Tonight’s drink bec I was doubting myself earlier this week @ work tapos I received compliments from onshore before I logged out 😭😭😭

Main reason why I have so much plushies - no one will hug me tight specially being in a family that doesnt really show affection

Because of the momol posts on my algo, umabot na ko sa BL momol then eventually to this BL pair. Sobrang lala nung kilig ko whenever I see posts about them to the point na napapangiti na lang ako mag-isa bigla. The princess treatment, physical touch, the height and size difference, the “relationship” in general - or what they allow the public to witness - all of the things I want if I’ll ever be in a relationship. Hindi ko din naman ineexpect na maeexperience ko sya so I’m living vicariously through the both of them. I dont even remember feeling this level of kilig sa past situationships ko. At least I have it this without any hassle.

I’ve been into vertical dramas lately plus my x algo is showing me kissing scenes left and right kaya din siguro ang lala ng inggit ko and ng want ko na mag make out and then I saw this tiktok post pa. I guess as someone who’s been single ever since, even if may mga side quests naman ako before, nakaka miss lang din yung feeling? Idk. Wala din naman talaga kong energy to meet new people. Ayoko din naman lumalabas ng bahay. It’s not like I would do it with a stranger so idek anong point nung rant ko. I even came back to a dating app pero hindi pa din naman ako nag rereply. Ginusto ko to so it really is a me problem 🤡

Missed the feeling of needle on my skin so I got another one