MochaTune✩

Mfs keep tryna make me feel “ashamed” that I don’t get much attention but I literally do but it’s offline + everyone that supports me are mostly active on instagram so I doubt they’d even have tumblr accounts as well…

Like when it comes to offline, people Ik, people close to me, people not even close to me n people idek say they like my shit. Not just my art, because I mainly n only post art, but the other things I do like my poems.

I also sew stuff, write scripts, graphic design (even tho I consider that just drawing but niggas keep yappin to me n shit about “iT’s NoT dRaWiNg” but I have to DRAW to do… Anyway) comic/comic panel making abilities, apparently my out of the box “autistic mind” (which always sounded creepy to me idk why but I’m countin it anyway 💀) the fact I know my way around a piano, know how to read music, etc etc.

Online is somewhat real n great for networking. Shit I love online things. Without technology I wouldn’t be able to be in easy contact with anyone, watch YouTube/media n be bored a lot like I was all the time growing up because I didn’t even have an iPhone (had an android but I was getting groomed n it didn’t last long. N yes, my family did in fact blame me) until high school. Hell I wouldn’t even be able to vent n express myself sometimes like right now BUT sometimes folks be giving it TOO much credit.

Like chronically online niggas really think yo friends finna go “Oh you didn’t get a lot of likes on your shit? Yo shit ass, loser!!” The only friends who’re gonna say that are either 1. Messin with you/jokin 2. Chronically online 3. Already thought it was ass but would let likes decide it’s worth 4. All of the above + really fake n scummy.

It’s not the end all be all of you OR your art’s worth. I don’t even post for that reason. I USE to do it solely so niggas see it but I even stopped caring about that. I mainly do it for myself + to preserve my work. For christ sakes I’m not even consistent when posting.

Blah blah blah bitch. Y’all started with me n called me annoying n all types of shit for asking questions. I’m only gonna really only give an answer to a few things though.

I have a life but I would see y’all messages in my free time or I would wake up at 4 in the morning n see it. Like right now. Not to mention the fact you on my blog sending in anon shit.

2. I literally did hold myself accountable for one thing I was wrong for.

3. Writing long ass paragraphs isn’t a good excuse because y’all also were doing it n I was trying to explain my side. I am very expressive in my writing n refuse to hold back shit.

4. I started to tell y’all to leave me tf alone because not only have I stated numerous times that I understand halfway, 50/50, n to let it go but because the stress of this whole thing n having to explain myself over n over to fucking idiotic assholes like you (this isn’t toward those kind people in the chat) became repetitive, tiresome n stressful. That stress lead to me having a fucking DOUBLE PAIN CRISIS n it’s STILL HERE. Also, tell the mfs @ing me, including yourself, to let it go first before you even come for me.