We are a system that has been medically recognized via therapy but not fully diagnosed. This blog will be an "overall" blog for us, where any of us may post / interact. We will function using tags to distinguish who is posting what. Some guys might make their own blogs and they'll be tagged in this post!

Bodily we are 27, we collectively identify as Bisexual & Nonbinary with He/They pronouns. However this may change depending on who is fronting.

Basic DNI criteria applies, no homophobes/transphones/racists, please dont interact if you demonize or romanticize BPD or any other mental health issues. Please do not interact with intentions of forming a romantic relationship, we love our partner system and are taken - regardless of who is fronting.

@lunarismss steven grant's blog

Feeling very. Sad and empty tonight. I wish things were more clear - I wish I understood it better. I don't know. I feel like I'm in some fucked up limbo when it comes to my source.

Like. A part of me KNOWS it was "just a game", a part of me feels like it was a simulation of some sorts. But at the same time it was *so* real. I can remember feeling everything that happpened. It was like.. I somehow got trapped in the coding of the game, or some fucked up thing like that. And it feels really weird, I feel like I don't belong in the physical world or the virtual one.

And I miss my friends. I miss the Science Team. I mean I guess I kind of have tommy here? Since he just popped into my head and is around sometimes. Which is nice. But I miss.. the others, I miss seeing them and being able to interact with them. And I have Benrey.. my partner system.. I feel very lucky to have him in this life here and now...

But its still just? Weird I guess. I dont know. I know I was such an asshole in my source. And I know introject doesn't equal source. I know this. But it still makes me feel really bad? I should've been nicer to everybody. Maybe if I was nicer to Benrey things wouldn't have gone so bad.. maybe we wouldn't have had to kill him. I feel horrible every day over it. Maybe if I hadn't been so scared of everything happening, and so angry and lashing out because of it all. Maybe things wouldve turned out better? I dont know. :(