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   But even if I try to kill my sadness, I know life will regain in me again when the symptoms of the headache disappeared on the next day, I will have the same pain of tears routine.

It is strange how before days I talked about that negative emotions could make you end your life, so l learn to stay away them and today, just for a seconds, when I realized I a was about to lose the most precious person for me, the sadness and despair, they just… poured out from nowhere, because the reason (as always) it is so insignificant, it does made me hopeless for our future. Hopeless that tomorrow you will not break up with me for this reason. Unfortunately, it’s heart-breaking when it comes.

I am so sorry! I’m so fucking sorry, that I can’t live without your presence. That I agree with you when you are absolutely not right and even you don’t want to see from my view how things are even a little bit. I’m sorry for I feel how I’m about to go and jump off from some of the upper floors of some block. I’m sorry about how weak and faceless it is my character. I’m trying to pull myself up, but if you try to break me, I am going to no longer sorry for anything soon and I will never going to forgive myself for what I’m going to do after if you crush me.