welcome my dudes

physically, emotionally, in every way.

i have never given up trying, and im trying to be this person that keeps fighting, but im not quite sure i can anymore.

im tired because i have kept fighting; and for what feels like forever. even when im ahead, im behind. even when something goes right theres a negative.

im exhausted.

im stressed.

im anxious and depressed.

im fucking trying.

having goals should not be something to look down on, but now im starting to.

i feel stupid for ever wanting to please other people, and now it runs my life.

Ive let myself fall too far behind and now im worried i wont be able to catch up.

im tired.

im scared.

im stressed.

im over it.

i wish i felt the way i used to feel about myself.

i cant bring myself to be 100% happy.

everything is a distraction, attempt to feel better, a cheer up. but it always comes full circle.

I just wish someone looked out for me the way I do, them.

I dont know what to do anymore.

I am hoping to find/create a community of dancers and dance teachers online to share activities/teaching tools/music etc, and help each other grow as dancers and dance teachers. 

Currently I teach at a school that does not follow a syllabus as such, like ATOD RAD, Cecchetti. I am hoping to share worksheets, activities to help improve technique etc. 

Message or send me an ask if you’re interested or have suggestions.