Just Me

I wanna say. Thank you for all of your support. You all are just amazing, informative and very helpful.

I see how so many people talk about their amazing experiences with Loki.

I am not going to lie I kinda wish I would also have some of them. I see people talk about how they see him and such. Sometimes I do get those sadder thoughts that maybe I'm just not important or good enough to talk to.

For me basically it's just feelings, cravings or ideas. Nothing more.

I guess I wish my God phone was better.

Does loki sometimes test you? Maybe even your loyalty to him?

I ask because there have been some weird things going on and I feel like I'm being tested.

Any ideas?

I feel like it's because of my ever (slowly) growing confidence.

Today was one of those days. I dropped one of my rings. I saw where it landed, I went to get it and it was gone. It's a silver plated ring and the bathroom tiled floor. So I would have heard it move.

I'm not going to question my new found will or spark that has been motivating me lately. Ima take it, use it and better myself. Maybe Loki is pushing me to finally start accepting myself and not caring what other people think. Maybe I need to start being strong enough to help others.

As a female I hate being told that I cannot do something because I'm a girl. Or I have to be good at cooking and cleaning because I'm a girl.

I love the people who are not apart of these norms. The ones who dare to be themselves. I am not saying I'm always vibing with everyone. But I do love people who are unique.

My favorite thing is when I meet someone and they feel comfortable around me that they show me their weird side.

I'm talking about outlandish weird stuff. Most people would say it can't be but let me tell you, it does happen.

I have a few stories but the one with the damn Ostrich comes to mind. ( Me: F 14 years old when this takes place)

I was visiting my grandparents in Missouri. Now the house was about 10-15 miles from the next town, middle of nowhere. All there was, was hills and fields as far as the eye could see. One would assume that they could see every thing.

I enjoy going for walks. So I'm walking down a dirt/gravel road not far from my grandparents house.

I look at my phone and when I look up there is a giant ass ostrich standing not 10 ft in front of me.

It was huge. It looks like a velociraptor with wings. Mr. Scary ostrich had a huge claw the size of my hand. I was terrified. Like where did this ostrich come from. Have I been teleported to some ostrich land like wtf is going on.. Mr. Scary ostrich was getting all huff and puffy aggressive. I knew I couldn't outrun this thing, I'm small and chubby. I know that if he kicks me in the chest I'm done for. That claw can rip me in half.

Mr. Scary ostrich takes a step closer to me. I step back. He takes a few steps I take a few steps this goes on for a while Untill I hear some one screaming "hey that's my Ostrich". I'm just like well get him I ain't trying to get murdered by a overgrown dinasour chicken.

I see a truck full of guys one of which happens to be my grandfather.

I run back to the house and tell everyone what happened. My dad laughed and no one believed me until my gramps told them the same story.