i wanted to thank you for clicking, even if you read all the way through or not. i wouldn’t blame you considering the wc is ~400. i wanted to cover the overview of my choice of signing out.

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1. LACK OF INTEREST IN KPOP

i feel like this is a common reasoning. people can lose passion or enjoyment when it comes to interests. this isnt a way to discourage any of my readers (not my intent) but rather for me to say that this is a common occurrence for me.

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short backstory:

i liked bts & bp when i was 10-11 years old, what happened? i found other things i enjoyed.

i got reintroduced to kpop, started liking txt and skz, fandom was going a little too crazy for me (TOO toxic and txt and skx fandoms going against each other) and i felt bored (not involving the drama between skzs and txts fandoms)

found out about svt, love for them grew and now, present day, or what i would rather say, december me was feeing.

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i realized when i started losing interest in svt was when i stopped watching their “going svt” series considering it was a comfort zone. it also felt like my connection with them was starting to die down when i focused more on my real life problems. i said kpop because ive lost most of my enjoyment towards it. from watching their performances on video and their interviews to only listen to their songs.

but this doesnt mean this is an end of an era!! i will continue to support my fav groups, just not actively as before.

2. SCHOOL

one of my real life problems included: sophomore slump. which is crazy to say considering im not a junior yet. knowing the position im in right now and what people say about junior year, im going to be burnt out. thinking about this and having early sophomore slump makes me notice how much motivation i’ll lack to continue to write.

3. MOTIVATION (IN GENERAL)

which brings me to my last point. there were times where i thought, “i should post today!” but that today turns into procrastination and soon that post would be posted days or even weeks later, and sometimes never.

ive also been having writers block.

i also had two accounts i wanted to start (one for deco & other for diff groups). originally, i was going to combine svt with diff groups but i wanted to dedicate this account solely to svt. unfortunately, these accounts have never been released, which is a prime example of what im demonstrating.

i didnt want to keep all of you guys waiting so i thought it would be best to finally announce it and get it off my chest before i ended up not doing it.

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and finally, a small appreciation to my readers before i log off,

to all my new readers, i am so sorry i could not continue this journey in being with you but i am so glad you’ve found my stories enjoyable!

to all my earlier readers, thank you. thank you for sticking with me to the end. it’s comforting to know that i was one of the many creators you guys chose to stay with and found interesting. im happy to know i was able to bring joy to you guys.

to all my mutuals, you guys are the nicest and most creative souls. i will always be supporting you from the sidelines, dont forget! all of your contents makes me smile and giggle (and kick my feet).

in the end, i am forever grateful to each and every one of you. though i cant show it, hopefully my words were able to. i wish i could give you guys all a hug for the support you’ve given me. i love interacting with yall 💕

i might’ve started off recently, just the end of last year, but im proud to say, i made 143 followers and to me, that is absolutely insane. it may not seem crazy to others but knowing i have 143 people enjoying my content, i am beyond proud of how far i’ve come.

so once again, thank you, so much. and may we meet again. ot13 forever, horanghae.

peace out,

- c (or as most of you guys know, mei) 🍎