It’s 51 minutes past midnight, so technically I have already failed my new years resolution to post daily. Technicalities aside I have not gone to bed yet, which means it is still the same day. Now that that’s settled! 

Today was good, the kind of effortless good where you don’t really accomplish anything from a to do list per say or even plan anything at all but good things just keep happening. I woke up super late, seems to be the only consist thing I do these days, aside from sleeping super late. Anyways, I started the day with leftover french toast and it was amazing! Food plays such a big role in my mood, and I’m not sure whether it’s a good or bad thing. Mama and I had a long chat about relationships, specifically hers and babas while I scoffed down as many french toast pieces as I possibly could. Then she and baba left to run some errands while I tidied up the kitchen and made brownies. Yes, more food! Maybe that’s why I remember this day so fondly. 

When mama and baba returned I had spent about three hours on the sofa watching Dynasty. I’ve been on a show binge ever since I watched Bridgerton last week. Both are great, but I could do without the sex scenes that add nothing to the plot. We then got Chilis and worked on a puzzle, we hung out for six hours straight which is something we haven’t done in a really long time. It was really fun and one of those picture perfect moments where you kind of have an out of body experience and thing woah I’m truly blessed aren’t I! 

Well this seems to be more recoutning than reflecting but eh I’ll get better. 

Today was supposed to be new and different, a fresh start. In reality it was very much the same. The new year hype is overrated, and I tell myself that every year but somehow still fall victim of some over romanticized idea that when the clock strikes midnight I’ll become some better version of myself, silly....I know.

ANYWAYS! I have one goal this year, just one! Reflect, daily! If there is one thing I know for sure it’s that I have spent most of my young adult life in a perpetual cycle of making the same mistakes, holding on to the same terrible habits and the worst part if being completely oblivious. Oblivious to all that leads up and proceeds them not of what they are. I think that self awareness and self reflection are very different, so heres to more understanding why I do what I do rather than just what it is that I do.

My internet appropriate musings will be posted here with a couple photos as well as journaling for 10 minutes in one of my gazillion neglected empty notebooks (I want to eventually add an art component but lets not get ahead of ourselves). 

9.8.2019

I spent most of the day procrastinating and drinking hot chocolate. Now I’m studying and drinking hot chocolate ! Yay!

9.7.2019