Mitushi

i’d jump off cliffs for them. i’d jump into water even if i can’t swim and i know i’m the one who’ll drown.

i’d slap the monster back if it meant the monster would look at me and leave them alone.

there are so many ways i wish i could take their pain away. so many versions of me that are ready to fight to the death for them without even thinking.

1. it’s not about grand gestures. sometimes not even the small ones we hype up. love is about where you’ve come from, what you’ve survived, and who you’re willing to become. the real test is: will it still feel easier to hold hands when new battles show up?

2. your “type” is just physical attraction. it fades. at some point you realize you don’t even have a type because even your type can end up not being your type.

3. if someone has to find their way back to you, they will. but you can’t keep clinging to that hope. sometimes it takes 50 years, sometimes 2 months. either way, it only happens if both of you grow while missing each other.

4. you never fully stop loving someone. unless it was brutally painful, there’s always a soft corner that stays, quietly holding the version of them you loved, and the version of yourself who loved them.

there are people who hold your world steady without even trying, who make belonging feel effortless. once you’ve had that, anything less feels like breathing in a room with no windows. because here’s the thing. when your heart breaks, you run back to your friends. but when your friendships break, there’s no safe place to return to. no familiar couch to collapse on. no late night call that makes it all feel less heavy.

and friendship isn’t about fault. some people will love you quietly from a distance, and that will be enough. some people you’ll talk to every day and still never find the language of closeness. it’s not about how often, it’s about how deeply.

you have to act like you deserve the bare minimum: kindness. answers. accountability. respect. you have to act like your vulnerability matters.

like your strength matters. your access, your softness - all of it is important. because if you don’t, people will: threaten you. demean you. discredit you.

they’ll start thinking for you. they’ll take the narrative out of your hands and call your thoughts delusional. their dismissal will be “boundaries. your effort will be “clingy.”

their manipulation? “just protecting myself.”