Intricate Rituals

hey all, this is our (sporadic as hell) system blog. we're a p-did system of 9ish at the last count and new to being open about it despite being aware of it for 18 years. Nine curates.

we're hoping to make new connections with folks of similar experiences, and specifically, for the folks who aren't hosts to have a place to make their own friendships and things.

SOME GROUND RULES

please only follow if yr bodyage is 22+ (we're 30).

No: terfs/swerfs/nazis/zionists/white supremacists/antiblackness/ableist or antimaskers/"covid is over" people/personality disorder or psychosis stigmatizers

Yes: other trans systems, disabled folks, mixed race folks & systems of colour, lesbians, and folks with PDs

WHO'S HERE

Folks who have access to this blog can be seen here x as we fill it up (had a page but exceeded the length so just reformatting it as tagged posts) but a quick intro is:

Nine - he/she if you're trans, they/he if you're not. 29. host.

Rosie - she/her, 26ish, caretaker

Rory - he/him, 16-18, persecutor

Bet - she/her, 19, persecutor/rage and trauma holder

Mercury - she/her, 15 and ageless, caretaker/energy conserver

Bastian - he/him - 31 - caretaker/gatekeeper

Tomorrow - it/she - impulsivity/mania holder

Sagely - she/they - 21-27 - peace holder/system soother

Revenant Gabriel - he/him - ageless - social protector

Vi - she/her - 22/23 - protector

Charlotte - she/her - 26-31

Most of us (who have access to front) are game to answer questions regularly or chat, though by nature of how our switching works you're gonna get Nine most often. Don't ask Vi (or any of us) abt her source thanks.

i'm just tired of being lonely i think. and i don't think i'll be able to make friends outside the system, and definitely not like. date. the older the body gets the weirder it all is i'm just. sorry i'm rambling. anyway i hope i'm not making things worse i just. yeah.

the folks who don't talk to me (Sagely, Tomorrow) are harder and harder to be aware of.

and there feels like there's this vague amalgamous blob/shadow/fog of a potential guy somewhere but like. Idk. Worried bc I keep getting a name thrown at me that I really hope Isn't a Name Name (which is usually a sign that it is a person. cuz like. not like i have control of that).

(Also why am I capitalizing like Rosie girl i s2g).

and then we reconnected with our highschool boyfriend. long story. good interaction. but now like a Distinctly Different me(?) is hanging out who feels like she's like. In Highschool still but is aware of the time that's passed and such. So like. Idk I can/do age slide and teens is usually the range because, makes sense. But it feels like we're parallel. So idk if that's one of the Me's from High school coming back? Now that we're trying to remove some of the walls around that time in our life?

In the good news Rory seems? to be doing a bit better re: adjustment to being here now. The dormancy really fucked him up, and it makes sense it would take almost 4 years to move out of static and grief and start to figure out who he wants to be now.

God brain is so busy. What great timing to travel to an entire different continent. Without half our meds. Party.