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But thats the thing, I cant write it or even think about shit unless theres a trigger. I'm not an media anaylizer person, I gossip. And the media got to be right in front of me to remember

I think the reason I cant analyize media is because of how I taught myself to consume it. Like I'll watch some lore deep shit and then do an assignment as a kid because I cut myself off from social media. and then "allow myself to think about it as my entertainment" instead of doomscrolling and allow myself just to rant at the screen but I'm not really paying attention

12 in the morning, 12 in the morning. its night! I don't wanna go to bed

My doctor asking me why my face is the only clear skin on my body, mind your fucking business, thats why😭

I dont have any physical insecurities but why is my face so fucking round. How am I supposed to serve like this😣and idk if my khimar is making it better or worse

Every year I look more like a clone of father, holy. The wide eyes is literally the only difference

All I have is doe eyes, thats all I have

My pointy teeth are the only things messing up my straight teeth, I'm going to pull these fucking brackets myself 😣

literally what was god thinking when he made dicks. They are so weird looking

I remember nothing from being 12 but somehow feel like I'm stuck there

I feel so 12

And like you can be brainfriend if you be brainfried the right way, I cant. Like theres a performance for stupidness too, if that make sense. And no, I don't know what I'm talking about, its like 12 in the morning

I WOULD have a personality if I wasnt addicted to winning arguments, stressing myself out to feel something and was capable for one fucking of documenting what the hell I be watching and I just be eating shit. I can not do analysis shit. I rate the film a good out of good or straight dogshit and call it a day. I'm really addicted to stress, lowkey. And no, dont give me cheer up bullshit. Half of my problems would disappear if I stopped competing with adults, tbh. "I have your maturity at half your age without all the bullshit" and then the experience lowkey whoop your ass anyways and you have to grow maturity. And when I'm not being a poser, when I let myself to be brainfried, which I really am, I sound like a 12 year old which, fair enough, that is the age I regress to. "Wow, the dude I said liked that girl really liked that girl, he loves her so much"

Half of my problems would disappear if I stopped competing with adults, tbh