Hello! ★彡🌻

It’s honestly hard to say what’s on my mind but, I hope everyone is doing well. Whether you are or not, just know that you matter. Seeing the state of the world sounds pretty awful in hindsight (which yeah, it’s pretty fucking awful.) but, just know that it’s not everything. Humans tend to showcase the bad more because well, that’s part of our problem solving process but just know that there’s good in the world too. If I’m being honest, I don’t know if things would get better overtime, no one really knows. I think focusing on the now and what you can do matters more. The reminder I can say is that you are smart, capable, and you deserve empathy. If you’re struggling with getting up or taking care of yourself. I don’t blame you, take your time. It’s already hard enough so don’t beat yourself up over it. I know that not everyone may not someone to reach out to and I’ll say this. You deserve support and a listening ear, there’s resources to reach out to. You’re never a burden with the heaviness you’re carrying. I hope there’s a point in your life where you don’t feel like you’re not loved or cared about. I hope you stay around to see how far you’ve come.

it’s raining currently and my throat hurts..

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frames I really like

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I just want to say this, every kind word a person says to me, absolutely means the world and I would remember it all. I always had a tendency to think or see myself as less than due to many reasons. I sometimes find it hard to believe when anyone not only acknowledges me not just in a positive light but more of a human way. I always seen myself in a more negative light so when someone doesn’t just see me in a negative light but also a positive and the more.. embarrassingly messy versions of me. I tend to cry. A lot. Holding yourself to such a high standard is honestly exhausting especially when you overthink, over analyze, and even think that being this unrealistic version of yourself is the only way to be happy or liked as a person when it doesn’t have to be. Feeling like you have to please everyone and let’s be so fr. You cannot please everyone. Not everyone is going to want help, everyone has their own lives to worry about. I think a good start to being better and being kinder is to start with myself. Instead of thinking the worst, maybe I should just try or idk FUCKING TALK TO YOUR FRIENDS. And yes, If anyone has clocked me before and is like ‘FORK FOUND IN KITCHEN’. Shhhhh. I’m still working on it.

Change isn’t always going to be linear. You’re going to mess up, do dumb crap, or cry after doing something that you’d hate and regret but at the end of the day, you acknowledge it, you know your wrongs, faults, and failures and just remember what to do/don’t do next time if a situation similar to that happens. It takes it lot but as long as strive to be your best self, you’ll get there eventually. And also, don’t be harsh on yourself, take care.

I think it's really sweet of myself to try to make a birthday card for myself in animal crossing, I sadly don't have a letter for when I turned 17 though :[