The Light Of The Moon Will Guide Us

so like my dog went blind suddenly 2 years ago and she did not handle it well at all. for like the whole first half a year she was depressed and lost interest in everything. and she also started having bouts of extreme confusion usually they happen after a nap when she wakes up and cant seem to figure out where she is. she becomes very restless and will repeatedly bump into things and there isnt much i can do besides try to keep her safe until she calms down. this is of course frustrating for me especially when it happens in the middle of the night and i am up for hours trying to settle her down. because of this i do not feel it would be safe to leave her at home by herself. i would feel terrible if she got injured bc she was alone and panicking. obviously this decision significantly complicates my own life and the things i can do since now cannot go anywhere without either choosing a dog friendly place or securing a dog sitter that i trust and has experience with anxious blind dogs. it does upset me when i cant go places do things that i want to do but i love her and she is my responsibility so her safety is much important to me. what really upsets me though is how rude people are to me about it. i am so sick of people copping an attitude bc i cant go somewhere with them when i cant find a dog sitter. im not sure if they just dont fully grasp how bad she actually gets when she is panickihg or if they simply dont care bc "its just a dog" either way the lack of empathy for both me and my dog really gets to me. not to mention they know the situation so if u really did want to hangout with me why couldnt u just pick something dog friendly like u picked something that i need to jump through hoops for to attend and then get mad at me when im unsuccessful?? obviously neither me or her are enjoying this situation but its the situation we are in now and having ppl mad at me over it is like so ?????? why tf are u getting upset at us when we are the ones dealing with all of this and the only thing that happened to u is that i said "sorry i cant get lunch with u bc i couldnt find a dog sitter" like it genuinely pmo so bad its so fucking stupid and deadass like if me putting my dogs safety above all else upsets u then we simply do not get along so theres no point in getting pissy that i canceled IT WASNT GOING TO BE AN ENJOYABLE EXPERIENCE ANYWAYS.

im getting released for good behavior