Nothing to read here, just making it more accessible and censoring names
Designed a task for me and my current situation which is a reminder that I'm a slut and porn. Considering my fear of losing my libido again temporally after the surgery she had the perfect task to address this point adding some personal note from her, that I will keep private.
As part of her introcution of the tasks:
I want you to have a private collection of videos that will remind you who you really are, even if the medication takes your libido away for a while. This way you’ll always know your inner slut is still there, waiting.
If any of you bitches cum or edge to this I need to know.
Your cunt stays completely empty of toys (from day 5 you may stuff your own panties inside). Only clit and anal play allowed.
Wear your biggest plug for at least 2 hours daily, During every edging session you will wear your collar and gag.
Each day you must complete two edging sessions in front of the mirror. Fix the dildo firmly on a chair, sit on it taking it deep in your ass, and edge your clit for a minimum of 20 minutes each time.
Your nipples need to be clipped during your edgings! If you could use two clothespins on each nipple, that would be perfect.
You will record exactly one short video (15-25 seconds) only during the second session. The video must clearly show your face, the dildo buried deep in your ass, and your hand edging your clit.
At the end you will look at the camera and repeat the mantra: “I’m just a slut.” You will always record that with the gag or panties in your mouth, to make it more humiliating.
Daily report is mandatory in the sisters group (text only). Write: total edging time, confirmation you wore the big plug for 2 hours, confirmation you recorded the video, your humiliation level (1-10) and one short sentence about how you felt.
Days 1-4: edging only, no orgasms.
Days 5-7: you earn one orgasm per day as a reward for obeying. You may only cum after recording the video, and only while watching that day’s own video. If you don’t record, no cum.
From Day 5 onwards: Stuff your own panties deep inside your cunt all day and use those soaked panties as your gag during the session.
You not only have to record your full face, but also do it with your gag, or dirty panties in your mouth starting on the 5th
Do 10 minutes of deepthroat every day during one of the sessions, Extra slut points if you make more short videos for your own collection.
At the end you’ll have your own private collection of videos that prove exactly what a perfect slut you are.
Her ideas to make it even worse:
I thought about you always recording the phrase with a dildo down of your throat or forcing yourself to use lemon along with the gag to make you drool like crazy
The shortversion required for the task
Total edging time: around 45 minutes
Big plug: still on the time track while writing this. Currently at 1/2 hours
Humilation level: I feel like a 7/8. I just guess there will be some more when it's time. Just need to accept that I'm a slut and it might be a 5/6 for this day.
I felt more or less extremly horny, but I'm shy for the camera. Especially with face, dildo and gag and speaking. Wet cunt, wet gag, blushing and naked. I'm beautiful, when used.
So, xxx asked me if I want to be used. I couldn't help myself and look stupidly smiling at my phone I got worked up with excitment, respect and desire. Just the question made me horny. We chatted for a while, while she wrote all of the task down. And girl, reading that hit. I got horny and my fingers immediately started to rub my wet cunt. I didn't know if I was allowed, but fk, that made me so worked up.
After some more chatting she said something which is so damn accurate I just need to share it with you: But I think it's fine like this, I think you'll "enjoy" them a lot, especially the confessions to the camera. Filming your cunt is easy, but the face with the gag..🤪
Yeah, I mixed up some things for the first time doing it, but hey it's still a week ahead of me...
I got home and still had plenty of time before my next meeting. So, I undressed myself more in a hurry than sexy, because I just needed to feel myself.
I put on my collar (made me feel extra cute today) and gag. Took the dildo and placed it infront of the mirror. Spread my legs and sat on that dildo stretching my ass.
I started to rub (by time you're reading this you might noticed that I've forgotten about the nipples. Sorry, but I want it to be a honest report. I was to busy with rushing to rub. Therefore I wear them will writing this to kinda compensate for it. Most likely it does not count but anyway, I'm somewhat doing my things...
With spread legs, rubbing my meanwhile dripping cunt I looked at myself and said to the mirror, that I'm a slut. At the first time it made me moan badly. Fk, is this what I am? A slut? Porn?
Shaking my head I stopped rubbing for a while, just looking at me. Wet cunt, wet gag, blushing, naked. I'm beautiful, when used.
Back to rubbing. My cunt was crying for attention. It's been already 3 days since my last orgasm. Edging is so hard currently, so I really need to stop waaay earlier to handle it.
I reached to the phone: Opened up the camera and my cunt was pulsing. I knew what I was about to do... in the wrong hands ... fk, too much thinking. Started with a photo. Half-face. Took a deep breath and hit record.
Trying to get a decent angle and showing off what I am truly am: a slut. I'm just a slut. Porn. My heart was beating like crazy. With a cracked, shy voice .. more like a whisper I said it: I'm just a slut. Thrown away the phone and rubbed myself again.
I might have said fuck several times during this session.
My alarm (for a sales meeting, with a customer) went off like 20 minutes before the meeting to get dressed again. So I quickly grabbed something nice, to have at least a nice top. In the bathroom I cleaned myself, especially the face from the drooling spit, reapplied some make up (because customer, hey it's important to look nice) and dressed myself in a blouse playing dress up for work again.
My head went crazy during this. A few minutes ago I filmed myself saying I'm a slut, now I will talk with a customer about a new project.... I felt weird. Mixed feelings all the day got me confussed, worked up, horny idk what else.
I sat down at my desk. Like minutes before the meeting and just looked at my phone. Myself. Doing kinky shit. It was like, FK, what have I done?
The meeting started. Me still being blushed, thinking about what I just have done and that no one knows.... I couldn't concentrate that good for the whole meeting. My cunt was crying for attention. My head was confussed.
I'm just a slut. I'm porn.
What have I done? What have I gotten myself into? How will this be in the future be? Questions over questions, that just are proof, that I'm thinking too much and not living. Thinking keeps me away from life.
