Monster Stories

I wanted to make this post once I got my actual photo with her, but a lot of people have been asking me to post about it anyway.

So on Friday Feb 8th at the Born This Way Ball in Toronto I was front center with a few of my friends. During the show, Gaga made eye contact with me during every song she performed that wasn’t at the back of the pit. She smiled and waved at me so many times I couldn’t handle it. During Marry The Night, she noticed my friend Lucas (he’s been a fan for almost 5 years) and grabbed his hand and told her security to bring him on stage. She then pointed to my friend Laura and brought her on stage. I looked at Gaga and pointed to myself with the biggest smile on my face and then she pointed at me and said “and bring her too” and I nearly shat myself. I literally could not fucking believe I was on stage WITH Lady Gaga and my friends in front of like 18,000 people.

I didn’t expect to cry, but seeing her right there in front of me made me break down. I started crying and she smiled at me and I went over and gave her the biggest hug ever. It was the craziest moment. The 8 of us that were on stage were just hugging each other and rejoicing pretty much. She would look at me and sing the lyrics and just omg dkdhsjs ;-;. We ran around the pit catwalk and danced and cheered. At the end of the song we were all placed on that piece of stage that lowers and I thought that was it until my friend Alex said “I think were going backstage”. I didn’t believe him until her team told us to wait off to the side.

We were led backstage to sit with the Virgin Mobile winner, the keyholder and some other people waiting to meet her. Joe (her dad) came and talked to us and he was saying how proud he is of his daughters and all that. He took a picture of us on his phone which was pretty cool.

After about an hour, we were led out into the hallway and told to form a line. 10 minutes after that she came out in the cutest fucking outfit of life. Her voice was really soft and she looked really happy. She didn’t say much about ARTPOP except that each song will talk about something different and that the album doesn’t have a particular theme per say. She also said that she doesn’t call herself a celebrity and that she doesn’t want her fans to view her that way. She truly just wants the fans to enjoy her artistry. This was really crazy because as of recently, I started to feel different about her not in a bad way but I just wanted to be here more for the music and the art rather than putting her on a throne and worshipping her type of thing.

This time around, I didn’t cry I just gave her a huge and said that I’ve been waiting to meet her for so so long and she said that she’s also been waiting. We took our picture together and I asked her to sign my ticket. She asked for my name which she struggled with for a bit lol (my names Queosha) but after she wrote it she said she thought it was so pretty and she loved it. I gave her another hug and just said thank you and she called me a little muffin and she said she thought I was “really cute” and said “you’re very beautiful” and I just said thank you so much and I was then escorted out.

This was the craziest thing I have ever experienced. I watched videos for months of fans getting pulled on stage and I was so happy for them (and slightly jealous) but I literally envisioned that moment for me for so long and it finally happened. I always pictured that I would be completely inconsolable and wouldn’t be able to speak but it was the opposite. I just felt like I was meeting a best friend for the first time. It felt natural and just really good. I hope that if I ever get to meet her again I can tell her everything’s she done for me but if not I’m so so grateful for this experience.

I’m doing this instead of a video because i’m too lazy to make a video. 

Anyway, so we got there at like 6pm, and of course Gaga isn’t there yet so we got in line and waited. Now at this point it’s probably 40 degrees, and it was pouring rain. So at around 715, Gaga drives right past us and around the corner (we were really far away from the entrance near the back of the line). I literally screamed MY QUEENIEJNED lol it was funny. Ok so then Brennan came and we partied. Then as we were freezing our asses off at like 10pm still outside Gaga sent us all crumbs cupcakes and it was fab.

Then these two guys infront of us were so drunk and they started fighting and then one of them left and it was so scary so we all huddled together under the umbrellas and we made up a prayer where we do the sign of the cross and say in the name of the Gaga and the Yuyi and the Jo Calderone Amen Fashion hahahaha. So this whole time Brennan didn’t have a ticket and he was going to try to guilt the security guards into letting him into the building. Luckily Airik came by and he told us all about Gaga and what she said to him and Brennan asked him if he would be allowed in without a ticket, an Airik probably not so he GAVE BRENNAN HIS TICKET. We scrubbed off the black x’s on the ticket and WE GOT BRENNAN INSIDE.

So once we got inside they made us give all of our gifts to the security and we had to put our umbrellas down. As I got closer I started to convulse and shake because I was so nervous and Gaga was literally 10 feet from me. I put my bag down on a table, and right before I went up the steps Terry went somewhere to go to the bathroom. So literally I was standing 5 feet from Gaga and I couldn’t talk to her omg I was dead. She put her feet up on the table and did like a fierce monster paw and started texting with her feet up on the table I was D E A D. While we were inside Born This Way the album was blasting and Bloody Mary started playing and Brennan and I were screaming the words and it was so funny. Finally Terry came back and I was allowed to go up to Gaga. I feel so bad but I completely didn’t say anything to Terry and I just went straight for Gaga. This is how the conversation went:

Gaga: Hello sweetie!

Me: Hi! I just wanted to let you know that you save my life-

Gaga: Aw you save my life every day!

Me: I was bullied the same way you were like I was thrown in a puddle and my books were thrown in the garbage. If you weren’t here I don’t think I would be either.

Gaga: Everything will always be better, and I’m glad you’re here now~

Me: omg can I have a hug?

Gaga: Sure sweetie! 

So then I hugged her and we took the picture and I think I accidentally stabbed her with my studs. 

So that’s what happened and I still can’t believe it. 

Waiting nearly six hours for Lady Gaga didn’t even matter anymore, as she finally stepped out of the ITV studios in London. I knew I was going to be shaken up, but I didn’t think i’d be as bad as I was. She gracefully came out of the building, stood there for a second, then walked along the line of Little Monsters waiting behind the gate for her. There was easily about 100 of us spread across the gate, and during the time we were waiting, we all sung her songs together and chanted her name. It was like we were a little community, it was beautiful. Anyway, I started shaking and tearing up as she came out, she wasn’t insight for me anymore, but the screams were getting closer and closer as she made her way up the line. When I could see her again, my brain completely froze and I just cried and stood there shaking. I could barely stand. I wrote her a letter which Chloerayne took out of my hand to give to her, I couldn’t get any words out so it was probably best she done that for me. As she approached us, Chloerayne handed her the letter and said ‘this is for you’, she said ‘thank you’ in her beautifully sweet voice. My throat completely closed up and I couldn’t say anything I wanted to, I didn’t know what to do but to cry with my arms held out in a helpless fashion. She held my hand, looked up and smiled and moved on to sign something for the person next to me. If I wasn’t crying much before, I was now in hysterics and I didn’t even know what to do or where to look. I managed to take this photograph of her, and I shall now literally treasure it with my life. It was obviously too busy to get photographs with her, and paparazzi were pushing all over the place. One even asked me if he could put his camera inbetween me and Chloerayne in which I simply said no and told him to do one. After she made her way up the line, she walked back to her car, blew and kiss and of course, put her paw up. 

Lady Gaga has been my absolute idol for two years, and I never ever thought i’d have to opportunity to briefly meet her. There was so many things I wish I said, or did, but i’m so pleased she has my letter. It reads how much she means to me, my dedication for her with my tattoos and how many times i’ve seen her live, and of course that I love her. As she walked back to the car, the letter was still gripped in her hands and I hope (actually, I know) she read it whilst in the car. Just the way she held my hand was so special, everything she does feels so sincere and honest. I just didn’t think i’d be as much of a hysterical mess as I was.

Gaga is living proof no matter how famous you are, you can still always have time for your fans. I will now try my best to attend any appearances she does in London in the future, just purely to relive that moment again. It all seems so surreal and I cant really believe it’s actually happened.