My Uriel

It's so sad to know that she will never ever forgive nd never forget my error eventhough I am trying by best to change and to be more honest. Then again she has this anger that will never be change whatever I do good it is always been wrong.

on the day without my baby boy it breaks me alot they went to Dipolog for a long vication thats what I want to intact in my brain. But it is hard coz everytime I walk in to my house I feel sad that is why I always listen to his favorit music I imagine that he is always there calling me morning until evening papa to my cute "guwapito chupito" papa misses you so much to his ate please protect your little brother coz I miss you both even though I always gets mad for many reason but this is for you to be disipline and not ti be greedy in your lesson in life.

Hi aiden it's me papa I am very sorry if I am not a perfect father for you I am so depress and I don't know who is intrested to listen to me. maybe at this age you are around 14 or 16? I am sorry I try to change myself but it is nit enough for them like I said I am not a perfect man uncomplete sorry if I am gone early. maybe there will be a day that you might ask why did you left me the answer is in your mother who is toxic and nagger also your tita rizza who will never think waht will be the effect of what they say to me for them I am sorry I am not like that man. So maybe there will be a day they will realize what are those words they use on me. Be a good boy ok love your sister and mama ok papa is still here for you maybe a long way to road to find maybe in other places that they will not find of hear them no more toxic word no more unkind ways to leave. Thank you my son my only boy my lovable cute son I am sorry very very sorry for not being there for you.

Hi God I know you are watching my family please send an Archangel give them light or enlighten my wife to stay don't give up on her also to my 2 kids. There are more reasonable to do and to say but I don't want them to go back and stay with a monster,a monster that is hidding in his eyes. I know that I don't have those eyes that can judge what is good or bad but the thing is I can see to his father what is he and what can he do after 1 year please lord guid my wife and my kids as she walk to the path that she never see from what I can see.

Hi God I know you are watching my family please send an Archangel give them light or enlighten my wife to stay don't give up on her also to my 2 kids. There are more reasonable to do and to say but I don't want them to go back and stay with a monster,a monster that is hidding in his eyes. I know that I don't have those eyes that can judge what is good or bad but the thing is I can see to his father what is he and what can he do after 1 year please lord guid my wife and my kids as she walk to the path that she never see from what I can see.

To my two kids remember to be humble and stay your feet on the ground no matter what happen never give up. Life is dificult to understand but you have to go further or beyond on what you want in your goals. If something happen please take good care your mom because even though O can't underatand her or tease her everyday I will always love her and that promise is true I don't want other woman beside her. Please tell her that I love her and thank you maybe she did not know how much I love her maybe she do not know why I always stay for her even if she wants to quit I hear her heart beging to stop but still I do love you :*

Dear, self you made everyone again mad and completly shit as hell. they will never underatand your depression in life how deperate you are to gane money and how to have a new work so that they will no longer say any thing to you. I am sorry for you and to you my little girl if I am not a good father, I am sorry if you feel uncomplete by not asking what is the real cost or what happen in every day. Yes, I am dumb trash this is what they want to see me because I know this is me they can call me stupid all the time they can call me trash whatever they want that's because it is me the problem I am no a God. Yes, I can't apply the bible vers. I am no perfect to tell never ever. Always remember what did they to you until you die because it is a mirror of you no matter where you go. never look into there eyes anymore never talk to them directly because you know who you really are to them.

dear self I don't know what happen to you, you are a big trash with no words to say now I know how stupid you are how ignorant when it comes to any circumstances. I know I am blind with my anger but never to blame a kid in any ways talk to her or him nicely teach yourself to be not dark never ever be stupid again. do not buy things that will not benefit your family remember that you are a father not a single anymore or what. Be nice, kind and honest be down to earth as always because oneday you will be successful in life no matter what they say to you share even though you don't have nothing in life.

There are many times I feel so depress right now though I know God give us problem in life but this time it's the battle between myself and my mind. I feel so useless right now I don't know what will I do since I have children to feed and online class for my daugter. I think God left me abandond me because I made so much sins for him. I feel sorry for myself and to my family I hope someday God may forgive me and give me a wonderful job.

ang pag momove on dapat 10 mins lang yan pagkatapos mong huminga, umiyak ng sandamukal eh hanap uli.

love can be the most painful that you will ever encounter, but love can give you another chance to love again in a second time around.