monkrock

 C’mon girl! Stop blaming yourself; it’s not all your fault Some men don’t grow up, they just get older Some folks are always looking for some extra salt But all I could offer was my warm shoulder In return you gave a hurricane of sadness to me And now I know you will either be a blessing or a lesson to me   I wouldn’t disagree when you say you gave me a lot of wisdom You taught me to be receptive and expressive All these years you lent me your hand to becoming a better person But now it has created a stir of controversy What has been done? And for whom? That’s the question for you and me You will either be a blessing or a lesson to me   Now let’s talk about what I did for you. Why? Don’t wanna hear it? Let me reveal how I did some pretty things for you too How I made a sane man out of person who was heartbroken at the time I stepped in For being myself I was treasured by you too You told me “What I could have possibly done to deserve you” But now you would be trying to analyze too

I told you I will be there but can’t be, looking at you makes me go in fear

Can’t believe what you have made of yourself that just can’t recognize you anymore

Will have to breathe believing that the person whom I loved isn’t there at all

The person whom I loved has left and the only reason he could leave me because he’s dead

 I never thought love is so cruel that it makes you fall so low, possibly that’s why it’s called to “fall” in love

I always wanted you to rise in my love but since you don’t hold any love for me anymore

Can see you burying yourself deep down but can’t help you at all

Just got to live thinking that I lost my love and the only reason I could lose him because he’s dead

 Why don’t you look me in the eyes? Are you ashamed? Are you angry? What are you feeling?

Have so many questions to ask but got no purpose anymore

I can see so much hatred on your face that it’s red like a burning mars

But I don’t have to look at it anymore and the reason I can’t see him because he’s dead

 Lost all hopes on you just want to be by myself for a while don’t know how long it’s gonna go like this

Don’t need anybody to comfort me unlike you as no one can fill this gap anymore

I am sure you won’t feel good knowing that I have gotten up after you pushed me down

Have to move on happily knowing that the person who was my world

Thought will always stay blinded in your love

Thought will always stay folded in your arms

Thought this world will always stay as beautiful

As I had your love

 I can see now what the world really is

All I can say that it has no colors to it anymore

All I can say that it has no smiles to wear anymore

Now that you’re gone

 I believe the love we had wasn’t enough to go on

Coz you don’t feel the same for me anymore

As the care & the pecks aren’t there anymore

And Now that I am alone

 Thinking of you every second hasn’t explained anything so far

I have decided not to blame you for my troubles anymore

I have acknowledged the fact that I don’t have you anymore

Now that I am forgone

 The only answer I am looking for is why you got us until the shore

And left me here to fight the breaking waves

And now I have forgotten to combat theses waves

Since I never had to do that alone

Those times when you have everyone but you feel you are still so lonely. Yes, that's right! All of us have had such feelings when we think "Damn it, why am I so lonely?" 

I have been searching for a new place where I can move ASAP. While I have been on the lookout, felt why the hell am I doing it alone? Where are those people who claim to love me and be with me in all my times. Having all those people and still wondering alone on the streets, not cool. May be something is wrong with them? May be something is wrong with me? Or may be something is just different with the situation.