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+ { Reality is what we interpret as real } +

+ { If reality is flawed, we can change it } +