Fear-not

I'm going to post poems whenever I finish them, so some won't be posted in order of date because, I come back and rewrite old ones every now and then.

Also I don't mind receiving any kind of feedback, in fact, I'd really appreciate it.

I didn't think I'd make it this far,

Yes, I know the journey is still long,

But I think for me I've raised the bar,

So I think so far I haven't done any wrong,

My accomplishments have stood,

Above what I expected,

Everything I thought I understood,

Is now rejected,

My mind is a year older,

My body still the same,

And the weather grows colder,

And soon they will see my name,

I've drawn out my values,

Figured out my meaning,

Collected the key clues,

To find everything I see appealing,

My future to me is full of attraction,

And I can admit that now at least I have a goal,

Maybe even a passion,

A hill top where I will stick my flagpole.

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Clinking ice tea,

And a stone cold beach,

Walking to me is free,

something you can reach,

A doorway and a few gates,

Passing the ocean view,

Some old and rusty crates,

And a book that's seems new,

I sipped my tea,

Looking outwardly towards,

A seaside city key,

That is now one of my many awards.

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I open up the sugar jar

Red nails painted

Have I always stayed up this late

To think of how horrible I am?

Or is that just the effect you have on me?

Listened to a new artist,

Some depressed dude

Saying how much he wants to forget you,

And i guess so do I too.

Sipping my too sweet mint tea,

Working on my homework,

Can I continue to keep thinking this way?

I can no longer ponder,

How can I seal my lips together?

So I never slip up and say the wrong thing.

Am I allowed to feel this way?

I hurt you, I acknowledge this.

I wonder,

have you realized yet,

that you've done even worse?

I'll keep asking questions till the caffeine wears off,

The black tea fades over my head,

And my headphones drown out my thinking.

A million reoccurring thoughts of

My regrets of you.

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Tripping through life with no handle,

But I know i can handle it,

Because I can lean on you,

And i know that you'll hold me too.

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Fields of daffodils,

Some swaying trees,

And rocky hills,

Oh how lovely are the sounds of bees.

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I'm used to listening to people more than being heard,

That sometimes,

It slips my mind,

That on occasion I'm expected to reply.

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It's the 14th of the lunar month,

It might be why I feel so hollow,

It's scientifically proven that there are three days every month that have an increase in crimes,

I can't remember why exactly,

But I've noticed it in me,

I feel so heavy as though I'm carved in to stone,

I can't tell if it's genuine or if it's mostly just because it's either the 13th,14th or 15th,

Either way, I don't think I'm good.

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If I had the aptness to become every

version of me that has and will live

on in everyone's minds,

I would make up a nation,

Most of whom I would likely not

Agree with very much,

So why should I stress about how they view me,

if I already know that the person

they think of is not authentically me,

But an unoriginal even possibly fantastically fabricated version of me,

Thought out to complete their every wish and desire,

that I will never become nor would I want to become,

Because I realistically couldn't contain who I am in mere thoughts nevertheless words,

So why could someone else,

who has no access to my internal monologs and notions,

Nor my inner secrets and desires,

How could I trust them when they speak about who I am,

When they are already unmindfull enough of themselves,

Instead of being attentive to who I know I am?

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How many times have I met you before we met an end,

Almost touched your hand,

Just nearly kissed your hair,

It must have not been enough,

For I wish to come even closer,

Just so I could re-live every moment,

Again and again,

It would be extremely painful,

I'm aware,

But I doubt it would stop me.

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My fingers tremble, so does my heart,

Aching and screaming,

As I watch from a distance,

The pain I feel is unbearable,

Yet yours,

Oh! It must have already killed you inside.

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I'll whisper in your ear,

a one sided goodbye,

Because it is as I fear,

The other side has no more time.

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You owned the key to my heart,

My soul could crumble,

And you would fix it,

Your love was my medicine,

Your voice was melody,

And you left us to soon,

Your losses surmount to your victory,

Oh! your tears of misery,

Mean everything to me,

And do not mistake us as negligent,

I wish they treat you with kindness,

Your beauty shines with brightness,

May you never turn to bitterness,

And allow your heart to freeze over and brittle,

And as a matter of fact

you are the soul of my soul,

روح الروح.

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If anyone leaves me,

I might collapse,

My thoughts will then be free,

And I'll relapse,

Capturing everything,

Picking up the pieces,

Hugging and trying,

To keep them warm without fleeces,

May never be enough,

They won't remember all of it,

None of the nice or rough,

Will stay instead it will just fall down into the pit.

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