MishaMatch Writes

In the past if you offended in any way shape or form, I wouldn’t tell you outright, I would laugh and joke about it then let it go.

People told me me how “mature” I’am for not being angry even if the situation should call for me. sometimes I even ask people if this thing you’ve done is offending and if they said “hell yeah” that’s the only time I get angry.

Mature? my ass! I’m being a fucking doormat. 

Because being Brave? is not as easy as one might think. being Brave means, standing up for yourself, defending yourself to people, older than you who think they know better just because they got here on Earth first. 

This year, Life has tested how much I can let myself be a doormat, letting myself realise how I cower behind my Father’s protection. Thinking that If they respected my father, they’re respecting me. (which totally not fuvking true)

Setting the Boundaries at first might me a little daunting, if it is, then you’re doing it right. at first people will make you bad about it, asking why did you change? what happened to you?!

OF COURSE BITCH ILL CHANGED, IM FUCKING BRAVE FOR SETTING THE BOUNDARIES AND ENFORCING THEM, IT JUST SO HAPPENDS THAT MY BOUNDARIES ARE SOMETHING YOU WONT AGREE CAUSE YOU WOULDNT BE ABLE TO USE ME ANYMORE, A**HOLE. 

I well... talked to someone in my past today.

I never really liked nor appreciate the people in my highschool

Frankly most of my worst memories are in there and half the people in that part of my life I’ve already forgotten.

But gosh, sometimes social media is a good thing. you get to catch with them just by them posting their achievements.

Im get off tracked. so today at work,  I needed a medical doctor and no one is paying any mind to my post (understandably so, our rate is so fucking low) then I remembered seeing one of my highschool classmate that recently became a Doctor.

*Note the part High school classmate.

Were not friends or atleast that’s what I thought.

He said WE ARE.like not really close but close enough that he categorized us as somewhat of in the friend category and not mere acquiantance

Which is what I Labeled him as!! cause dude maybe my brain’s real shitty that I can’t quite think of a memory wherein we talk! 

its just so weird is all Im saying at how different the perspective we had of each other and it was also quite nice to connect with other people

I know that you don't read on Tumblr.

I really hope so, because if ever you read this, I would be embarrassed, because then you would know how I pathetically like you so much.

Like you yes, Love? I hope not.  because if it is, then IM FUCKING DOOMED. 

The first time we met we were college students, at a university in Manila where one would be used to the stench of the canal in the middle of our school. We were both in different departments and in no way should have any chance to meet. 

But then we did, in English literature where our teacher’s nickname basically means a man’s little dck but in Tagalog. 

I can tell that you don't have many friends, well in that class, cause you immediately sat at the back and focus your attention to your phone.

You caught my eye and like any other girl I whispered to my friend that you're cute in your loner-type of way. my friend giggle besides me agreeing. Then our Professor came, who was actually seating among us students the whole time! He started arranging who seats with who. To my luck, I was seated next to you, my friend’s silently cheering for me in the background, but I was too nervous to feel excited.

HOW THE HELL DO I TALK TO SOMEONE WHO MOMENTS AGO I DEEMED AS MY CRUSH?

But then I saw what your so focused on your phone. ANIME

I was over the moon! I was so excited to talk to you and you were nice enough to respond to me and that was the start of our friendship. 

But then... the semester ended and our friendship... forgotten. 

It’s been a while,

I didn't realize that I didn't delete my Tumblr, a forgotten piece of my 18 year old self.

Looking back, nothing really change, except I became an adult and it was not as fucking easy as I thought it would be,

It also didn't held that freedom I thought I would have once I'm done with all the studying, the projects, the assignments. In fact what I had now are bills and responsibilities for myself and for others and making sure I have enough money to live the next day.

It gotten lonelier, that's for sure. Love’s harder to find, Friends are harder to keep.

I’ll leave home and travel the world...

I’ll do the things people won’t expect me to do....

I’ll meet people who’ll challenge my beliefs and learn from them...

I’ll study different language

I’ll meet the person I will Love...

I’ll get my heart broken

i’ll learn how to forgive and simply move on

i’ll meet the person who’ll stay with me no matter what

I’ll will be free...

I’ll be married in a church overlooking the sunset

I’ll have sex with my husband till dawn

I’ll have kids with beautiful smile and eyes that’s filled with hope

I’ll come back home and hug my father very tightly

I’ll come back home and tell them all m adventurers

I’ll come back home and thank them sincerely.. without them all this wouldn’t happen..

What it would be like, you talking to my dad, a strict man he is, asking for his permission in courting me?

What it would be like, sitting next to you, holding your hand and planning different future in which we were always together?

What it would be like, making many memories with you by my side?

What it would be like, us fighting, tears in our eyes and thought, “were not meant to be”?

What it would be like, years from now, seeing each other again and thinking “God, I still love him/her”?

What it would be like, us trying again, with doubt in our hearts thinking, “would it last”?

What it would be like, realizing that, were better together than apart?

What it would be like, me walking in the aisle and you waiting at the altar, tears in our eyes and saying “he/she really is for me”?

What it would be like, seeing you for the first time, in our own home, us wearing our wedding ring and living the life of husband and wife?

What it would be like, seeing our very first kid be born in this world?

What it would be like, us, old and wrinkly and still thinking that you’re still the most handsome/ beautiful man/women I’ve seen?

What it would be like, us in our death beds thinking our very last moments, together with family and friends, was it worth it? The life that we’ve share, the struggles that we’ve face and the happiness we greet… and the two of us look at each other “yes it was worth it”?

Rate: 5 stars/ RECOMMENDED

one of the most colorful anime I’ve ever watch. that was my first thought, then my second initial judgement upon watching the opening song was: maybe this was all about cuteness or some shitty thing (I don’t mind cuteness, but there are some that is irritating to the eye) and lastly I thought that if this was all games, then where the problem will come??...  then BAM!!! action, magic, GAMES. Holy Freaking Mushroom!!! THIS. IS. SUPER. AWESOME. I love the animation, the plot and the bond that Sora and Shiro had and their plan to save Imanity and to prove that even if we are weak, or that we don’t have magic, we have the wisdom that made us stronger than any race out there!!! GO IMANITY!!!... 

P.S Just so You know, I laugh all throughout those 4 episodes.

P.S.S Gamer’s Life is just so fucking more fun than anything else combine!! (just sayin...)

songs really do have a way in expressing people’s emotions.... and here is mine: 

your so mean... 

when you talk... 

about yourself... 

you were wrong...  -Fuckin Perfect by Pink

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and lastly:

oh... so you think you know me now

 have you forgotten how 

you would made me feel 

when you drag my spirits down, 

but thank you for the pain 

it made me raise my game 

and I’m still rising!!! -Who’s Laughing Now by Jessie J

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Try to make a poem... and this is how it turn out... hayy..

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In a world far away

much like our own

the same place, the same people

but.... everything is filled with happiness

not with grief, not with sorrow

there’s no war, only peace

no broken hearts nor family

everyone was happy

laugh in their hearts, joy in their souls

it’s a world, everyone wants

it’s world far away

so... my classmate was a great sketcher.... and I was amaze of his talent... well I was amaze with every skill I don’t have (which is basically.... EVERYTHING) and I was shock to see that he drew my ultimate crush!!! and I beg him until he get irritated of me and I got THIS!!! Just Sharing this to all of you fellow lover of The Game of Thrones <3