Lost in the Crowd

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 山河令 | Word of Honor (TV 2021) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Wen Kexing/Zhou Zishu Characters: Wen Kexing, Zhou Zishu Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Alternate Timelines, accidental fix-it (potential), Wenzhou as deus ex machina Summary:

Tumblr stopped working on my phone and my writer's block got so bad I could barely stomach looking at my laptop for a long time.

I picked it back up, though - and even wrote something! - so fingers crossed.

I asked at one of the local Asian bookstores in Dallas and the lady just directed me to a section that was universally aimed at math or learning English.

I look online and get more of the same if I get anything at all.  sigh.  :-/

I was going through my old LJ looking for anything I wanted to save in case LJ completely dies and I came across this old gem!  Originally posted in 2010-

Factoid #1: In any fandom, I always have one pairing that I adore above all others. I will read/write this pairing almost exclusively except for requests or love triangles or unrequited love that does not break it up. This pairing will pop up in pretty much everything I write for the fandom regardless of my intention when I start writing each new thing.

Factiod #2: Outside of that pairing, it's not entirely uncommon for there to be a third individual/character that I rather enjoy tossing in with the otp to make a nice ot3.

Factoid #3: In any fandom, there will be one pairing that I loathe above all other possibilities. Usually this means that I just can't bend my mind around the very idea for one reason or another so I just bypass it, but in some cases it's a much more blatant kind of reaction. -_- I've been known to actually, physically growl at my computer just for seeing the pairing name 'jaemin' scroll across my screen. Luckily, few of these pairings manage to inspire that level of ick. (2022 Update: this reaction hit an all time low with Clint/Coulson.  There was hardware damage. >_>)

Factoid #4: In any fandom, there will always be at least one, usually more, individual/character that I can not wrap my head around them being anything other than 100% straight. There will also usually be at least one character that I absolutely cannot wrap my head around them being anything other than 100% gay or lesbian.  That won't keep me from trying to bend them or straighten them out occasionally, but... only very occasionally and almost unfailing only for a request.  

Factoid #5: In any fandom, there will always be at least one individual/character that I can easily mix and match with pretty much anyone else in the fandom. Conversely, there will be at least one that I can only wrap my brain around them possibly being with one other individual/character. (Amusingly enough, these two are almost always my OTP)

There are two major problems happening here.

1 - While I love my grandmother, I don’t love huge swaths of that side of the family.

Mammaw is a relatively open-minded “live and let live” sort of person.  She has no problem with me being divorced or queer.  She has no problem that one of my cousins married a Cuban.  She has no problem that my brother is a bisexual, Wiccan swinger.

The aunts and uncles and a huge chunk of the cousins, on the other hand, are the kind of right wing evangelical hypocrites who think Trump is the Second Coming.

I cannot stress enough how much I do not want to deal with these people for any kind of extended period of time.  I’m going to need a dentist by the end of the day if I’m going to avoid starting a fight, I’m sure.

2 - I have honestly avoided talking to my grandmother since my father died.  It was a struggle to stabilize both my own and my son’s grief and guilt.  I absolutely could not deal with anyone else’s.  I had to have my brother even break the news to everyone because notifying him was the extent of what I could handle.

Dad died in July of 2020.  Almost two years ago.  And I have avoided my grandmother that entire time.  And now I’m going to see her for the first time since surrounded by people who didn’t really even like my dad very much (in their defense, my father was an antagonistic presence in the life of almost everyone who knew him for most of ‘70-’05  and only sort of mellowed out in the last decade of his life towards anyone besides me and one of my brothers) and who all KNOW that I’ve avoided my grandmother since dad died and are going to have plenty to say about it.  

That’s going to be.  Fun.  >_>