still waiting for that summer I turn pretty

Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Meciful.

I have started to self study German from 01 July 2026, Wednesday.

My current level - A0. That is I am an absolute beginner.

Date 01-03-2026

Wake up time: 04:50am

Today's Date: 01-March-2026

45 weeks

Went for a walk while fasting

12 Nov-31 Dec , there are 50 days left this year. On 12th Nov, I woke up at 4:45am, and there were things I checked off from my to-do list that I had not been able to do before. THAT IS MY WIN.

I learned a lot about myself. I understood my pattern and my reasons for procrastination. I gave myself grace because at least I started. I can not expect Day 01 to be perfect. Step by step, little by little, I will improve Insha Allah.

Today's (12 Nov 2025) start was way better than any of the other starts I ever had. Alhamdulillah

Rewriting my core program

Day 01

(PS: This is the only "When I woke up" video I am posting separately, since this is day 01)

Just as we were about to go for the Angled Bob, my hairstylist realized I had done front layers previously, which were up to my chin length. She then explained it to me how this will spoil my entire A-Line angled Bob look. It will be a mix - a "khicuri" of two cuts. I wanted that sharp, pointy hair beyond my collarbone, and now, with front layers, it won't be the first pointy length of hair. She also advised me to keep my hair at least till shoulder length, as that would balance my look overall. I agreed. We chopped of 7 inches from the bottom. I now have curtain bangs, a lot of layers in my hair, and my length is shorter than before

Now, I want to tie this to my religion. He is not in my Rizq. Allah did not keep him for me, so Allah wants me to forget about him. I can't crave him. My Creator, my Lord, my Allah has removed him from my life because Allah knows best.

It makes no sense to me to crave a person who has been removed by Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta’ala. May Allah remove my emotional attachment from him and all the emotional pain that comes being attached to his memories.

He seemed to have been a good presence in my life. Now, in his absence, I have suffered for over a year.

Closing the chapter, Insha Allah.

I had a bad day. I did nothing.